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Life update 2025 y’all feel me

Okay so i’ve gotten a boyfriend but first, let’s talk about me! So my hair is still black. I dyed it black again and i rly like black on me. Idk how long i’m gonna have black. I could like blonde but growing it out is not a solution so i’d have to bleach and that’s ork😭 I was in a REALLY bad derealization and NO sleep phase some time ago but it got way better after i met my bf. I started showering more, sleeping better and just feeling more confident i guess! Oh god also, i’m excited for summer i’m tired of winter😭 Honestly winter feels like a lobby. Like you have to wait to live your life ‘till it’s summer again. Idk it just feels like a time skip or something. I’m also going to a destroy lonely concert in April! I only listen to Ken and love his music but i guess Lone is fine too! I got two tickets for christmas and my bf already bought one ticket for himself. So idk who i’m gonna gove my second ticket to. I’ll see how good friends i am with Emma in April then i’ll prpb give it to her cause i do NOT wanna go woth him all alone tbh😭 He’s also bronging people he knows so that’s even scarier.

I had a little period recently where i ate ALOT of chocolate bc of my giftcard and just normally in general. But i’m back to eating more disordered now (i was still disordered back then because i still tried to restrict and still had all those disordered thoughts ofc😭) I’m honestly very triggered in a good way by things my bf has said like he tried pinching my skin and said «Det er jo ingenting å klype du er så… skinny» LMAO and also he was going to lift me up then i said «You’re NOT gonna be able to lift me» then he said «U literally weight HALF of my weight lol ofc i can» and he called me light another time. I LOOOOVE hearing stuff like that so much. I wanna get a bigger thigh gap so i can wear a skirt around him or something. Also i lowkey stayed clean for him although i relapsed 2 times because i overthinked his energy TOO much but that’s only 2 times in one month which is how long we’ve been talking :b Also i’m back up at 40kg but it’s honestly lucky that i didn’t gain more😭

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I’m playing retro horror games

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ew oh my god i fucking hate the kids on this bus so much

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Tralalalal lalalala

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Forresten folkens d begynner å bli frost ute

elr d r allerede d men ja. Fyf vetikke om jg r klar for vinter og såppass kulde enda vil lowkey heller dø men r klar for jul da tror jg…….nei. Fordi vi skal feire hos tanta mi som har sånn 10000 sosse barn og alle andre som ikk pusher 60 i slekta mi r også sosser sukk.

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omw To school

there’s like two big pieces sticking out of my hair n it’s flat but it’s too newly washed to fluff it with my fingers so i js put it in a ponytail. My bangs r also not fucking cooperating but hopefully it won’t do that when i’m in clas

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My hair color journey since last year (Last time i posted)

So i ended 2023 with long Black hair. I had dyed my hair black multiple times in a row before i decided i wanted blue hair. I went to a hairsalon to bleach it and left the salon with blonde hair to dye it blue on my own. We couldn’t find the light teal blue i wanted only dark blue but i was hoping it wouldn’t be too dark. When i washed it out it was, indeed too dark of a blue for my liking, so i waited for enough showers to pass to fade it lighter, and it did fade! To the color i wanted :) But my roots started showing too and it was really patchy so i decided to dye my hair again, but this time two different blues. Quarter of my microbangs and my sidepiece dark blue while the rest of my hair teal. When that faded i decided i wanted red because i wanted to look more serious and i didn’t feel like that was possible with blue hair. So i started my at-home bleaching process and after around 3 bleaches and 1 color remover it got light enough to put red over it. I bought box dye as always but it looked kinda dark Red pink-ish which i did NOT want pink. It turned out super strong pigmented pink and i tried to gaslight myself into thinking it was red😭 A few days later i bought a simple red dye but i was still scared it would turn out too light of a red color because i wanted dark red. It turned out red, but it looked wayy to plain so i added a black raccoon tail on one side piece and on the other sidepiece just black and half of my bangs black+black on the bottom bottom of my hair. Then i wanted black so here we are now with all black hair!!🖤 And that’s my hair journey since 2023

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I’m back!

as the title says, i’m back and it’s October! 14th october!! Soon halloween! I keep coming back to this app months apart lmao but i have some things to say. Stay tuned

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oh my god😭 I posted this last year before everything went wrong that’s crazy

New 2 tumblr!

hii! I am new to tumblr! I know i'm late LOL. Anyway, this is my first post, EVER. I am mostly going to just use this as my diary i think. Log stuff around me and how i feel in different situations lol. I wish you luck today, Bye!!

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I relapsed today.

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Snowed last night

I thought life was finally starting to become better, but it snowed last night and now almost all of the progress is gone. I want it to be summer already ): I want to walk around listening to music all day everyday but now we're far away from it becoming summer again.

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Feeling alright.

cut my hair short with layers and baby bangs last night and i'm finding more good music again. Life may be becoming a bit easier.

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An update on this

So it went SURPRISINGLY well! The dentist acted kinda odd the whole time but she just said "Start with brushing your teeth twice a day" I really felt like she was holding a lot back, but she would've told my parents in all honesty regardless. It was all kinda weird but it's whatever.

Dentist tomorrow

I'm going to the dentist tomorrow and i haven't brushed my teeth in.... a while.... so i think i'm going to die

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I'm back, with a hair update

So i posted a post a few weeks ago where i said that i wanted to dye those y2k skunk stripes into my hair. Well that did not happen and i don't want those at all anymore.. Now i'm interested in blue hair! It started around two weeks ago when people started talking about the artist "TV girl" again. And if you didn't know, they have made a song called "blue hair" that i love deeply within my heart lol. It's just the idea of having BLUE hair while remembering the "blue hair" song and thinking about the song just makes me soo comftable. Idk i really wanna dye my hair. Here's what's stopping me.. So my dumbass decided to touch-up my black hair by dying it black again, and just a week after that, i decided i wanted blue hair, and my mom REFUSES to bleach my hair now and says it's very very bad when you just dyed your hair... which i guess is sort of true, i just gotta wait a little bit till' the black dye fades. But the whole thing makes me a bit mad because before i touched up my black hair, my hair had faded quite a lot so i could've bleached it then.

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Dentist tomorrow

I'm going to the dentist tomorrow and i haven't brushed my teeth in.... a while.... so i think i'm going to die

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Dying my hair again - Maybe

So i wanna dye my hair again but tbh i dont know if i actually wanna or not because i think i only want to because the process is fun, but whats wrong w that?? Lol i think i want like 3 skunk streaps in my hair or i'll just dye it black again idk

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Today sucked so bad i dont wanna do this ohmyfuckignn god