casuallyhere73

[casuallyhere73]

Three days. Three. More. Days.

This week is my last week in my house, and I couldn't be more relieved. On the 24th, I finally move out, coming home to the person I love most. This week has unironically been the slowest week I have lived in a long time, it has been quite stagnant. The yearning I feel all the time just sticks to me so badly, I can't wait to be in my lover's arms.

[casuallyhere73]

I love her with my whole heart.

There is no one that I could feel the way I do as I feel for her. She is my first thought whenever I wake up, the last thought before I sleep, and she resides in my dreams, always there to welcome me. If I had told myself even two years ago that I would have met the girl that I thought I would only see in my dreams, I would've thought I had grown to be delirious. I am so excited to see how our future will turn out, I always think about what might become of us. I always tend to think of us turning out to live in a nice rural area, far away from everyone else, with plenty of animals to keep us company. There is no one that I would ever have posted this freely about. I always tend to keep my relationships as more private matters that I rarely talk/post about, yet with her, I find myself finding a lot of instances to bring her up in conversation, and I always enjoy making posts about her. Even if no one else but her ever sees these posts, to talk about her here is one of my favorite things to do. I love writing long paragraphs about her detailing my love for her, going on and on about every childish thought I have about her. She is the first person I have ever truly loved past just some teenage relationship; I really do see a long a fulfilling life with her. She is the most relatable, kind, sweet, cute, caring, unique, beautiful, and lovable person I have ever met, and I am so happy to call her mine.

I love you

[casuallyhere73]

To the one I hold forever closest to my heart,

I will love you forever, through everything in our lives. I want to be with you through the best of it, the worst of it, the most uneventful parts of it, all of it. I wish to wake up every morning and see that slumbering face I always love to see. I want to tell you how pretty you are and witness you divert your eyes and become flustered. I want to hold you in my arms and tell you that everything will be alright as you grip me tightly and cry on my shoulder. I want to be here for all of it, for there is no one I would rather spend the rest of my life with than to spend it with you, truly. I dream day and night about how our lives could turn out together, and I think the most childish thoughts about marrying you and taking you out on dates. You don't just have my heart... you are my heart. You are the epitome of my love, my happiness, my security my hope, and my everlasting devotion. You're the good things in life that give me purpose to keep going, no matter how dire my situation gets. I know that times have been tough for us in the past, but we persevered and came back stronger than ever. You are the lighthouse that guides my decrepit ship across the dark and stormy sea; I trudge along to find my way home, and that home resides within your heart. When that fateful day comes that I am back where I belong, I will be the happiest man alive. I will truly have achieved one of the biggest things I strive to have in my life, and that is yours. I love you so much, I wouldn't want any other person than you, you're all that I see, and I relish every last detail of it. I cherish every fleeting moment that we have spent together, kept everything that you had given to me, all of it. Even the boxes and bags that were meant to be disposed, I gladly kept them. I love you so much.

[casuallyhere73]

"I'm coming home,

I've been gone for far too long..."

Some of the lyrics in the song Hearts Burts into fire by BFMV just encapsulates a lot about how I have felt as of recently. The struggle of being away from someone that you love is tough, and once I was given times to be with them, it always hurt having to be without them, no matter how short/long I had to wait to see them again. My heart always felt as if it had travelled with them, and my happiness seemed noticeably suppressed. I know that sounds very obsessive, and honestly it is, but it is just the way I feel. Soon, though, I will never have to wake up to a cold bed, check my phone frantically every few minutes, nor have to hold inanimate objects as temporary solace... Anyways, I am mildly obsessed with Dark Souls so me and my SO are literally the Firekeeper and the Ashen One frrrrrrr