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i will be remaking later today...

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CHILDREN OF CAIN

starters taken from lyrics from various eps by ethel cain.

"love's never come easy to me."

“i can't forget him or forgive what he did.”

"am i just that damn hard to love?"

"if i had the chance, i'd do it all again."

"can you undo what i've done? 'cause i can't."

"there is nothing that i want but you."

"he's mean, i'm meaner."

"it'd be impossible to live without you here with me."

"i’ve never felt more alone with your arms around my shoulders."

"i love you like you won't ever know."

"i've loved before, i'll kill again."

"i love you more than i thought i could."

"i just want someone who’ll understand all my needs."

"i think of you while you're at work."

"i know you better now than i ever have before."

"they'll worship me forever, whether you like it or not."

"everything hurts except for you."

"sometimes you make me wanna put my fucking head through the wall."

"i owe you a black eye and two kisses, tell me when you wanna come and get them."

"tell me i'm no one else's but yours."

"i guess i'm just fucking mean."

"i don't hate you like i know i should."

"i'm not scared of god, i'm scared he was gone all along."

"you’ve never been afraid of what people say or see."

"love is a nightmare, and all that you've got."

"for the first time in a long time, i don't want you to go away."

"i don't even know who you are."

"i'm too good for you."

"i know if you left i’d cry myself to sleep praying that you’d hold me closer."

"am i not good enough for you?"

"dreams don't come true for people like me and you."

"no one's ever gonna love me, no, not like you do."

"i’m a goddamn fool and i let you ruin my life."

"home's not home unless you're there."

"there's no promise that i'll kill you, but i might."

"you would tell me to be strong, but love, i don't think i can."

"how am i supposed to feel good about myself when everything i do is wrong?"

"the blood is on your hands."

"what a wondrous thing, to be in love."

"i don't want you to get tired of me."

"nothing hurts like you do."

"i hope you know that i think you look fucking cool."

"i don't wanna be in my house anymore, 'cause it just makes me sad."

"i'm sorry, please don't hate me."

"you suffocate me, and i can't bear the weight."

"sometimes i wonder if i ever even knew you at all."

"if you fuck me over i’ll make sure that you can’t do it again."

"could you be someone else, if someone else is what i need?"

"i see your face in the lamplight, and suddenly i don't wanna die."

"you don't know just how bad it hurts."

"i think about you every day."

"it feels like all i have is still just not enough."

"i know that we’d go up in flames, but i can’t help myself."

"show me love in whatever way it comes to you."

"i am not the one you wanted, but i'm all you have."

"i'm sorry i went crazy."

"by the time i’m done with you, you’ll cry to god and pray for death."

"i’ve tried so hard to quit you, but it's no good."

"what's the point if you're not by my side?"

"show me where it hurts, and i'll lick it better."

"we know we’re better off without you."

"i know i don’t need you, but i'm terrified of letting you go."

"you will come to regret me."

"all i know is i’ve never seen you hurt as bad as you do right now."

"i lied when i said i didn't want you."

"i’ve done terrible things and you can’t deny it."

"got what i wanted, but it's never enough for me."

"there's no silver line on a fucking disaster."

"god as my witness, i'll put you in the ground."

"i'll always love you, and you know i will."

"love’s never been more than pain, so baby, show me how bad you hurt."

"i hate that i can't love you, but i'm just in the way."

"you've always been so fucking mean."

"i know i'm gonna lose you, but god i don't want to."

"i won't let anyone touch me."

"all you know is how to feel and how to deal out pain."

"it's all your fault."

"is there something wrong with me?"

"this debt is yours and yours alone."

"good men die too, so i'd rather be with you."

"i know everybody's staring at me now."

"every night i’m crying in my sleep 'cause i’m still dreaming about you."

"i don't have to wait to be happy when i'm old."

"look at this hell you've caused."

"you know my weakness, but you don't know what i'd do."

"i am here and changed, i couldn't tell you how."

"you thought you had it all figured out, but then you fell, and you've been falling ever since."

"i hate what love’s turned out to be."

"you're such a child and you know it."

