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what’s the general consensus for cat and laila’s appearances bc i could be mistaken but i don’t really remember it getting brought up in the books that much? unless it did in aftg i haven’t reread in a while lol. need to know bc i need to draw them as soon as finals are over

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Jean & Cat & Open Roads

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give me strength to not buy the rainbow crate versions of aftg…. i need to save this money for school lmao

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I can't wait for Jean to tell Kevin "have a winning day" before smacking the ball out of his net and sending it to Jeremy.

Can you imagine the violence???

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This song is so jerejean coded and i will not be taking any criticism on this.

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i desperately need to draw something from tsc. if i don’t im gonna go crazy but finals are coming up so i just don’t really have the time!

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I'm just gonna drop this here

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i am by no means a fanartist but i have this little headcanon of jean developing a nervous habit of fiddling with renee's cross necklace so i had to scribble it down

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all of the jean/kevin implications are giving kevins "its easier to be straight" a whole different meaning. fml

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I need Jeremy’s back story so bad! He told us nothing, but also so much! He’s scared a cop will recognise him, he’s avoiding his brother, his sister blames him for the situation with the family, he keeps all receipts including tips…. What did he do??

​I think he had a drug problem that lead to or was caused by a messy relationship

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jean in his internal monologue being like yeah kevin's a whiny little bitch and sometimes a complete terror... he rlly can be insufferable!!! but the second anyone else speaks on kevin he's captain of team first off that's my WIFE and second of all he can do WHATEVER HE WANTS

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Been seeing some stuff about how tsc is "plotless" and lemme just say, it IS. It is plotless but that's not a bad thing. Aftg seemed more happening because it was about dealing. Neil still had to deal with his father, still had to deal with the Moriyamas, had a psychopath hellbent on hurting him and everyone he cared about.

Tsc is nothing like that. It's about healing. Jean's not running from actual, physical threats but from his own trauma. That is not a bad thing. If it's not your cup of tea, fine but please don't shit on the work and say it's "plotless" or "bad". The plot is Jean healing, Jean learning to live and exist beyond the clutches of the Nest.

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Some post Tsc thoughts! spoilers under the cut :)

I have so many annotations in this book. (668 to be exact), so im just grazing the surface of everything with this one sooo part 1 perhaps?

-Kevin and jean. Jeans unrequited crush on kevin. I need to know more about this and I hope Nora delves into the semantics in the next book.

-Also how this relates to Kevin day famously saying it was easier to be straight. I figured this was a common thought among the ravens or at least Riko’s court,but Jean doesn't mention it once throughout the entire book. He brings up his attraction towards men multiple times ,and there was never any denying it. It was just something he accepted, so how did Kevin get the idea that it was easier to be straight and Jean didn't? Did Jean ever think this way and eventually changed it down the line or what?

-Im a sucker for found family and Nora really delivered with this one. Laila,Cat, and Jeremy are making it known to Jean that they’ll always be there and genuinely want to help him. The dynamic between all of them is so tender and I think it’ll be so healing for Jean. 

-Also I hope we see more of the floozy squad in the next book! 

-I need them to convince Jean to try boba at some point, and i really hope his relationship with food gets better. I really love that he’s cooking with cat and I really hope it develops into one of his hobbies outside of Exy. Let this boy live a little!

-speaking of hobbies: Cat teaching Jean how to ride a motorcycle?? I just feel like it would be beneficial(not to Jeremy’s heart but thats ok) 

-This specific moment with cat and jean 

she ran down to the tide to rinse it off with childish glee. Jean obediently inspected it when she brought it back, and she tucked it into his breast pocket with a cheerful “For you!”

Small things like this just really show how much they care about him.

- What’s up with Jeremy's family?? I really want to know what happened to where Jeremy “tore them apart” like what was the scandal his freshman year??? It was mentioned briefly but then Jeremy just decided it wasn't worth mentioning again considering all that was going on? The biggest “im fine” in history fr. Also when Cat is telling Jean about everyone’s siblings she mentions how when you go over 4 kids there's bound to be one asshole, but she only listed 4. So did one of his siblings die?? I might be reading too far into this but! Or it could be that one of them cut off all ties to the family after something happened? I don't know but I’m excited to read more about it in the next book!

Jeremy has—three. One sister, two brothers. The older brother’s an absolute tool, but there’s bound to be a jerk or two once you pass four kids.” Jean idly wondered what she’d changed at the last minute and why,

- The constant touches everyone gives Jean to ground him and make him feel loved just makes me so happy. 

- also jean constantly touching jeremy’s chin to get his attention??? Hello? 

A hand on his chin startled him into looking up. When he met Jean’s eyes, Jean only said, “Focus on what’s important.” “I am,” Jeremy said. Jean opened his mouth, closed it again, and let go of Jeremy without a word. Jeremy snagged his arm when he started to turn away. “Who did this to you?”

This line in particular really hit me.

-just jerejean in general honestly. The way Jeremy genuinely cares about him and wanting to help him heal 

You are going to be my success story: Jean Moreau the person, not Jean Moreau of the perfect Court.

“Will you help me?” he asked. “Anything you need.” “A blank check is a dangerous thing to offer.” “Try me,” Jeremy said. “I can afford it.”

-neil. Bro was just being a menace and seeing him from an outsiders pov makes me realize just how unhinged he seems to everyone. But him ordering that hit on Grayson without a second thought? Iconic. As everyone else is saying he dropped by to serve cunt and then left. 

-Jean dropping the most poetic line about Neil and Andrew’s relationship and then just not thinking about it ever again is so wild lmao.

Jean noticed how Andrew and Neil moved like they were caught in each other’s gravity, in each other’s space more than they were out of it, cigarette smoke and matching armbands and lingering looks when one fell out of orbit for too long.

-The parallels between Jean and Neil and how they dealt with things. I don't know if you can really call some of them parallels but they are connected in my head bro. 

-JEANS SISTER. Oh this shit hurts from the faint memory we get to the end when we find out that she's dead??? Nora you're paying for my therapy oh my god. And when Jean is mourning her the snippet of the memory of stitching up her dress that she’d get caught in the blackberry bushes???? He genuinely loved her and just when he’d be getting to a point to where he’d feel safe enough to try to get in contact with her again to find out his parents sold her off and she died because of it???? Yeah bitch burn your family to the ground. I hope we get more memories with her in them. 

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Lucas: asking Jean if they can talk after practice

Jean: staring at Jeremy's freckles in his shoulder blade and following with his eyes a rivulet of water streak going down his spine toward the towel wound around Jeremy’s hips

Lucas: waiting for an answer

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i annotated tsc 668 times so im gonna go through and share my favorites,,, i just have to go through them

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neil’s insistence on hiding his scars for as long as possible bc he knows it’s not normal and the foxes Will stare and ask questions vs jean just stripping in front of the trojans bc he expects his teammates to ignore his abuse since it isn’t their business... neil flinching from wymack's loud voice bc he doesnt trust men old enough to be his father vs jean holding his racquet out for rhemann to hit him after "failing" to do what he said he would do because he expects to be beaten to a pulp by his superiors and because "contrition, coach"... it makes me sick!!! i need to wrap them up in a warm blanket forever