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mom: what’s your primary news source? me: *thinks about the Destiel meme which could tell me aliens had been discovered and I would believe it in a heartbeat*

me: New York Times

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i miss crowley

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everythings so fucked. castiel should be on my screen discussing the latest episode of love island and that he’s been watching wax cutting videos on dean’s laptop while he sleeps. man.

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14.12 - Prophet and Loss - for DESTIEL’S 2ND ANNIVERSARY EVENT by @destiversary - Day 11: Season 14

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good night, kids

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so about that new TBOB...

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inktober day six: fall themed mabel - queen of the pumpkin patch

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Healing

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Thinking about how Nihilism Pamela is a mashup of SO MANY things, but my favorite thing that she is ...

is an avatar for gut-level, instinctual truth. She's a psychic in the sense that she's also Dean.

She acts on the truth of Dean's feelings and speaks them aloud.

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Pamela's meeting with the real estate shark is a (meta) variant that hints at Dean's gut-level instincts. Pamela says this:

(Which is yes, a plot nod to the fact that the saleswoman is HOUNDING, but Pamela's words are still functionally a meta for truth: the time before that, and the time before that.)

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There's other things that function as Dean's subconscious breaking through.

"You want something you can't have." -> This isn't real and deep down you know it.

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"This is my dream." / "Yeah." -> Yes, this is a dream.

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"I was starting to worry. Don't tell Dean. He'll use it against me." -> It's code for "Don't tell Michael. He'll use it against me." Dean has perhaps been suppressing his feelings and cutting them up in coded ways to prevent Michael from accessing them. His mind is a fortress. It's a known, well-verbalized (in terms of plot) firewall.

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Then Pamela touches Cas's shoulder, a gesture Cas often does to Dean, and she seems so oddly giddy to see him. That's not Pamela's reaction to Cas. It's not smooth enough. It's adorable. That's sunny and bouncey. That's all Dean.

The red matador of flirtation of sill visible here, united the shot with Dean, Pamela and the Cosmic Cowboy beer, cape swooshing behind its body in a bare-all kind of seduction, inviting The Metaphorical Charge.

Such an amazing choice in an episode about the powerful, violent true nature of angels... or the "blind" nature of love, for that matter. (Have I been blind since I met him? etc.)

This next set of dialogue is a bit more Pamela-esque, which makes sense after such direct challenge that she might not be real. Now, she's more "in character."

"I've been blind for awhile. Thank Feathers here for that one."

-> Now she sounds a LOT more like the real Pamela. She's falling closer in line with the Pamela as we last actually saw her. No, not Zachariah's weird fantasy, but the one who didn't want to die in 4x15:

She is Dean's lurking subconscious truth meeting the art of denial, and as she unravels, so too does truth unravel:

Our earlier "This is my dream!" / "Yeah." meets:

(All?)

(Us too?)

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just came here to say that i think the quote “he’s in love, with humanity” (by metatron about castiel) is the perfect encapsulation of castiel’s internal calculus and why I believe he doesn’t want to be a human. I know a lot of people say it’s just “he’s in love with dean” (as a joke or seriously) but I truly don’t think it was just about Dean. Castiel always cared for humanity, back when he saw it as his Father’s creation, and later when he fell and saw the value in it through Dean’s eyes and then his own.

but the thing is, when you fall in love, you love all of it—the beauty, the pain, and most importantly I think, the differences. Loving doesn’t mean that you want to be a part of something, that you want to emulate it, or become it. Loving means you want to step into place beside it, and to fit it into the space beside you. Castiel loves humanity, he does, as a protector does. As a companion, in the way that only someone inhuman can.

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Dean claiming he's just well fed immediately followed by Famine telling him he's so empty inside nothing can even fill the hole in his soul is - really something 😞😑😭

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Happy Pride to the ones who deserved better

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honey it's time for your daily "get sad about sam and dean's childhoods"

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Castiel didn't need to blow the lightbulbs out in the barn. That was very much a choice. He knew he was meeting The Righteous Man™ and he wanted to make an impression.