carelessence-blog1 - Tumblr blog

[carelessence-blog1]

ummmm

[carelessence-blog1]

I cant believe he could tell i was avoiding him even though our interactions are usually minimal 

i cant believe he messaged me asking me if i was avoiding him after literally only 4 days 

[carelessence-blog1]

i cant believe he messaged me asking me if i was avoiding him after literally only 4 days 

[carelessence-blog1]

i was avoiding professor i love because well idk but i wasnt really avoiding him i mean i sent him a long ass email on friday adn then saw him while i was writing the exam later on that day and then just didnt go to office hours on monday which i suppose he expected me to go to but then i was like oh god im one student out of 23489272395231749175 thats nonot gonna attend hes not gonna notice but he just messaged me on facebook going “are youa voiding me againb ecause it feels like you are” and now ewe’re talkign and i want to scream 

[carelessence-blog1]

[carelessence-blog1]

have you ever just cried because you’re you

[carelessence-blog1]

ive gone back to my old blog

if you’re not already following me

@radiations

i am following like 2 people i need to refollow my mutuals

[carelessence-blog1]

[carelessence-blog1]

I went back to my old blog probably as a finals life crisis and idk if it’s permanent or temporary

[carelessence-blog1]

[carelessence-blog1]

this semester has gone by and ive been in a haze of post-suicide attempt the entire semester. like I have barely been alive, barely socialized, had very little presence, and did very little of anything. and now it’s over and there are exams and I don’t remember anything because I lacked all presence. like...I still don’t feel like myself. I disassociated for an entire fucking semester

[carelessence-blog1]

tag you’re nsfw

[carelessence-blog1]

[carelessence-blog1]

I still care about my grades but have no motivation to do any type of work????????????????????

[carelessence-blog1]

[carelessence-blog1]

me: *doesn’t hear what you’re saying* yeah