carterslegacy

[carterslegacy]

nightscribed​:

       the flirting would work if he didn’t know she was bluffing. she was clearly only saying this to make sure she felt in control and he just didn’t care. he didn’t have too big of a need to be liked by her, especially not in this moment. he didn’t even like himself. 

       “ well, i’d be pretty dumb to admit i want to kiss you in a closet when there’s people around and not somewhere better. ” he scoffed and rolled his eyes, looking at their surroundings. mop pails and cleaning supplies didn’t set a romantic ambiance. “ believe it or not, lemon pledge doesn’t get me going. ”

SHE DOES HAVE A BAD CASE OF PRIDE that often rears its head when she’s backed into a corner, that carter “fire” that never seems to extinguish entirely. but if she’s being honest with only herself right now, there’s a part of her that actually does feel some sort of natural draw to him. she hadn’t realized it til this moment, that a part of her was hoping maybe he did actually kiss her. 

❛ oh so you’re saying you’d take me somewhere better to do it? ❜ she teases, raising a brow and beckoning him to elaborate. at this point, the chatter of the staff outside seems to dull out, making it feel like they’re the only two people in the whole school.

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xebelean​:

IT WAS A PAIN SHE KNEW TOO WELL, at this point death was more than acquaintance to mera. she had seen so much from the first time her father made her pick up a blade and use it against his political rivals until when the blade turned onto her own son. as if it wasn’t a cruel enough fate already to outlive her son, she had to outlive her grandchild. 

grief just harbored in her psyche, all she knew to do was to lash out whenever it hit her again. screaming and shaking whenever the nightmares started up again. if her time in a hospital had helped her any, maybe she would’ve considered therapy. instead she kept the reputation of being a queen that had slightly gone off the deep end. the very people who chastised her were the ones meant to help her, maybe that was why she hid that part of herself from people.

except sharon. the woman knew the pain all too well, and as much as mera wanted to disagree with the sentiment- part of her still blamed herself too. if she had been there when it happened maybe it would’ve been different. 

❛ you didn’t let them die, sharon. someone took them from you… it’s a hard truth to grasp- that someone could do that to a child, it’s one i still struggle with today. ❜   she kneels down and pulls her into her arms.   ❛ you’re not a failure, sharon. ❜

GOD SHE HATES THIS. vulnerability feels as ill fitting as a square piece trying to get into a round hole. it’s suffocating and she can’t separate the self awareness and shame in those emotions from the truth that she feels them so strongly. it feels pathetic, sitting here and drowning in her miseries instead of facing them head on. but this is how she always dealt with this topic.

what’s the “correct” way to deal with something that never should have happened in the first place? what is the “acceptable” form of expressing grief for a tragedy beyond comprehension for most? her baby didn’t even have a name but she feels her loss so pointedly all the same, the person she could have been only existing as a dream in her mind. 

❛  there had to have been something i could have done differently...if i wasn’t working that hard...if i just took time off my baby might actually be here.  ❜ but still she melts into her embrace, feeling comfort in the tragic warmth of shared experience. ❛  i might not have stabbed her, but i put the pieces in motion for that to happen to her...that’s my fault.  ❜

[carterslegacy]

THIS IS HER ELEMENT. school itself was what it was, but the soccer field was the time she truly shined. and sure, she might be guilty of taking the game too seriously sometimes, but if anyone who trained themselves for this as hard as she had would.

she always knew this match would be an easy win --that’s why when she emerges from the school victorious, there’s a pep in her step. its confidence and unmistakably so. with her duffle bag slung behind her, she approaches him, an amused smile on her face.  ❛ well well well if it isn’t my detention buddy. ❜

@carterslegacy 

       during practices the stands were mostly empty, but the games brought out a lot of people. normally clint avoided any crowd like the plague, especially at school events, but soccer games meant watching sharon and he was always in the crowd for her. 

       with the game over he found himself leaning against the door frame of their exit. naturally, he had a cigarette in his mouth to pass the time as he always did at school, but he also had some flowers in his hand just waiting for her to come out. 

