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My room is filled with hobbies I used to love, but now they're just collecting dust because depression stole the joy out of them. And I keep wondering when, or if, I'll ever feel that spark again for the things that used to make me happy.

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my warmup today that guy^ in glasses

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being mentally ill AND self aware? zero stars, would not recommend

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I don't have a morning routine. I wake up on straight survival mode.

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I’d be more lovable dead

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I can't take it out on people so I take it out on myself and now I don't know how to stop.

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One simplified way to describe depression is the feeling of chronic exhaustion that doesn't go away even after enough sleep. Like everything feels like a task that requires enormous mental effort, even when it's just basic things such as doing dishes or brushing teeth. It's just constantly feeling drained for no apparent reason.

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forced to say “it’s okay!” Instead of throwing a fucking chair at their head

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My younger self would be so disappointed that we’re still here

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I still mourn the inner child in me I had to kill just to survive.

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sometimes all you need is someone to call you pretty and hug you. oh and be sickeningly obsessed with you

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As someone who was groomed as a teenager, I need every young person to hear this: you’re not in a relationship with that older man because he loves you. You’re young, impressionable, and easy to manipulate—that’s exactly why he chose you.

If he were truly a decent man, he wouldn’t be pursuing someone your age. It’s not love, no matter how convinced he makes you feel.

You’re not special to him, you’re just vulnerable and he's taking advantage of your trust. Please don’t romanticize your own exploitation and go hang out with people your age. And I know people your age might not understand you, but it doesn’t make it okay to be involved with someone way older. After all his so-called understanding and acceptance are most likely manipulation to get you emotionally attached.

Putting this here in case anyone needs to hear it. Stay safe.

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I think every lesbian who says she wouldn't date a bi woman is functionally on the same wavelength as men who say they would only marry a virgin

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First, fifth, and sixth developmental stages of a Physophora sipohonophore. Glass models by Blaschka & Son. [x] [x] [x]

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𝐈 𝐚𝐦 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐨 𝐝𝐢𝐝 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐝𝐢𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐞𝐧 𝐢 𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐝𝐢𝐞𝐝.

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getting better and then suddenly im worse than before, and the cycle repeats

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Better off offing myself