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You can really tell what my mental health is up to lately because I've hard launched myself back into my wips... we're renaming characters we're remaking picrews we're restructuring plots we're investing in our imagination! And you are all locked in for the ride btw

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honestly you all are so annoying because motherhood IS interesting but fandom people are simultaneously obsessed with deciding that every woman has motherly qualities and completely disinterested in actually exploring motherhood as a role that informs a character. I do think exploring a character being a mother can be wildly interesting if they are canonically one, but because of misogyny, people just view motherhood as a totally unremarkable naturalized state that all women must inhabit!

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“Humiliation by Design” by Beth Cavner

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‘this could be us’ and it’s an image of one person

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the only ship dynamic that matters to me! tbh!

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Ew i opened my heart and something crawled inside

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From the Una vida surrealista series, Leonora Carrington, c. 1995

Etching and aquatint in sepia

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how do Jabirian alchemists handle the fact that things have multiple names? if a dog is metaphysically composed of D-O-G, is it also, in some other sense, composed of A-N-I-M-A-L and C-A-N-I-N-E? is my dog Spot also composed of S-P-O-T? is that composition identical among all dogs named Spot?

Oh good question. Iirc there was a single construction for Jabirian balance in the mind of Allah. We may call dogs many things, but within the mind of Allah is the true dog formula.

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machine lies bleeding

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hey man not to make things weird or anything but i think if they cut my soul open they'd find pieces of you in there

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alexander mcqueen ss24

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fun facg if you all cashaop me 500 bucks i can literally help you reach salvation and bring you to the light

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Aleksandra Czudżak (Polish, b. 1994, Wrocław, Poland) - Death of a Dog, 2019, Drawings: Ink on Paper

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one concept im super into is that like. being a vampire is hard. there are ways to make this easier, but those mostly involve joining a coven. so young vampires are vulnerable to being preyed on (ha!) by the coven system and locked into a society created by people older and richer and much better connected.

like. getting a job is hard bc your movement is restricted during the day. the covens have agreements in place with multiple people across multiple industries. they can help you get a job that is remote work or night shift, but you have to join the coven (agree to abide by their rules and participate in their conflicts with other covens) and also agree to give them ten percent of your earnings.

finding food (assuming you’re a moral person who doesn’t want to kill people) is hard. you can eat animals. you can attack people and feed on them without killing them, which is assault. you can try and buy donated human blood from hospitals. but guess who controls most of the black market human blood trade and doesn’t want to sell it to you at a fair price? it’s the covens! also, the covens have arrangements with people they drink from directly, so it’s not like they need the human blood, but being in control of the trade gives them a lot of power in the community.

a lot of times, your options as a vampire are: live in a beautiful, luxurious base where you get free food and accommodations, are able to get a job, have protection from hunters, and have people around that you can talk to, OR, live in poverty, isolation, and fear. covens as organized crime families where it’s really, really hard not to join one of them.

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im deffo being farmed and harvested for the energy of my suffering but i dont have time to worry about that kind of thing