"i like thinking i'm no different from you."

"i don't need to be happy anymore, i just need to know that i'm yours."

"not everything feels like something else."

"can they give you what i can't?"

"if i try hard as i can, i think that i can make believe that what we have is really love."

"am i just not what you want?"

"i am too young to feel this old."

"i have never loved like you, and never will i again."

"he's so good to me and nobody else."

"one of these days, i'll find a way to fight the waves, embrace the pain."

"am i just a casualty to you?"

"call me what you want, and i'll be that."

"you're the most terrible thing i've done."

"i’d die if i knew you found safety in the arms of someone else."

"i wish we'd have left while we still could."

"we both know it's what you deserve."

"i love you, i love you, i love you."

"it doesn't matter if the grass is greener on the other side, as long as it's alive."

"you're like an angel."

"i will always love you, but my love is not enough to save you."

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quotes that broke me starters

feel free to adjust pronouns / names as needed !

quotes taken from random sources or tiktok. i claim no ownership whatsoever.

❛   i’m supposed to be the one who protects you from monsters. i’m not supposed to be one.  ❜  

❛   if i could make a deal with god, and i’d get him to swap our places.  ❜  

❛  no one heard our screams for a long time.  ❜  

❛   i know so many last words. but i’ll never know hers.  ❜  

❛   there is a home for every departed thing.  ❜  

❛   it reminded me that i will never truly know you.  ❜  

❛   i also buried a part of myself alongside them.  ❜  

❛   after you died i could no longer hold a funeral. so my life became the funeral.  ❜  

❛   you don’t have to be awake to cry.  ❜  

❛   forgive me, for all the things i did. but mostly the things i didn’t do.  ❜  

❛   the human eye is the loneliest creation of all.  ❜  

❛   fairness is for happy people.  ❜  

❛   the things we lost will always be heavier than the things that stayed.  ❜  

❛   perhaps it is the greater grief, to remain on the earth when another is gone.  ❜  

❛   you stain the pages with yourself.  ❜  

❛   tears will not wash away the sorrow.  ❜  

❛   beautiful things grow a certain height and then they fall and fade off.  ❜  

❛    who in all these centuries has had the common humanity to pray for the one sinner that needed it most?  ❜  

❛   i have scars on my hands from touching certain people  ❜  

❛   despite everything, i believe that people are really good at heart.  ❜  

❛   you tried to change, didn’t you?  ❜

❛   you can’t make homes out of people. someone should have taught you that.  ❜  

❛   i hid my deepest feelings so well, i forgot where i placed them.  ❜  

❛   we have no scar to show for happiness. we learn so little from peace.  ❜  

❛   i didn’t leave because i stopped loving you. i left because the longer i stayed, the less i loved myself.  ❜  

❛   at every moment in our life, we have one foot in a fairytale & the other in the abyss.  ❜  

❛   there are too many sad eyes on happy faces.  ❜  

❛   it’s strange, i felt less lonely when i didn’t know you.  ❜  

❛   things change, friends leave. life doesn’t stop for anybody.  ❜  

❛   it takes a lifetime to die, and no time at all.  ❜  

❛   i am deathly afraid of almosts. of coming close to what i want and then falling just a little short.  ❜  

❛   i felt your absence.  ❜  

❛   what do we do now, now that we are happy?  ❜  

❛    you honestly thought anybody would love you? purely and truly love you?  ❜  

❛   don’t stop looking. he deserves to know someone saw his end, that someone noticed him.  ❜  

❛    i can bear my pain so long as it has meaning.  ❜  

❛   i dont have a single friend - not one.  ❜  

❛   i’ve had more than enough pain in my life, what’s a little more going to do?  ❜  

❛    it would have been you if i met you first.  ❜  

❛    i really thought he was going to be my forever.  ❜  

❛    maybe in the next life it would work.  ❜  

❛   in spite of everything, you’re still you.  ❜  

❛   the dead have it easy.  ❜  

❛   there’s an ocean of silence between us, and I’m drowning.    ❜  

❛   there have been countless times in my life when i thought i’d be better off dead.  ❜  

