callmejayyyyy

[callmejayyyyy]

i am so fucking tired of trying to be someone.

[callmejayyyyy]

I wanted to kill myself and you were screaming about a messy room

[callmejayyyyy]

why is the world so unfair?

[callmejayyyyy]

please don’t ask me what my hobbies are, i lost interest in life back in 6th grade

[callmejayyyyy]

ok hear me out… not being lied to

[callmejayyyyy]

It would be nice if I died not by my own hand, like getting randomly hit by a truck, a bullet to the head out of nowhere, or even a piano falling from above and crushing me, at least then I wouldn’t have to bother finding a way and the courage to kill myself lmao

[callmejayyyyy]

It's like living a life where I know 100% I'm gonna kill myself soon

[callmejayyyyy]

i want to be loved so so so bad but im just not made for it

[callmejayyyyy]

i want to do it so badly but i don’t want to disappoint you

[callmejayyyyy]

Being with me is like torture I think

[callmejayyyyy]

you didn’t love me. you loved the idea of me.

i’m not a concept. i’m someone with feelings too.

[callmejayyyyy]

I don't understand why I want to die so badly. I understand I'm tired and want to sleep forever, but I can't even write a suicide note because there's nothing to write about. I just want to die, and it's really sad. It's also really painful for the people trying to keep me alive.

But being alive is really tiring and exhausting and so much. Just let me die.

[callmejayyyyy]

right now is as good as ever to end my life

[callmejayyyyy]

I was such a good student but then mental illness happened and all of a sudden I'm a loser

[callmejayyyyy]

the way that I am makes me want to kill myself

[callmejayyyyy]

Im thinking about suicide a lot these days

[callmejayyyyy]

this feeling of loneliness will never disappear