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googling shit like "why do i feel bad after hanging out with my friends" and all of the answers are either "you need better friends" (i don't; my friends are wonderful) or "your social battery is drained, you need to rest and regain your energy levels" (i don't; i've got tons of energy, it's just manifesting as over-the-top neurotic mania). why is this even happening. it's like some stupid toll i have to pay as a punishment for enjoying myself too much

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I know somewhere there's a hip grandma who survived breast cancer and her transmasc grandson who would love a matching set

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please do not give the puppyboy multiple choices he gets confused and overwhelmed, just pet him and call him a good boy as you decide for him. Please and thank you

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i think my family think i dont like white people now and they fully missed the point

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Why does making food take energy and its never the same amount. As soon as I think I have a few meals down that I will still have energy/motivation to eat. I can't even though I know its good and that I'll like it and that I need to. If I force my self it's just tastes bland and I don't want to swallow even though it's the same as before and I loved it I just don't it. Painting and improving this meat mech is a pain in the ass sometimes

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I've been sucking at doing my weekly wrap ups on Sunday so I may move them to Tuesday as thats when I start thinking about it a lot but that's going forward here's last week 3/9 -3/16

Daily Goals For The Week

Track calories 6/7 (one day a friend made me food and I didn't know how to calculate) ✅️

Brush my teeth once a day twice ↙️

Do 15 mins of intentional movement i forgot to track but did movement most days ↗️

Weekly Goals

Lose weight -1.8 lbs ✅️

Eating withing my target calories of 2000-2400 6/6 days a week ✅️

Gym attendance level 1: 3/3 days a week✅️

Gym attendance level 2: 3/4 days a week❌️

Gym workout goals: burn 2000 Cal ❌️, 4 hours working out❌️, and 12 miles of cardio over the week❌️

Daily step/activity goals: 2/5 days complete

6000 steps, 1 hr of active time, burn 400 cal

Mend or darn 4 things of clothing none ❌️

Finish big garden bed at work ✅️

Read at least 1 chapter of my library book i started ✅️ (finished 2 books)

Over All a pretty good week especially as im working full time again.

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I don't think I'll be able to make myself work out goals this week. A wonderful combo or going back to work full time, doing a lot more physical labor because of that, and spring allergies has been kicking my ass.

But at least I came to the gym.

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I don't think I'll be able to make myself work out goals this week. A wonderful combo or going back to work full time, doing a lot more physical labor because of that, and spring allergies has been kicking my ass.

But at least I came to the gym.

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Today's work out

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Im at the gym and I just realized that I'll be back here in less than 12 hours due to my schedule changing and now I want to just go home but I also want to finish my work out

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I forgot to do this on Sunday so here it goes

Weekly goals wrap up

Daily Goals For The Week

Track calories 7/7 ✅️

Brush my teeth once a day 4/7 ✅️ improvement

Do 15 mins of intentional movement: for got this one but was active everyday ✅️

Weekly Goals

Lose weight ✅️ 2.4 lbs

Eating withing my target calories of 2000-2400 6 days a week ✅️

Gym attendance level 1: 4/3 days a week ✅️

Gym attendance level 2: 4/4 days a week✅️

Gym workout goals: burn 2000 Cal✅️ 4 hours working out✅️, and 12 miles of cardio over the week✅️

Daily step/activity goals: 5/5 days complete

6000 steps, 1 hr of active time, burn 400 cal✅️

Mend or darn 4 things of clothing mone ❌️

Start gardening project at work ✅️

Read at least 1 chapter of my library book i started❌️ but I did read a lot of web comics

All in all I think this was one of mest weeks for goals and I've felt pretty good all week

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Saw these cuties on the way to work.

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I think i had to much fiber too quickly because my stomach hurts a lot. I tried drinking water and going foe a walk as that normally helps but this time it only made it worse. So now im going to try and sleep it off

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I forgot to take a before picture but here is a purring and end of fay picture on a e or project in doing.

It really us an arm workout, but it's so nice to see some of my plants from last year already growing again or were da b m e tobpropigate themselves

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I may be nothing but a plant with emotions but you bet I'm going to be one of those prolific and hardy weeds

Fuck yeah concrete! mentality has gotten me so much futher than wishing and waiting for "perfect" conditions

This also has had me reaching out to my local community more. Every plant is part of an ecosystem and must rely on what's around them.

Another one: I can and I will keep going no matter if I win or fail 💖

...this is what I needed to hear.

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I can't sleep but I found a small streamer on twitch playing grounded f and its m so relaxing. Che x knhim out The_Game_Baker