#miscarriage cw

[cyber-skeletons]

In the beginning, it seemed so simple. The Senate had informed him immediately upon his awakening exactly who and what his enemy was, and he had not questioned them. Why would he have? The evidence was plain all around him. He arose as Optimus Prime, and immediately set out to war against Megatron; Megatronus, in those days, and his Descepticons. Orion Pax had been weak in those early days, his spark still under shock of taking the Matrix of Leadership, capable of little other than tracking Megatron on the battlefield, the spark always settling in whichever nook of his spark chamber was closest to Megatron.  Another harsh stab of fury filled his processors. The Matrix… Optimus could feel Orion's hatred and fear of it. He couldn't understand it. The Matrix of Leadership was a gift to be bestowed only on those worthy of a Prime. Orion Pax should be grateful towards the Matrix. For millennia… he didn't understand. 

Please go read "4 Million Years" by @spreadwardiard if you like angst <3

[gaybichon]

my sim had a miscarriage and i tried to add the baby to the household as a ghost but it just manifested as an alive (?) infant named Unborn Child and i can't age him up 🤔

[apricote]

after losing her baby, things didn't be the same with duane anymore, so julie asked for a break in their relatioship. :(

[kiran-wears-science-blues]

Looks like I'm likely on miscarriage number two, but I still have work today which is terribly stupid and unfair.

[sweetshelluvaau]

Taking a break from doing Helluva Boss redesigns to do some Hazbin Hotel ones because my brain was screaming inside telling me to draw Lilith which ended up be deciding to drawing Lucifer as well! I Also finished up my redesign of Charlie but I'm gonna give them their own dedicated post

Like always, notes under the cut. Drawn in Clip Studio Paint and with Photoshop CS6 for final touches. Okay to reblog, Feedback is encourage.

About the canon designs and personalities:

Lucifer: Honestly, I don't mind Lucifer's design too much outside of the fact it falls under the typical Viziziepop's Twink she likes to draw. I do think overall, the Ringleader idea she was going for is there, sorta. That being said: I have it out for that top hat. Not necessarily the fact he's wearing one he's one of the few characters I don't mind wearing one more than the accessories with it. Between the stupid crown, snake and apple it just...doesn't work for me.

As for his portrayal in the show: I happen to like Lucifer in Hazbin I think he's a fun character even though I do have problems as I'm about to address. Jeremy Jordan seemed like one of the few voice actors that sounded like he was having fun playing his character suppose to just being there for a paycheck (I mean, he was there for that but still). I know people complain that he sounds too young which I do agree I do think Jordan could have gave him a slightly deeper voice along with his design looking as if he was a bit older; but considering that he's over, what? Eons years old with an angelic background, I'll give it a pass.

I'm iffy on his backstory, or at least how it's handled in the show. Lucifer being an 'innocent' dreamer with good intentions doesn't necessarily bother me too much and his punishment for giving humanity freewill has an irony to it so no problems there. However I do have problems with how as the character that's suppose to be the cause of all sin, the fucking Devil himself and the ruler of Hell; isn't treated like such. Yeah I know he misses his wife Tails, he misses her a lot but c'mon man, you're the King of Hell and The Sin of Pride! In the pilot he seemed to have a more sinister, or at the least threating presence from the little we saw of him.

Also, you took the Pride out of the Sin of Pride? Where's his bite? What are you doin' Viv!?

This is a problem I have with Helluva as well where the Sins, or at least the case for Bee and Ozzie season two onward is that the show is too afraid to make even the more lax, 'nicer' of the Sins not being threating or a bit of dicks sometimes Mammon withstanding because Vivienne is worried that she'll risk them coming across as unlikeable which is bullshit considering how people love asshole characters when they're written right or are fun. Helluva's Mammon is proof right there the fandom love him and Ozzie, as brief as it was in Season One had a banger of a 'villain' song where he and Fizz drag three of the main cast member's sex lives just because he fucking can and says he dislikes 'lovely dovey' crap which is a bit hypocritical considering how much he smitten with his Jester Boyfriend (You two were all touchy and that nuzzle at the end they aren't fooling anyone lol) why did you take away their bite and turned Fizz into such a wimp I miss my little chaotic gay gremlin man... but I'm getting a head of myself.