[carterslegacy]

🐝  *  ―  𝐅𝐈𝐕𝐄  𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐃  𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄  𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐒: ACCEPTING @xebelean​ sent:  ❛  you can talk to me.  ❜

SHE’S USED TO RUNNING. if not physically then emotionally --and this is one topic she always runs from when it claws at the back of her mind. her baby was personal, and talking about it has always been the one thing she couldn’t get herself to do. 

she didn’t even want kids --she told steve their lives were too busy, that they couldn’t call nick fury and ask him to babysit a kid. and when it happened, something shifted in her. the minute she was actually carrying a child, she felt all her protective instincts take form and suddenly, nothing mattered but her baby. 

and she knew it would die moments before it happened. that’s all she had, seconds. mere seconds to adjust and come to terms with the fact that she would never be a mother to that child because when sin stabbed her, it was over. and that’s something she’s kept caged inside, too afraid to let it out because it means that its real. but the woman before her lives with the same damage --she seems so together. and she admires that, hell, she wants it for herself. that grace in acceptance instead of this: being curled up on the ground with a bottle of vodka and trying to forget. 

❛  what kind of mother lets her baby die? you tell me that. because i..failed. my job was to protect my baby and i failed.  ❜

[carterslegacy]

🐝  *  ―  𝐅𝐈𝐕𝐄  𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐃  𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄  𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐒: ACCEPTING @pinkringed​ sent: ❛  forgive me. just this once.  ❜

❛  that depends entirely on what you did and how annoyed i’m gonna be so spill.  ❜

[carterslegacy]

nightscribed​:

       it’s less about him having any measure of guts, in this moment, and more just not caring about the consequences. he’s only with her by chance. he doesn’t think this is gonna be much of anything, he really doesn’t care what happens out of here. 

       her hand on his cheek makes him raise his eyebrows, he really wasn’t expecting it. he did happily lean in but he knew better than the think that was going to work. “ i’m not trying to have my way with you, unless by way with you you mean getting you to be quiet so we don’t get caught. i’m simply trying not to get caught looking like we’re horny in the closet. if i need to kiss you to shut you up, though, i will. ”

SHE’S GOOD AT PLAYING THE GAME, staying calm and collected in stressful moments --even flirting just to get one leg up on him. but neither of those attempts seem to be working when he seems to have a leg up on her this time. 

she’d hate that directness he gives her if it came from anyone else --but damnit, it works on him. she doesn’t move away from him, keeping his tone as she whispers. ❛ any man who kisses me? it’ll be because he wants to. not because i’m some chore. ❜ she replies, feeling a bit snobbish in the way her family usually was. 

[carterslegacy]

🐝  *  ―  𝐅𝐈𝐕𝐄  𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐃  𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄  𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐒.   (  all  of  these  are  just  some  random  sentences  i  thought  could  be  fun  to  use.  feel  free  to  adjust  to  better  fit  your  muses.  )

❛  alright, you’ve won. happy now ?  ❜ ❛  are you sure you’re okay ?  ❜ ❛  can you say that again ?  ❜ ❛  come on, are you serious ?  ❜ ❛  do you come here often ?  ❜ ❛  don’t do this to me.  ❜ ❛  don’t leave me alone again.  ❜ ❛  forgive me. just this once.  ❜ ❛  go and never come back.  ❜ ❛  have you lost your mind ?  ❜ ❛  i already knew about that.  ❜ ❛  i can’t trust you anymore.  ❜ ❛  i did it for you.  ❜ ❛  i have to do this.  ❜ ❛  i think i’m in love.  ❜ ❛  i will wait for you.  ❜ ❛  i won’t let you down.  ❜ ❛  i’m always here for you.  ❜ ❛  is now a bad time ?  ❜ ❛  it’s okay. i’ve got you.  ❜ ❛  just pretend to be happy.  ❜ ❛  now what do we do ?  ❜ ❛  oh, don’t pretend you care.  ❜ ❛  please believe me for once.  ❜ ❛  probably not, but who knows ?  ❜ ❛  sometimes, you can be infuriating.  ❜ ❛  stop ! we can’t do this !  ❜ ❛  tell me what’s going on.  ❜ ❛  there’s nothing left to say.  ❜ ❛  this’ll be the last time.  ❜ ❛  we can’t keep doing this.  ❜ ❛  well, are you ready then ?  ❜ ❛  what are you talking about ?  ❜ ❛  what are you waiting for ?  ❜ ❛  where should we go next ?  ❜ ❛  why did you do it ?  ❜ ❛  will you go with me ?  ❜ ❛  you are everything to me.  ❜ ❛  you can talk to me.  ❜ ❛  you deserve to be happy.  ❜ ❛  you really have no idea.  ❜ ❛  you’re hot when you’re mad.  ❜ ❛  you’re going to be okay.  ❜ ❛  you’re out of your mind !  ❜ ❛  you’re stronger than you think.  ❜

