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[callmejose]

Chapter 3: The Heartbreak

I thought about that moment often, how we had talked about our futures, intertwined as they were. We had made promises to each other that, in hindsight, felt more like wishes than reality.

But as time passed, those promises began to fade into nothing. I watched as he changed, little by little, and suddenly it wasn’t so clear who he was anymore, or who we were together. Our lives started to drift in different directions, each of us holding onto a version of the other that no longer existed.

It was a quiet kind of heartbreak, the kind that didn’t announce itself with loud, angry arguments but crept in slowly, quietly, like the falling leaves in the autumn wind. One day, we were just standing there, looking at each other, and I realized we weren’t the same people we had been when we first met.

We tried to make it work. We danced around the kitchen at midnight, laughing and holding each other as if we could outrun the inevitable. The light from the refrigerator cast a glow over us, and for a moment, it felt like we had reclaimed the past. But even in those moments, I could feel the distance between us, like a shadow that couldn’t be ignored.

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Chapter 2: Those Days

We spent hours in the car that day, driving north through the state, the sun dipping low in the sky. The windows were down, and the autumn breeze tangled in my hair. It was the kind of perfect afternoon where the world felt smaller somehow, and the only thing that mattered was the person sitting beside you.

We were lost in conversation, but it wasn’t just talk. It was the way we spoke to each other—like we could finish each other’s thoughts, as if we had known one another for lifetimes. I could hear his laughter in the distance, see his smile through the rearview mirror. We were so young then, both of us wide-eyed and full of dreams that seemed to stretch endlessly before us.

“Remember when we first met?” he had asked, his voice tinged with nostalgia.

I smiled, nodding, remembering the way his blue eyes had sparkled as he had talked about his favorite books and the music he loved. It was as if we had discovered the same rhythm in life. At that moment, we felt like the only two people in the world who understood each other.

Later that evening, as we stood by the side of a small country road, watching the leaves flutter down from the trees like golden confetti, I thought it would always be this way. I thought we’d always be those two young people, on an adventure, with nothing but each other and the world stretching out before us.

But as I walked away from him that night, something shifted in the air. The magic we once shared was already starting to slip away, fading like the light in the evening sky. The promises we had made, the shared dreams, all seemed to evaporate in the cool autumn air.

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Chapter 1: The Scarf

The door creaked as I stepped into the house, the air cold enough to bite at my skin, but not so cold that it couldn't be softened by the warmth inside. It was early autumn, and the trees outside beginning to turn yellow and gold, making it feel like the world itself was preparing to change. The streetlight outside cast a dim glow through the window, reflecting on the tiles of the small hallway where I stood.

I was there again, in his house. It had been a long time since I had stepped through that door, but it felt like nothing had really changed. There was something so deeply familiar about the place, about the way the floors creaked underfoot and the smell of his mother's cooking that would linger in the air long after the meal had been eaten. I could hear him moving in the kitchen, his voice a low murmur as he hummed a song we used to love.

I set my bag down on the hallway table, looking around. His sister’s scarf, the one I had left there months ago, still hung over the back of a chair. It was an old knit scarf, soft and frayed at the edges, a relic from a time when I thought things would always be like this: warm, safe, and unchanging.

I remember the day I left it behind, the day I hadn't realized how badly I was already falling. The scarf had been a symbol of me taking a piece of myself and leaving it there in the house, in his life. A piece I hadn’t fully realized was mine to give, and a piece he had kept, even after everything that came after.

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Every day you wake up in my arms, I wake you up with little kisses of love.

How good we’ve got this thing you and me and I sing you the songs that you like.

Every lyric that I write is for you but I only know you in my dreams, my love.

If only you were mine,the places that I would take you to.

To see you happy and see you smile, there’s nothing I wouldn’t do.

I’d give you the whole world in one second, if only you were mine.

I don’t want to wake up from this dream.

You are the reason for my existence.

I get drown in your eyes and there is no salvation.

If only you were mine, the places that I would take you to.

To see you happy and see you smile, there’s nothing I wouldn’t do.

I’d give you the whole world in one second, if only you were mine.

(11)

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"Apology accepted. Trust denied. We move on." - Unknown

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Rose 🌹

I see you driving your car down to school

Your lips are so fine and you're looking so cool

I know you've noticed me too and if I'll be honest with you now

Maybe, I'm thinking maybe.

If you need a lover, let me know and let me in

I could treat you better, steal you roses every day

I might not have a fancy car but I fancy you

So gimme a chance if you need a lover, baby.

They look at me when I'm looking at you

I don't give a damn 'cause it's all I can do

Please don't go breaking my heart

Tell me you're aching for me now, baby.

Any flowers ain't your pain

I got so much love to give you as long as you feel the same way

You know we can do whatever you want

You just need to either let me come inside

Or leave me standing in the rain.