I don't mind Lucifer and by extension the Sins themselves NOT being evil; in fact I like the idea of them being morality dubious/having questionable morality along with them having a bit of 'humanity' to them, makes them more interesting as characters, but to take away their bite or having 'good' sins and 'bad' sins (ranted about that here) just sounds like a cheap copout and takes away any nuance to the whole idea of sin to begin with being how Hazbin is suppose to be a story about redemption and if a sinner CAN be redeemed. Granted a poorly constructed story that misses the mark horribly, but I digest.

Overall, I do like Lucifer as a character but I wouldn't have 'woobified' him if that makes sense.

Lilith: Her design is...meh. Her dress is pretty, sure; but it's like a normal ballgown. I like the idea of the horns.

...That's all I got to say honestly.

Since we don't know much about her personality in the show yet outside of hints that she 'thrived' in Hell and her and Lucifer were separated by the time the story happened, there's not much for me to say on this front. Prior to the show dropping (or maybe just the pilot), Vivienne hinted that they were gonna have a Gomez and Morticia dynamic going on so consider me disappointed that this ended up not being the case. Damn, would I have killed to have them be this happily married power couple because let's be real: You can't be a powerful badass King without your equality powerful badass Queen, am I right? XD I'd eat that shit up!

I honestly fear Lilith in the show is going to end up being Stella 2.0 which I hope isn't the case but considering Vivienne's writing I don't have much faith she'll be anything but. Maybe not as bad, but yeah...

Anyways, on to the redesigns and character changes:

Lucifer: I said before that I'm not really going with the circus theme in my rewrite/au. I do think on paper the "Hell is a circus' is interesting, fun concept but that's been barely, if at all utilized in Hellaverse outside of a poorly done aesthetic, but it's not the direction I personality want to go with. I may still play with the whole circus thing with the Happy Hotel itself, but otherwise...yeah, right, redesign.

I knew from the beginning I wanted to give him a more darker color scheme along with adding purple into his outfit because purple = Pride so I settled on a dark purple, red and gold/bronze combo. I was debating if I should have scraped his top hat or not being how Hellaverse made me me have it out agasist tops hats like almost every other male character has a fucking top hat there's other kinds of hats but at the end of the day I decided to keep it though he doesn't always wear it. I did draw him without the hat as well which you can view towards the end of the post. I kept the apple motif he has going and while I didn't do much with his cane, I did add a snake which yes, is alive. That's his pet Temptation and he loves her very much.

Outfit inspiration:

Personality wise it's very similar to what it is in the show but taken in a bit more darker direction. Think overdramatic theater kid meet rebellious somewhat edgy adult who hasn't grown out of his teenage years (that's not saying he doesn't act like an adult he does but he has that 'whimsical' nature to him where he sometimes won't take things seriously or refuses to take responsibility though there are moments where he does have to 'Swallow his Pride' so to speak).

I also made him much more Prideful because he's the Sin of Pride, duh. This man will fight tooth and nail to prove that he's in the right (a trait that Charlie also shares) because his ego and pride won't let him rest and he's not going to back down DAMN IT!!. Lilith and/or a few of the Sins (Satan, Beelzebub and Ozzie respectfully) have to reel him in so he doesn't do anything stupid and make an ass out of himself more than he already has.

However, just because he is a prideful prick a good portion of the time doesn't mean he doesn't have his moments of genuine compassion and love for those who are important in his life. He loves his family, daughter included despite how unsupportive and very passive aggressive in regard to believing that her plan is dead in the water and has no problem addressing those thoughts in a 'tough love' kind of way (or what he believes is tough love when it's reality he's coming across as him just beating her down and making them drift even father apart as if they already slowly weren't. As I said, he's very prideful when he believes he's right) and views most of the other Sins minus Leviathan as his firends/true companions though some are much closer to him than others.

I kept most of his backstory in the show the same where he had some good intentions of gifting humanity freewill but also at the same time did it out of rebellion towards his father (God) after falling for Lilith and believing that everything that made her...well her (her freewill, sprit, strength) should be given to every human only for it to backfire and bring evil and sin in the world annnnd we know how this story goes. (otr I have both Eve AND Adam eat from the apple and Lilith had nothing to do with the whole thing but was punished regardless for 'influencing' Samael regardless if she pushed him or not) There was still a Heaven and Hell war but that doesn't happen until much later in the timeline once Hell gains the power and means to declare such on Heaven, only for them to lose in the end. The Exterminations has something to play with the outcome of the war but that's a discussion for another time.

