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HIHIHIHI I WENT TO THEIR CONCERT YESTERDAY

TELL ME, DOES ANYONE ON THIS APP LIKE THE BAND "Mother Mother" BECAUSE I CANT FIND ANYONE WHO ACTUALLY LIKES THEM SJWVOZGWJS

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Hello, I know nobody is gonna really see this, but today marks two years since I met someone extremely important to me. And if she somehow sees this, I don't think she'll know it's about her actually. I think it's a good idea to at least write down this short story length yap session.

So, it's June 28th, 2022. I'm at my dad's house, on Picnic, which I had just downloaded. If you don't know what that is, it's basically just a tiktok knockoff with a bunch of gacha kids (/pos). I'm just scrolling, when I see a video. It's just someone's oc, and they're saying they're new here.

I decided to DM her, I said, "hey, I'm new here. I'm trying to make some friends." I copy and pasted this to a good 3 other people, she's the only one who responded though.

We had a nice conversation for a while, I found out her name was Ash, she lives 8000 miles away from me (in South Africa), and her favorite colors were neon green and black.

We talked for a while, and my mentally ill ass almost immediately caught feelings. So, after a good month or so of knowing her, I genuinely said, "I lowkey wanna date you-" (yes ik it's stupid, leave me alone I was young and extremely dumb 😭)

She was in a (somewhat abusive, now that I think about it 😰) relationship at the time though, so we didn't date. We did kinda flirt a bit though, playfully.

About a week after I said that monstrosity of a sentence, I went on vacation to a different state. This is kinda irrelevant, all you rly need to know is that I moved immediately after I came back

So, she was my only friend while I was in this new place, too far into summer break to meet people, so we just talk. Constantly.

At some point, I'm not really sure when, we start actually dating. Not exactly clear when, it was more of a, "are we together" "sure man" type thing.

Also, we made this gc with some of our friends, Kay, Alex, Elliot, Liam, and Pip are the main ones, in case I mention them later on

Anyways, school started, and we talked as much as we could, which wasn't too often, considering the 8 hour time zone different.

But we still talked as much as we could, and the group chat was going strong. It was a nice group of friends.

So, Ash always listened to my ramblings about my hyperfixations, as confused as she always was, but she never could remember them fully. She's always had kinda bad memory issues.

At some point, around late December 2022 or Early January 2023, we moved to WhatsApp because Picnic had a stupid update that ruined like, everything.

We continued to talk on WhatsApp for a while, before one day we got into an argument about neopronouns. Dear god, I wish we didn't have that fight. Basically, she didn't rly understand nor support them, and I was kinda upset about it.

We started talking a lot less, like.. from all day every day, to sometimes maybe once a day.

And, as ironic as it was, one day as I was leaving school, genuinely thinking, "I'm so glad I have a girlfriend to talk to as soon as I get off of school every day."

Yeah, she had sent a breakup text while I was at school.

She wanted to focus on herself more, which I totally get. We tried to stay friends, but we just kept talking less and less, until one dreadful day.

She messaged me, about a life update. Apparently she was now more focused on her religion (Christianity) and couldn't support lgbt anymore, which, for the fact, she sent a quote that literally went against what she was saying???

Anyways, this obviously turned me off of her a bit. We talked even less, until one day in July of 2023, when I messaged her, saying I wanted to cut contact for the time being. I needed to get myself together.

Anyways, for the main thing that fucked with me in this entire thing

One day, in September 2023, I reached out to her. Here, you can just read the texts.

So uh, yeah. She doesn't remember me. How fun, right?

It wasn't even romantic at this point, this person that I cared most about and though about constantly while we didn't talk, doesn't remember me. She forgot. I knew I should've been worried about those fucking memory problems, honestly.

Anyways, that's basically it. I should probably get some sleep now, it's almost 3am as I'm writing this 💔

Goodbye now 👍

ALSO PLEASE IGNORE THE ANNOYING REPETITION 💔

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@gvtz-n-g0ree

Not to be gay but I'd let you preen my wings. As homies, y'know.

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The strong urge to abandon all my friends and strictly talk to him<<<<<<

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STOP LIKING THIS WTF 😰

Chonny Jash but piss: Part II

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Chonny Jash but piss: Part II

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@gvtz-n-g0ree look at our son 🥺

CHAT. THE RAT SKULL HAS ARRIVED 🔥🔥🔥

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CHAT. THE RAT SKULL HAS ARRIVED 🔥🔥🔥

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I'm gonna try to like.. Make my room very silly over the summer to keep myself from breaking down and going insane 😻

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@gvtz-n-g0ree

Babe? Dear? Love? Fuck that.

COMRADE.

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Babe? Dear? Love? Fuck that.

COMRADE.

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Chonny Jash but piss

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I think I'm havinf a crisis man 🐀😡👁💪😡💪😡😰🤩🙏🤠🥺😓💪😻😰🙏🤠👁🤠🥺🤠💪💪😡🐁🙏🤠🗣🤠🥰😓💪💪🏠😻😰👁🤩😤🤩🥺⁉️💪😡😰😤🥰⁉️💪😡😰🏠🥺🏠💪🐁🙏🤩

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DEAD MAN YAOI

No <3

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I'M FREAKING OUT I GOT ALL THE GW BOOKS HHHHHH :DDDD

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My dad found his N64 from when he was like 10 this weekend and he had the original Super Smash Bros. on it, so I played for a few hours as Kirby. Goddamn, man, he's so adorable. Seeing that I liked him, my dad went and got me a Kirby plush and mug. Safe to say I have a microfixation now. I've been playing Kirby's Adventure for the past two days on the Switch. HHHHH I love him. He's so :T core

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The millipede from Charlie the Unicorn is genderqueer and idc what anyone else has to say