❛   what on earth… have i become?  ❜  

❛   don’t look at me! i don’t … i don’t want you seeing me like this.  ❜  

❛   i wish i could’ve been like you.  ❜  

❛   your fate was sweeping you away, like a flood.  ❜  

❛   the future should know the mistakes we made.  ❜  

❛   of course you have. you feel guilt. you want redemption.  ❜  

❛   i’m here because you can’t accept what you’ve done. it broke you.  ❜  

❛   even now, after all you’ve done, you can still go home.  lucky you . ❜  

❛   you’re all that’s left, and we can’t live this lie forever.  ❜  

❛    prometheus gave us light, and warmth, and eternal damnation.  ❜  

❛   take a gamble that love exists, and do a loving act.  ❜  

❛    i know i ruined your life. i suffer for it every day.  ❜  

❛   don’t let yourself get killed for… for pride. i’ve seen it kill too many folk.  ❜  

❛    you and me, we ain’t decent… but those folk… they were.  ❜  

❛   we’re more ghosts than people.  ❜  

❛   despite my best efforts to the contrary… it turns out i’ve won.  ❜  

❛   i gave you all i had … i did.  ❜  

❛   this whole time, I’ve blamed myself for that decision.  ❜  

❛   do you think even the worst person can change…? That everybody can be a good person, if they just try? ❜  

❛   i don’t want to break their hearts all over again. it’s better if they never see me.  ❜  

❛   please leave me alone. i can’t come back. i just … can’t, okay?  ❜  

❛   no matter the struggles or hardships you faced… you strived to do the right thing, you refused to hurt anyone. ❜  

❛    people like you don’t ever want to be happy.  ❜  

❛   i don’t want to let go. i’m not ready to say goodbye yet.  ❜  

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havana rose liu wearing chanel and miu miu for looks of the season spring/summer 2024 (photographed by ryan mcginley)

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FALLOUT 1.02 — The Target

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michael was at that point of exhaustion where he had become almost delirious and all he knew was that he needed to fuck the shit out of his girlfriend. it almost felt primal and he was on autopilot as he watched nina take off his scrubs, really not that difficult as they just slid right off and pooled around his ankles.

he effortlessly lifted her up right onto the bed, hands slid under her dress, pulling her panties off in one quick swipe. he grunted at her beauty, licking his lips as he kissed her once more, aligning himself before he slowly entered her, needing to hear any sweet noise coming from her. " fuck babe ... " michael nip at her neck, slowly picking up the pace.

nina had to do her best not to giggle as michael grabbed her and pulled her into an empty room. she was surprised he hadn't gotten tired of how much sex they'd been having. even on the off weeks they tended to 'practice'. as soon as the door shut behind her, nina wrapped her arms around his neck, kissing back eagerly. there was something about sneaking around the hospital that got her adrenaline going.

she carefully backed him towards the edge of the bed. "how long can i keep you?" she asked softly. as much as she wanted a baby, she also needed michael to keep his job as well. she didn't give him too much time to think about an answer before she was reaching for his pants, making quick work of unbuttoning and unzipping them, eager as always.

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words didn't seem to be doing the trick, so connor decided to show him just how much the man meant to him. lips left a trail of soft kisses on the other's flesh, hand slowly making it's way to tristan's hip, giving it a squeeze and tongue was introduced to the little song and dance. " shut up .. " connor chuckled, lips now nipping their way upward, landing right on tristan's, they hovered there for a second before he began making his way down. right when he got to the other's abdomen, he slid right to the floor hands resting on his hips, fingers hooking to the other's pajamas, glancing at him rather hungrily.

"I don't know why, darling - you could do so much better." Only a half-deprecating joke. Tristan was a hopeless romantic yet a man with very low self-esteem. He craved love and adoration and ironically thought he wasn't worthy. It was a tough place to be. His gaze locked onto Connor's though, a smile spreading on his face as he felt kisses trail down his neck, exactly where he liked it. He hummed softly, chuckling. "Are you trying to seduce me...? Because I think it's working." He murmured.