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[carrieluvsberries-blog]

Hi. My name is Carrie, and I am scared.

okay i guess this is my tumblr. i've really always wanted something like this. i've always admired the tumblr screenshots on instagram that show witty conversations between the community. i've always felt something drawing me to this site and now i think it's time. of course i am on the site and not the app bc my mom would probably never let me get this app. it's complicated. my mom has to approve of every app i get on my phone. not until i am 16 can i actually do what i want. of course i am that kid whose parents don't care after a while or really don't worry abt. i have always been a good kid but they suspect that one day i'm gonna go crazy and start getting apps that show ppl porn and how to not seem drunk in front of parents or even dating apps. they're paranoid. i guess that where i get it from. something i should tell u is that i am seriously paranoid abt everything. and everything meaning everything that i see in my life. there is a constant churning in my stomach that there is something wrong with the world or really any situation. it's a blessing and a curse you might say. a blessing bc i have an extraordinary imagination. a curse bc..... i'm always worrying and scared abt everything. i'm not depressed, OCD (i'm a perfectionist and i will get into that later. a subject i am super passionate abt) or even a sociopath (not exactly at least) i used to rant on my finsta and my normal friends would constantly tell me to get a therapist. but how am i supposed to tell my mom to sign me up for something that might not benefit me? she's already worried abt me as it is. They would tell me that u need help that i am not okay. but i guess this is my last resort. so before i continue on with this here are a few important things •I love Theatre and singing and dance •i have two brothers that i think i should always live up to or i will be the dumb child of 3 •Ed sheeran (just ed sheeran) •i actually think i'm going insane •i look forward to having a safe place where i can just let everything go Hi. My name is Carrie, and I am scared.