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I think... I'm gonna be opening a shop. Yeah. My cats need a lot of food (because i have a lot of cats and i hate myself), and even i'm starting to run out of food too. And since i'm not counting on the lightner helping me anytime soon, i decided to open a shop. I have a lot of this lying around in this old house, some might be useful for someone, i think. Also, i lost my bow. It's not that important but i just think my look is missing something without it. I guess i'll be using the black hood that's been lying in my closet for years now, it looks good. So yeah, that's it, and i think this will be my last entry in a long time, since i'll be pretty busy. Now i remember why i stopped writing on this thing. Anyways. Bye.

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Entry No. 1 Well, i found this old diary thing lying around in my house. It seems to have a lot of entries in it but they're all scribbled out and i can't remember what i wrote on any of them. Huh, i guess it's been a long time since i've used this thing. So now i'm doing it because i just found it, and to write about a... Weird dream i had last night. So uh... Wow it's weird to be writing on this thing... Again? Anyways, my dream went pretty normal at first, nothing weird, just me doing things... I wish i could do. But then, all of a sudden... Something changed. For some reason i was suddenly walking in some kind of... Graveyard. It was mostly empty, except for the graves, obviously. And uh, at some point, in the distance, i saw a man with a shovel. He turned to look at me. I stood there, unable to move, until... I woke up. Now, technically that on itself is not that weird, i have had weird dreams before. The weirdest part was that, when i woke up... I was... Crying? Like, there were tears running down my face. That dream wasn't sad or scary at all so... I have no idea what happened... It's weird. Anyways, i guess that's it for now.

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(She's not home right now).

(It seems she left in a hurry).

...

(There's a note on the floor).

(It reads...)

"Will i get to see you one last time before the day comes?"

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23 im just so worried i heard people outside talking about something some kind of event and Sakriss he HAS to have something to do with it and there was a note attached to the door i just.. ... Sakriss . screw this

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(It seems she decided it was no longer worth it to keep writing).

(Where did she go...?)

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22 the sky has gone back to normal and something is happening outside but i can't tell what it is ... Sakriss everything has gone back to normal but i'm still worried about you and i still feel a little scared to go outside i don't... know what to do...

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21 i heard him knocking on the door today i know it was him i could hear him sobbing behind the door i really wanted to open the door i wanted to open it so badly to help him with whatever thats happening to him i can tell he's suffering ... But i was a coward my fear just came over me i still couldnt get the things i saw in the graveyard out of my mind and the things he said back then... i was just too scared to open the door

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20 i heard people screaming outside but i don't see anyone when looking through the windows what is happening? have i actually gone insane? the sky is getting a lot darker than usual too. something is clearly wrong and i can't stop thinking that... he has something to do with this and if that's the case... how long will it take for the lightner to intervene?

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19 i don't feel like going outside today. im still trying to process what happened what went wrong im also trying to understand the things he said to me if my memory is correct, he was mostly talking about dead but everything he said just sounded wrong he was a completely different person i want to know what happened i want to help him but im too scared to go outside and feel the moon staring at me again