[carterslegacy]

IT FEELS LIKE THIS IS THE FIRST TIME SHE’S GOTTEN TO KNOW HIM, not the kid who was barely awake in detention with her, but the guy who currently is upping the stakes. she almost respects his ballsiness, though she’d never tell him that. 

she’s gambling right now, and he’s calling her bluff. but this kind of game is one she knows how to play. and when he says that, she leans in, placing a hand on his cheek like she’s about to take him up on that offer and kiss him. but she stops herself right before her lips make contact with his, adding, ❛ oh honey...you think a girl like me is gonna let you have your way with me in a closet? i’m easily worth a nice hotel room. ❜

Sharon / carterslegacy​

SHE’LL BE THE FIRST TO ADMIT IT, but she’s got a competitive streak. that was great on the soccer field, of course, but it often got her into trouble just about everywhere else. and clint’s comment ramps up that fiery streak in her, even if he didn’t mean to.

what can she say? she likes being the best.

she cocks a brow, almost challenging him to amend that statement immediately. but when he doesn’t catch on, she straightens her pose, moving his hands down to her hips. ❛ you saying i don’t turn you on, romeo? ❜ 

       she seemed all fired up suddenly, not that he was complaining. the main thing being he was trying not to get caught and she was being a little dramatic. he certainly wasn’t complaining with her pulling his hands to her hips, to which he gave a receptive squeeze. 

       “ i’m saying if i’m getting in shit for them thinking i’m having sex, it’s more worth it if i were actually having sex. ” that look only made him want her more, leaning down closer to her more. “ you turn me on just fine, i’m saying either kiss me or be quiet. ” 

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nightscribed​:

     he wasn’t going to be upset about anything the teachers or principal had to say, he didn’t give a shit about them, but his dad was going to have an explosive response and worse than that, his mother would be disappointed. that was always the gut punch. he didn’t need to deal with that or with barney’s chastising. 

       “ you really are a glass half full kind of rebel. if i’m gonna get caught in a closet for being horny, i’d like it to actually be after i’ve gotten to be, not because of this. ” he’s saying this but his eyes can’t stop staring at her lips. they’re so close and something about the way she talks keeps drawing him in. 

SHE’LL BE THE FIRST TO ADMIT IT, but she’s got a competitive streak. that was great on the soccer field, of course, but it often got her into trouble just about everywhere else. and clint’s comment ramps up that fiery streak in her, even if he didn’t mean to.

what can she say? she likes being the best.

she cocks a brow, almost challenging him to amend that statement immediately. but when he doesn’t catch on, she straightens her pose, moving his hands down to her hips. ❛ you saying i don’t turn you on, romeo? ❜ 

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nightscribed​:

       she wasn’t wrong, she just didn’t have to say it out loud. he’d smoked away and ignored most of his high school career already, he was the definition of sketchy. “ yeah, guess so. that and the teachers hate me. ” his eyes widen as he’s dragged away from the room and even further into the closet. he couldn’t help but look at her. he wasn’t very small and it was hard to cram in here, especially with her but for some reason he found himself drawn to her in this closet anyway. “ probably a good idea to just shut up then, yeah ?? last thing either of us need is to be caught in a closet. this looks worse than it is. ” 

GETTING CAUGHT MIGHT BE THE ONLY THING WORSE than being mere centimeters apart from a guy she just met. not that there was anything wrong with him (he was actually kind of cute) but she’s not the type to get up close and personal with anyone let alone strangers. but if they got caught skipping detention? that would bring aunt peggy out for the “parent teacher conference” thing and she can’t deal with any of that. so she’ll take this in a heartbeat. 

her heart is racing and right now, she’s not sure if its because of him in this situation, or the anxiety of knowing teachers are right outside. ❛ we’ll just look like horny teenagers if they find us. that’s way better than the whole “yeah actually we skipped detention” truth. ❜ 

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pinkringed​:

❛ nothing happened! if something more than an almost happened- ❜   dammit. she’s going to get hit again.   ❛ … which also didn’t happen. because scott and i are normal and totally cool and fine. ❜   

❛ neither of you are that “normal, cool and fine” if you’re letting things almost happen. he is engaged --and he left you! ❜

[carterslegacy]

she has a bullshit detector a mile away --especially where carol is concerned. ❛ spill. everything. now. ❜

cont. from ♡  /  @carterslegacy​

❛ hey! nothing happened! it’s totally fine! we’re totally fine! ❜   it was just almost a kiss. it’s not like they actually kissed or anything- that’d be wrong.