(10)

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Fall

Even time was lost in this place

Completely captivated by your light movements

I couldn’t stop you from spreading inside of me

My eyes are only filled with you

I can’t even breathe, it’s not easy baby

It gets deeper the more I try to escape

Just like this, falling for you

Into your swamp, I’m falling endlessly

My breath rises and locks

It’s actually more comfortable, deeper

I fall for you.

The mixed up looks tie me up

You try to take over even my subconsciousness

I know it’s dangerous but I’m taking another step

In the faintly shining sky

Draw me out thicker, draw me out more

For a long time in your memories, in your memories baby

Engrave me deeper, even if deeper

Yes, lies are bitter

Even though I know, lies are bitter

I said I fell for you but you made me fall so deep

I can see endlessly, you come inside and suffocate me

I lost everything, can’t turn it back

I’m drinking in meaningless breaths

Tell me before the sun wakes up

Send yourself forever into my arms

Feels like I’m locked up every time I breathe

Falling for you.

(9)

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How can I love the heartbreak?

I choose to wait and take a few steps back

Then I looked at you as you kept walking without me

An empty space where I used to exist

While upon the gray road we take, I see you look back

Just then, when I realized

That I can never leave your side

No matter the distance and the problems that we faced

It's easier to fight against

Than the thought of letting go

So tell me now, how can I love the heartbreak

When you are the one I love

To give you up because of love

Or from the heartache and pain

Oh my heart, that's something I can never do

Should I turn back around a few more times?

We have walked along together the desolate road

How our conversations turned to nothing now

We look out into the distance, out where the light shines

Just then when I realized

That I can no longer move forth

Each and every step they take us closer to our end

And the hand I used to hold, seemed to vanish in the wind

How could I do that to you?

Our love that runs deep as oceans

I will wait until the moment it runs dry

Will be the day we bid our goodbye

How could I do that to you?

Our love that runs deep as oceans

I will wait until the moment it runs dry

Will be the day we bid our very last goodbye

(8)

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I Do

There's a hush tonight, all is dark except starlight

Meadow critters serenading us with fine poetry

Your warmth, lightly leaning on my shoulder

Has my heart blushing foolishly

And when this rush fades, hope begins to bloom

How would we look as one, not two?

I know you and you know me, like we're onе

Between us, we share countlеss, identical memories

Seems all I did was imagine and it came to life

Wish for as many things as you want

You have my ear and your wish is my command

I'll get the stars for you if you asked me to

You can keep your wishes to yourself

Tell me only when you're ready, I can wait

I wish I could see your heart

Like stars in the sky

Whatever you like, I like it too

Wherever you go, I go

Even after all the years

May we still be together

By your side, by my side, you and I

Wanna make a wish? A star is falling

Blink, and we've missed it again

Now it probably won't matter

You already know

You're all that I want, just you

Be my forever and say, "I do, I do"

With a smile, please tell me, "I do, I do".

(7)

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You are loved. You are worthy.

You definitely are.

Know that you're beautiful.

Even with a scar.

(6)

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Amusement Park

Come hang out anytime

Don’t worry about what others think

If you feel like there’s not enough time

I’ll open at night everyday.

You don’t need to wait in line

With the all-day pass ready

Everything here is always waiting for you

I’ll be waiting for you in front of the big tree past the entrance

From there, just hold my hand tightly and follow me.

Shall we go to the ferris wheel over there?

Let me show you the garden and my heart that I made and decorated for you.

How about the roller coaster over there?

Just like the night I stayed up alone

It goes up and down.

Shall we sit on a bench and rest?

Let’s eat ice cream together

If you can’t decide between chocolate and vanilla

I’ll buy the mixed flavor with churros

Shall we go to the haunted house?

You can come into my arm if you’re scared

Just don’t let go of this hand

Don’t be sad at all, I’ll do whatever you want

Always, always be yours

Merry-go merry-go merry-go-round

You look beautiful on the merry-go-round

Merry-go merry-go merry-go-round

I’ll kiss your pretty forehead

It’s filled with dreams and love

Let’s go to the mysterious world

Splendid fireworks

A wonderful parade just for the two of us

I’m your amusement park.

(5)

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Ravishing Enigma

I don't know what's going on.

Your mood has changed like a beast mode on.

I don't know if you're happy or not.

'Cause sometimes you smile, sometimes you don't.

You're a ravishing enigma.

Pretty but full of mystery.

I could not grasp what's on your mind.

That's okay, I want to skip it.

(4)

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Cheap Thrills

Take me...

To low-end diners and local bistro.

Let's go anywhere retro from country clubs with beats so mellow.

To cafes, serving homespun espresso.

I want...

Anything dope but nothing fancy.

Anything sleek but nothing flashy.

We need nothing posh, nothing classy.

Let's keep our love and everywhere else, low-key.

(3)

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I'm not the whiskey you want.

I'm the water you need.

(2)

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You don't deserve a Title

While the world was sleeping, we were wide awake.

While others find their way, we were getting lost.

While others change themselves, we were trying to be constant.

BUT, that was before.

Now here we are, not even looking on each other's eyes.

(1)

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Love means never having to say you're sorry.

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