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18 the day after my last entry i went to visit Sakriss at the graveyard again. I wanted to see him and spend more time with him when i arrived the door ws already open. the air was much colder than usual. i heard sakriss outside mumbling something. i went to check on him he was standing outisde in the graveyard, shovel in hand. i tried to talk to him. i tried to calm him down. i asked him what was wrong but he just kept mumbling things to himself but when he turned to look at me. when he "snapped out of it". it was as if he was a completely different person. he was stuttering, he was shaking, he was almost catatonic. he tried to show me something, he pulled me over to look at a coffin on the ground telling me to look inside of it but there was nothing inside the coffin he realized and then he just got even more erratic and desperate so much he destroyed one of the gravestones with his shovel he was yelling about something, he swore that "it" was inside the coffin i couldn't understand what "it" was refering to the more he moved, the more violent and erratic his movements got. he turned to look at me again. a bright yellow dot appeared in one of his eyes. he ran up to me and grabbed me by my shoulders. he was shaking. i told him to let me go. his hand were hurting me but he didn't listen. and then. he said so many hoRRIBLE THINGS TO ME. THINGS I WILL NEVER FORGET WHY DID HE DO THAT HIS WORDS HAVE BEEN STUCK IN MY MIND EVER SINCE. I WAS SCARED. THE MORE I LOOKED AT HIS FACE THE LESS I RECOGNIZED HIM AND THE GRAVEYARD THE TREES HAD HANDS. THE FLOWERS WERE DEAD. I HEARD VOICES. AND THE MOON THE MOON WAS LOOKING AT ME I WAS SCARED I WAS SCARED I WAS SO SCARED AND SAKRISS WOULDN'T LET ME GO HE KEPT SAYING THINGS. YELLING AT ME. THE VOICES TURNED INTO SCREAMS. I WAS SCARED. I WAS SO SCARED. I PUSHED AND RAN AWAY FROM THE GRAVEYARD AS FAST AS I COULD I COULD HEAR HIM. SCREAMING MY NAME AT THE DISTANCE. THE TREES WERE TRYING TO GRAB ME AND i i COuLd still. feel the moon staring at me And when i arrived home i couldn't help but to cry i don't undestand what happened? WHY DID THIS HAPPEN? I WAS FINALLY HAPPY. I was finally happy. i... i should've. known. why would i ever think my life could ever get better? i guess this was just meant to happen i guess im just not meant to be happy

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Entry No. 17

(There is nothing written on the page).

(Water drops cover it's lower half).

(Are those... Tears?)

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(... It seems she didn't want to write anything today).

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Entry No. 17

(There is nothing written on the page).

(Water drops cover it's lower half).

(Are those... Tears?)

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I... I was speechless... I didn't know what to say... But then, i looked at the radio, and had... Probably the best idea i've ever had in my life. I walked up to it and asked Sakriss if it still worked, he said yes. Then i turned it on. For the most part it was a bunch of garbage noise, but after tinkering with it a little bit, i managed to stumble upon a song. I've never heard this song before, but i thought it sounded nice. Then i asked Sakriss if he knew how to dance. He seemed a bit weirded out by the question, but he said yes... And then i said the boldest thing i've ever said. I turned to look at him, and said... "... Could you teach me, then?" Sakriss stayed silent for a few seconds. Then he walked up to me... And nodded. He grabbed my hands, and began to guide me. I legitimately didn't know how to dance so i probably looked like a dork, stumbling so constantly, the song was very slow and i'm sure i still wasn't able to follow the rhythm, but... He didn't say anything, he just kept going... He grabbed me by my waist, i was grabbing him by the shoulder... His hand on mine... While dancing, i asked him "Do you ever feel alone, Sakriss? Here, in the graveyard?". All Sakriss said was "... Not anymore". ... And we just kept dancing. With gentle moves. Without saying anything, just looking at eachother's eyes. It didn't felt like he had to say anything. Just by looking at him... I noticed. His sad expression went away, he still wasn't smiling, but... I was. And i know he was internally smiling too. It was just the two of us... And finally, after so long... I stopped feeling alone too. I eventually had to go home. Normally i would've been a little sad about that, but today... I didn't mind. Just by looking at Sakriss, we both knew we were gonna see each other again tomorrow. And so, when i was leaving, he said "Good night, Ms. Care. See you tomorrow". I'm so in love with him. There's no other way to describe it anymore... I considered... Confessing to him right there, at that moment, but... No. I didn't want to interrupt the moment in any way. So maybe... Maybe it can wait another day.