[carterslegacy]

you didn’t have to hit me so hard!

❛ i want and need you to have better taste in men because i'm not doing this again. ❜

[carterslegacy]

nightscribed​:

       he wouldn’t say they were daddy issues, frankly because if he wasn’t forced to he wouldn’t call him any kind of father. as far as clint was concerned, he and his brother raised themselves. “ i don’t look casual at the best of times, let alone when i’m actually doing something. ” he was shoving his hands in his pockets, trying to look uninterested, but mostly just hoping no one came by to see this. “ he’s more the drink everything in sight type. but he does believe in a bunch of conspiracies he shouldn’t. ”

NOT EVERYONE IS COOL UNDER PRESSURE and she just happened to pick one guy who apparently wasn’t.  ❛ so you always look sketchy? no wonder you ended up here. ❜ she teases, not even looking up at him until she finally pops the lock. she grabs his hand, hastily exiting the room and locking the door behind her so it doesn’t look suspicious at all.  ❛ told you i was good at picking locks. ❜ she says, winking at him with a devious grin. truthfully, she wasn’t sure she could pull it off. but as soon as she hears footsteps she panics, dragging him into a the janitors closet with her before the teacher or security guard or whoever could find them and ask what they were doing out here at this hour.  ❛ i don’t think they saw us but...i can hear them talking to someone. ❜ she’s trying to ignore the fact that there’s no space between them so she’s practically pressed up against this guy she only just met.

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nightscribed​:

       “ good, my dad’s enough of a lunatic for us both, i’m sure. ” he couldn’t help but roll his eyes, even though he’s the one that brought up harold in the first place. he was a downright asshole and he couldn’t help but feel his blood boil a little. he followed her over to the door, trying not to have a sitcom moment as her hair fell down the way it did. he tried to look as casual as he could while he looked out for her, knowing he probably stuck out worse than ever. 

SO DADDY ISSUES IS HIS VICE --that’s the one thing she doesn’t have. her parents weren’t really around enough that she had any sort of relationship with them. but everyone’s got some baggage, that much she’s always been convinced of. ❛ you can try and look casual, you know. ❜ she replies, peeking up just to see him watching through the window in the door not so inconspicuously at all. she has to think he hasn’t done this sort of thing much. ❛ so is he the apocalypse bunker type? ❜ she teases, working her bobby pin through the lock. 

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nightscribed​:

       “ does she have a ‘ scared the apocalypse is coming tomorrow bunker ’ or something ?? ” that was what he first thought of when it came to the overly prepared people. that and hiding weapons in every nook and cranny you can think of. none the less, he finally sat up and shrugged, more nonchalant than anything. “ yeah, sure. beats being in here, that’s for damn sure. ”

SHE SHAKES HER HEAD, almost laughing at the notion that aunt peggy was one of those crazy folks living off conspiracy theories. ❛ she’s not really a nutcase. just someone who knows a lot of convenient tricks. ❜ once he moves, she stands up and creeps over to the door, careful not to bump into any other desks and wake up any of the other students in detention. she pulls the bobby pin from her hair, shaking it out so it falls neatly against her shoulders. once she kneels down, she turns back to him. ❛ watch the door for me. let me know if anyone’s coming. ❜ 

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nightscribed​:

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       “ i don’t think anyone notices when i’m anywhere, to be fair. ” he really doubted anyone remembered they were there. he’d been lying with his head burrowing into his arms further and further as the minutes dragged slowly on. he swore this was like prison only worse and he just hated it. “ wait, are you secretly the coolest person alive ?? ”

SHE CAN’T REALLY ARGUE when he says no one notices when he’s there --it’s her first time talking to him. and besides, she wasn’t really known for going out of her way to meet new people. but he looked like he could come in handy for her little escape plan, and that made him the most interesting guy in the room. ❛ my aunt’s taught me a lot of things you wouldn’t expect. she’s kinda one of those “prepare for everything” types. ❜ it’s an easier explanation than saying she’s a super spy. ❛ so are you in? i’ll bust you out too if you give me a hand. ❜