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Growing up my parents taught me that if you’re too sick to [insert responsibility here] then you’re too sick to [insert something that makes you happy here].

It took me a really long time to unlearn this. When I would get sick or have a “bad day” I would deprive myself of anything that made me happy. Watching movies, eating something I enjoyed, going for a walk, playing video games or just browsing online looking at funny cat videos. I wouldn’t let myself do these things because I was always told that if I’m too sick to go to work, or do homework, or go to school then I must be too sick to play Mortal Kombat or watch Unsolved Mysteries lol.

Whenever I wouldn’t feel good, which I later learned as an adult was due to sleep deprivation caused by my ADHD and depression (and of course the depression itself would cause me to feel like shit), my parents would tell me “if you’re not throwing up, then you’re not sick.” And when I would stay home from school (or even work in my later teen years) my parents would make sure that I didn’t have any “fun.” No TV, no movies, no games, no going outside, no arts and crafts, no books, no nothing. Just lay in bed and feel miserable.

I’m happy to say that I no longer do this to myself. Now when I’m having a bad day or I’m sick (cold, flu or whatever) I allow myself to do the things (within reason lol) that I actually love doing. If I’m not too sick to step outside for a few minutes then I’ll go for a walk. I’ll watch my favorite movies and if it’s a bad day or a cold (something that doesn’t hinder my appetite too much) I’ll eat my favorite foods. I don’t guilt trip myself anymore for having a “sick day.”

Just because you’re sick (whether physically, emotionally or mentally) doesn’t mean that you can’t do things you enjoy. You’re not any less sick because you watch TV. You’re not any less sick because you’re playing video games. 

Actually you SHOULD be doing these things when you’re not feeling good because they make you feel better. The better you feel, the faster your heal. 

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Is there anyone here who still uses tumblr?

I could use some nice conversation to catch up and practice my English.

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Lets play! Lol

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are you ever in the middle of saying something or showing someone something and you realize that literally no one cares 

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Audrey Hepburn & Gregory Peck in Roman Holiday.

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I feel proud of myself for owning the catwalk like that. I mean - the shy 18 year old I was would be proud of myself now, I believe <3 I have a whole new relationship with my body even though I have SO MANY flaws. And I’m happy about that

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actually sleeping with someone is so nice like waking up in the middle of the night and snuggling closer or lazily giving them a kiss or just feeling their arms around you squeeze slightly even though they’re in a deep sleep or handholding while you both are asleep ugh that’s that shit I like

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since I study journalism I’ve been trying to be a blogger. But I have zero ideas to write about ergo I haven’t written anything in over a month somebody saaaaaaaaaaave me

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I’m all girly and cutie when I’m supposed to be a grown woman conquering the world at 21. I mean, people don’t take me seriously and I bet it’s because I look like I’m 15

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sometimes I feel like I could right the wrongs of my teenage years, I mean, be in college what I wasn’t at school. Just like in a stupid teen movie. My shrink said I find adolescence a comfortable place to be. I even started watching Gossip Girl all over again!

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The last time I was a frequent tumblr user I had a nice job for an 18 year old but it paid really low for my qualifications then. I also had a broken heart by a guy from Boston who was like the dream guy for me then but didn’t give a shit about me, and a confused head by a guy from Colorado who was crazy to get some of the Brazilian beauty (jeez that was lame!). 2013 was one of the craziest years I can remember. I was also abused at work that year. And after I got rid of the monster who worked next door, there was an angel ready to rescue me from all this mess on the first day of november that year.

Three years later I find myself one million percent more responsible, confident, with so many experiences I never imagined I’d go through in my life. Such as: I’ve been living together with my boyfriend for 2,5 years now, and I love his sisters like they’re my own; I participated on a pageant contest to represent my state on Miss Brazil (I lost! lol); I got an intership to work as a “journalist” (since I’d never worked in the field of journalism before), and each day I find myself being “one hundred and twenty percent” feminist.

I guess it’s safe to say my life has never been better <3

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This guy got dragged like he’s never been dragged before.

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Happy Easter!

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Here Are Some People Who Are Very Confused About What “No Makeup” Looks Like

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