Lilith:

Putting aside I didn't want both Lilith and Lucifer to have the same hair color (one of the reasons why I didn't also make Luci's hair red after he fell, even if that was more canon biblically correct), I wanted Lilith to be a red head like she is in biblical stories. I also made her skin a bit darker. I was aiming for an olive skin tone but not sure if I successfully succeeded in that.

Lilith still has her horns but I made them much smaller. They expand/grow bigger when she's enraged or goes into her full demon form where her eyes also glow and her nails turn into long, sharp blade like talons. I plan on drawing her demon form along with the rest of the Morningstars later down the line. I also gave her animal ears which I may revisit later being that was a last second addition. I wanted to give Luci or Lilith hooves as well but I didn't think about it after the drawings were done. (likely will give Luci them)

Dress inspiration:

As for personality and overall character changes go: Well for starters, Both Lilith and Lucifer are a happily married power couple like we were lead on to believe and I WILL NOT TAKE NO FOR AN AWSNER!!

As I said earlier, we still don't know much about Lilith as a character in the show outside of the fact she thrived in Hell and influenced demonkind but never said of what that entailed. I'm still keep those elements of course, having her be a beacon for the Hellborn and establishing connections and business with a good share of the Overlords in Pride, especially with the more 'lesser evil' Sinner ones. Lilith is the one who normally engages with Sinners on large where Lucifer rather avoid them as much as possible with a few exceptions being how he blames them for why he ended up down in Hell to begin with considering he did believe they'd do good with the 'gift' he gave them, only to be proven wrong and him having to suffer seeing the worst of humanity as punishment.

Personality wise, Lilith is a strong willed, go getter who wants nothing but the best for her family, firends and citizens. She involves herself heavily in the politics of Hell while also hoping to inspire her people, Hellborn and Sinners alike. Soft but strong, caring but stern; playful but serious when she has to be, Lilith wears her title on her sleeve as the Queen of Hell and a mother and friend to those who look up to her.

Like Charlie and unlike her husband, Lilith sees the good in humanity. She was human herself after all, deemed the first Sinner but she's more indirect and hands off with her methods where Charlie wants to be more hands on and direct with her hotel idea. Lilith tries to guild her daughter the best she can but tries to persuade her that her plans for the Happy Hotel may not have the effect she hopes, even as supportive she is of her daughters' ideals.

Lilith has succubus like powers but isn't one herself; however she does work with Asmodeus to train those who do go up topside to spread sin.

Charlie may be the Hellish couple's first child but it wasn't the first time Lilith tried conceive; Charlie was the only one who made it fully to term.

Lilith is much taller than Lucifer, while Charlie is only slightly taller than her father.

I'm going to likely revisit their redesigns in the future because there are a few things I would like to change/add on to but overall this is the direction I plan on going for them. I know this post was long and if you happened to read though all of this: Thank you for reading~

Charlie's redesign will be next being I finished her for a while now I just need to write out my notes. Hopefully this weekend it'll be up.

Bonus, Lucifer without his hat:

[makgeolii]

maybe in another timeline things would work out

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[crivalsduo]

Does hh!Dream know he's had multiple miscarriages? Did Sam or Quackity realize that a miscarriage was happening the first time around?

he's aware of the two, yeah.

if there was another in the prison, he likely wouldn't have noticed because of the horrific torture and abuse he was going through. he was often in pain and disorientated. they left him bleeding often. it kind of all blended together at some point.

but no, neither of them realized what was happening. they thought it was a period, mostly because it's a little hard to determine early on especially if you have no experience with it, from an outside perspective.

honestly, i was talking about this today with a friend but in the fic, the first miscarriage is basically brushed over completely and i did that on purpose. not even dream had the energy to care about what was happening. certainly no one else did.

then it happens again, at techno's cabin. and everyone cares. everyone is so gentle with him. he's allowed to process what's happening (as best as he can). he's held and comforted and given a pass to get all the crumbs in techno's bed he wants.

the difference is pretty stark.

[scrunchie-face]

In your kindness please remember a friend of mine from church. She had a late miscarriage (17 weeks) and is being induced to deliver her little one this afternoon.