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Entry No. 16 Today... ... After finishing all of my chore in my house, i got ready, and went to visit Sakriss at the graveyard. I was pretty nervous, abnormally nervous than normal i'd say... I arrived, knocked on the door, and Sakriss received me as kind and elegant as he's always been, he said it was wonderful to see me again. This time i didn't know what to say. I asked him for the reason of WHY did he want me to come here, what did he want to show me. All he said was "Please, follow me". I did, starting to get even more nervous and anxious. He led me to the graveyard, to an empty spot with no gravestones around, except for a radio lying on the ground. He stopped, and he said "Here it is. It will happen in a minute". I got confused, what was supposed to happen? I asked Sakriss about it and all he said was "It usually happens at this hour. I wanted to show you this because i think you might enjoy it. At least, i hope you do". I was about to ask again, but then Sakriss said "Look up. I think it is beginning". I looked up and... It was the moon. The biggest, shiniest thing i've ever seen in my life. So big it looked as if it was almost touching the ground. And then Sakriss said "Now look down". And when i did, the ground began to move on it's own, i almost fell over but Sakriss held onto me on time. I looked around me, all the trees around the graveyard were moving, seemingly making space for the moonlight. And then, when it's light touched the ground, several flowers began to grow from it. They were the same kind of flowers Sakriss gifted me the other day. And they were so many... It was an abnormally beautiful sight... Sakriss said "These are the same type of flowers i gave you the last time. They grow on this graveyard on it's own. I normally use them for funerals, but... I figured, since you seemed to really like them, it would be good if i were to show you this". And out of curiosity, i asked Sakriss "How many other people have you shown this to?" "No one" he said. "This is the first time i have ever felt comfortable sharing this with anyone"... I wasn't sure what to say. Everything about this, everything about him just had me mesmerized... After a few seconds of me being silent Sakriss said he almost forgot something. I asked what was it. Then Sakriss took of his top hat, and from inside of it he took out a medium sized box. "I also wanted to gift you this. I... Found it while looking for other things on the cabin. I saw it and... I thought it would look good on you". He handed me the box, and then i opened it. Inside of it was a shiny, black hood with a golden clasp on it. It definitely fit my style... I didn't know what to say... I thanked him for it. My face was definitely incredibly red. Then i told him i didn't know how to fasten this specific hood. The clasp on it is very peculiar. He said "Oh, let me help you with that"... And then he took the hood out of the box, got closer to me, and put the hood on me, helping me fasten the clasp. I was so flustered. When he finished, i asked him how did it look... All he said was "... Beautiful".

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And THEN all of a sudden, a group of kids in the distance saw us and began screaming at us. You know, just a bunch of bullys trying to bully two 17 year olds to try to prove they're not scared of us. We tried to ignore it, until one of the kids suddenly said something along the lines "EWW, THE GRAVEYARD'S GHOST IS DATING THE CRAZY CAT LADY!!" I GOT SO FLUSTERED AND EMBARRASED. I... LEGITIMATELY GOT TAKEN SO OFF GUARD BY IT I THINK I WAS SHAKING. I... I didn't know what to do... Then... Sakriss put his hand over my shoulder, i turned to look at him. His expression was a little different than usual. He actually looked annoyed, but the way he looked at me... I noticed he was trying to tell me something. And i'm SO glad i understood what he meant. I stopped shaking and he nodded at me. Then, we both turned to look at the kids, took a step forward and... SCARED OFF ALL OF THEM!! ON PURPOSE!! AND THEY ACTUALLY RAN AWAY!! I feel a little bad admitting this, but... That was fun. And i know Sakriss fount it funny too, he was laughing a little, and so was i! And then he asked me "Have people ever mentioned to you that you somewhat look like a cat, Ms. Care?" ... Yes. A lot actually. Normally i would've been annoyed by that question, but this time? This time i was ok with it. Anyways, the both of us ended up walking all the way back together, still laughing a little at what we just did. And finally, when we both had to part ways, Sakriss suddenly asked me something... "Ms. Care, i was wondering if you... Had some time to spare tomorrow night, perchance?" I got flustered again. I asked why, and he said... "There is something i would... Like to show you. It would be wonderful if you could come to the graveyard... I know you have probably grown exhausted of seeing me so constantly so, no pressure, of course!". "... It would be a pleasure, Mr. Sakriss". I said. Exhausted? Of him? ... I can hardly imagine that ever happening. Should i... Consider this a date? I don't know. But now, i'm just looking forward for tomorrow night.

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