[hightownquccn]

Holy shit.

Legit question about Comics!Steve and Sharon. Does Tony/Sam ever tell Sharon about the miscarraige she suffered after fighting Sin??? It never gets brought up again as far as I remember.

Does she ever tell Steve???

Or it this one of those 'we're just going to forget it ever happened even though it is a major and important thing' moments?

[petrichoremojis]

(triggering content anon)

We'd like an emoji representing miscarriage for a headmate of ours whose been having a really hard time talking about it verbally

[ID: A bust of an emoji yellow person holding a long white space in the shape of a baby. They are crying and there are blue emphasis lines around the empty space. End ID]

I hope that this works for you. If it does not, let me know and I'll happily do something else. I don't currently have any ideas for a miscarriage symbol that has an emphasis on a fetus rather than a baby, but when I do, I will try to get that drawn as well.

[coral-nerd]

HOLY-

I thought they just couldn't Have kids, not... oh no. Poor Emily!

[dead-since-the-beginning]

i’ve missed him for longer than he ever existed

[apricote]

julie had a miscarriage. 💔

[mercymaker]

WIP: malstarion behbeh

Tfw you get trapped in the Underdark, half-starving for almost a month, somehow make it out to the surface unscathed, only to end up waking in the middle of the night with severe pain which leaves your partner scrambling in the dark, looking for a healer... Yet the pain seems... almost familiar and dread seizes your heart.

“I love Thoriel, I truly do. But if could go back and change what happened, I would.” Maleane’s voice faltered more than once. It wasn’t an easy thing to say, but it was a sad, honest truth. “I can’t go through that again. Not for you, not for anyone. I would rather die.” --- “A drow dhampir? Name a more cursed creature to roam this realm,” she scoffed, yet her eyes betrayed a deeper pain attached to those words. They both had experienced a fair share of trouble over their nature; hatred and distrust were quick responses to anyone seeing them both for who they were. After all, a vampire and a drow were the main monsters of many a cautionary tale.

[ofsilksandchiffon]

Dearest Gentle Reader...

you do not know me but rest assured i know you, 𝙼𝙸𝚂𝚂 𝚂𝙰𝚁𝙰𝙸 𝙰𝚂𝚂𝙰𝚁𝙰𝚃𝙰𝙽𝙰𝙺𝚄𝙻. you are the 𝙰𝙲𝚃𝚁𝙴𝚂𝚂 𝙰𝙽𝙳 𝙲𝙾𝚄𝚁𝚃𝙴𝚂𝙰𝙽. you maybe be known for your 𝙲𝙷𝙰𝚁𝙼𝙸𝙽𝙶 but it is only a mask for the true nature of your 𝚂𝙴𝙻𝙵𝙸𝚂𝙷 ways. however, i am not here to spread slander on the queen’s jewels, though i suspect you are her 𝚆𝙷𝙸𝚃𝙴 𝚂𝙰𝙿𝙿𝙷𝙸𝚁𝙴. the ton says your name reminds them of 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝚁𝙾𝙰𝚁 𝙾𝙵 𝙰𝙿𝙿𝙻𝙰𝚄𝚂𝙴 𝙰𝚃 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝙴𝙽𝙳 𝙾𝙵 𝙰 𝚂𝙷𝙾𝚆, 𝚂𝚆𝙴𝙴𝚃 𝙽𝙾𝚃𝙷𝙸𝙽𝙶𝚂 𝙲𝙷𝙰𝚂𝙴𝙳 𝙱𝚈 𝙷𝚄𝙽𝙶𝚁𝚈 𝙺𝙸𝚂𝚂𝙴𝚂, 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝙱𝙴𝚂𝚃 𝚂𝙸𝙻𝙺𝚂 𝙰𝙽𝙳 𝙲𝙷𝙸𝙵𝙵𝙾𝙽𝚂 𝙳𝚁𝙰𝙿𝙿𝙴𝙳 𝙾𝚅𝙴𝚁 𝙾𝙽𝙴'𝚂 𝚃𝙾𝚁𝚂𝙾, 𝙰𝙽𝙳 𝙰 𝙱𝙴𝙰𝚄𝚃𝚈 𝙼𝙾𝚁𝙴 𝚁𝙰𝙳𝙸𝙰𝙽𝚃 𝚃𝙷𝙰𝙽 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝚂𝚄𝙽 𝙰𝙽𝙳 𝙼𝙾𝙾𝙽. how scandalous! you have been warned, dear reader, that i will prove if this is true and share every last detail.

Meet Miss Sarai Assaratanakul...

Full Name: Miss Sarai Assaratanakul.

Rank: Actress ; Courtesan.

Date of Birth and Age: 24th of September, 1780 ; Two and Thirty Years of Age.

Zodiac Sign: Libra Sun.

Place of Birth: Mayfair, London, England.

Gender and Pronouns: Demi-Woman ; She/They.

Romantic and Sexual Orientation: Panromantic Pansexual.

Appearance: Raven-black, mid-back length waves ; Soft brown, round-almond eyes with long black eyelashes ; Ivory skin tone ; Beauty mark on the right, upper hand corner of her lips.

Courting: To be announced...

Getting To Know You...

Trigger Warnings: Death, prostitution, pregnancy, miscarriage

Sarai was born to two immigrants, one from Siam (Thailand) and the Austria Netherlands (Belgium), who had moved to Mayfair a year before she was born. While they didn't hold the same amount of money as the nobles of the Ton, they were comfortable, what with her father being a successful merchant who sold considerable Siamese treasures across the globe.

For the longest time, she lived a rather happy life. When it became time for her to marry at eighteen, however, her father had died out at sea in a shipwreck. In her heartbreak, Sarai's mother soon joined afterwards.

While the comfortable townhouse and her family's money was left in her name, the young woman knew that she had to find some kind of work to support herself once the money was gone. Proving to have a singing voice as beautiful as her visage, she'd become an actress.

Over the years, she emerged as a star on the stage. Eventually, she was promoted from a background, voiceless extra, to being an understudy, to finally become the star of numerous shows.

Yet while the coin was excellent, more was deeply needed. Especially to show off her beauty and to live a luxurious lifestyle fitting for her. She soon began to acquire patrons and patronesses, along with some lesser-seen clients. Becoming a greatly loved and cherished courtesan these past five years.

However, six months ago, she was soon struck with how dangerous this lifestyle could be. After two months without her cycle, she soon realized that she was with child with her favourite patron's baby. She hadn't known how to tell him or when, yet fate was cruel—or was it a kindness?—to her when, a few weeks later when she barely began to show, she had lost the baby.

While she has tried to convince herself that the lost was a good thing in the end, her self-denial is only proven by the fact that she still has not told the father about what happened. Nor does she intend to do so either.

Connections...

The Favourite Patron/Almost Baby Daddy: For some time now, this man has been in Sarai's life and has been the greatest contributor to her lifestyle and expenses. He has no idea that she'd been pregnant with his child nor that she's kept this from him for over six months now. So much angst and ideas and ways to go about this!

Patrons, Patronesses, and Clients: I'd love to have some of Sarai's regulars and non-regulars! She is more high dollar, but doesn't mind spending some time with someone who's able to pay a lower fee.

Theatre Fans: I would love to have it where there are some people who are fans of her acting and singing! I think that would be so cute.

The Artist and The Muse: Sarai sometimes volunteers as a model for different arts, whether at the academy or during house parties, so that they can practice working on portraits. This is someone that she has collaborated with numerous times and while there's some juicy tension between them, nothing has happened between them... Yet.

General Connections: Friends, enemies, acquaintances (either positively or negatively), lovers who aren't clients, crushes, those in the same scenes as her, anything and everything!

To be continued with time...

[lausticzt-a]

Things that make me sad is someone asking Laura to hold their baby for a moment while they do something and god does she freak out, what do you want her to do with it? Ask someone else- this is awkward, she is holding the baby awkwardly, she's trying to play it off but she's so panicked that she looks at the baby in discomfort. But all it takes is a few seconds of actually looking down at them for her to be captivated, with so much heartbreak. That she's holding a baby who stares up at her with curiosity and the most innocent eyes, and it takes the mother a few tries to get her attention. She'd watch them leave and even after they are gone just, stare in that direction. If it's her first time holding a baby, she'd be on the brink of tears, and if you witness that, no you don't, she's already storming away because if she says anything she knows she'll break, little by little.