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Masha The Hero

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Amok time.

name ONE episode\movie of star trek, entire star trek, old, new, animated, etc, all of them, that first comes to your mind when somebody says ✨star trek✨

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What Jeff Davis did to Derek was the equivalent of what Rob Thomas did to Logan. Never forgiving them.

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And this is why Star Trek is the superior intergalactic franchise. Star Wars could never.

[id: 8 gifs from season 3, episode 14 “heart of stone” from the tv series “star trek: deep space nine”, the gifs show julian bashir, and benjamin sisko walking through the promenade.

1st, 2nd gif: julian and sisko are walking in tandem, sisko asks “I see you’ve put in a request to reassign Ensign Vilix'pran from cargo inspection.” julian takes a breath before replying, “I think that would be best. Given his condition, I don’t want him coming into contact with any hazardous materials.”

3rd & 4th gif: sisko asks, “his condition?” and julian elaborates, “vilix'pran is budding. his buds are undergoing individuation in just over a month.” sisko is elated with the realisation, “you mean, he’s pregnant.” julian confirms, “twins.” “ah. reassignment granted.”

5th gif: “i’ll have to make sure I offer my congratulations to the ensign the next time i see him.“ sisko continues.

6th & 7th gif: “well, o'brien and i are throwing him a baby shower in a couple of days. i think it would mean a lot to him if you were there.” julian informs sisko. “are you getting him anything?” sisko asks, “o'brien’s building him a hatchling pond and i’ve put an order in with garak for some new baby clothes.”

8th gif: sisko and julian come to a pause. “count me in.” sisko tells julian and claps him on his shoulder, “aye, sir.” sisko walks away with a smile, he speaks to himself, “ensign pran… hmm.” /id end]

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Here’s a possibility for the movie. Derek dies and Eli leaves town. The last shot we have of him is him texting someone on his phone that he’s going to see them because his dad always told him he’d be safe with them. Who is he texting?

Stiles.

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This is a cry for help. I am looking for a fic. Pretty sure it was on Archive of our own. It was a re-animator fic where Dan and Herbert are in high school and Dan has a brother. Dan doesn’t know why Herbert thinks they’re a couple and it turns out he would go to Herbert during black outs because his brother wasn’t real at all just another personality. Did I imagine this?

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Forget the bury your gays trope. Let’s have the teen wolf movie be about gay love saving the day. Allison came back from the dead and ends up with Lydia while Scott is twiddling his thumbs somewhere.

i don’t care about the teen wolf movie but if somehow allydia goes canon i never said that and i’ve always been it’s biggest fan

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I don’t know why everyone is hating on check out so much. I love it. It’s like watching my own trashy workplace drama with a budget.

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Is anyone else obsessed with the way Chan was like “listen bitch if you want to try to intimidate me with English I can tell you to fuck off in English right back” to Vegas.

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Don’t mind me I’m just fucking dying.

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Thank you Triage for giving me closure five years later! I hadn't realized how much I needed it until I saw that kiss between Tol and Tin... 2moons left scars that Triage is healing.

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Vegas Theerapanyakul, an accidental queer icon - a surprisingly serious essay

When i was around 14/15 years old i read this book trilogy called All For The Game and quickly became obssessed with this character called Andrew Minyard. He was this very short and angry gay goalie for a team of an imaginary sport that made absolutely no fucking sense. He was severely traumatized due to several happenings in his life and also kind of a dick.

Andrew is known for being a pretty problematic character but also a huge fan favorite.

Why is that?

Well, one quick look at the people making him a fan favorite will tell you the answer to that right away. Like me, most of those people were traumatized queer teens who had grown up feeling like they were incurable monsters. Who went through queerphobic trauma that they could barely even name. And just like no one cared about whether Andrew was okay, beacause “who gives a shit about how this freak feels”, no one cared about how us little freaks felt.

I don't condone half the things Andrew does and i think he's kind of insane most of the time, but i get him.

I get why he's angry.

I get why he doesn't trust anyone

I get why he's so hesitant to allow himself to be less miserable

I GET IT

And that's so important for a character!

It doesn't matter if he's likeable or not, it matters if i understand him.

So recently becoming obssessed with Kinnporsche i can't stop myself from seeing a bunch of traumatised queers flocking to Vegas and not think about this.

If any of you reading this have consumed both contents you're probably dying inside a little due to the comparison considering Andrew would probably love to murder Vegas very slowly as he is a victim of SA and is highly prone to homicide, and while that's true i still think the comparison in regards to the effects they seem to have in a certain group is very valid.

While many of the people i've seen obssessd with Vegas are cishets who wanna pretend he can do no wrong because of his trauma, a considerable amount are queer people who carry extensive trauma and a history as victims of abuse and who are fighting everyday to feel like they have control over who they are. Just like Vegas, who, through making himself the abuser, tries to regain the control that has been taken away from him from a very young age.

Vegas wasn't born out of nothing, he was made.

The Vegas we know in the timeline of the show is a monster created through lack of sexual agency, physical and psychological abuse, homophobic abuse (something i don't think enough people talk about) and loss. And when you stop to think about it, all those things (but the homophobia) are the same violences he extends onto others.

Obviously i'm not saying that it's okay for him to do this just because it's a product of his own trauma but it's important to understand these things about him because if we don't all we do is make him into a caricature villain (more of an antagonist than a villain but anyways) and consequently erase the very cruel reality of his existence as a character that in some ways represents so many people.

For many people (queer or not, but for the sake of this essay we're focusing on queer people) trauma doesn't make us into sad but gentle messes. No, many of us are just plain assholes because of it. Many of us are mean and toxic and that isn't a reality that can be erased just beacause it's uncomfortable to acknowledge.

Andrew being a complete dick who's snappy and too hard to handle was so real for so many people and seeing him be loved was so important. Seeing him be that traumatized and thinking “damn i guess i'm not the only one” was such a defining thing for many of us.

And so in the same way, Vegas constantly trying to seek the control that's been taken away from him his whole life (even if in the worst possible ways), putting on a mask in front of everyone because he knows they can't handle his true self, not having any idea how the fuck to even try to love someone because no has ever tried loving him, and getting into a relationship in a incredibly questionable way because that’s the only kind of way someone that fucked up could possibly fathom getting into a relationship, that shit's bound to hit hard for queer people.

When you stop to think about it, we have historically related to the worst kinds of people, in part because of situations like the hays code that only allowed queer rep through lenses that painted us in a negative light, but also in part beacause we have been pushed to the role of monsters outside of fiction aswell.

Monsters

Sinners

Perverts

Aberrations

Freaks

Degenerates

Depraved

We are called those things so often we start sympathizing with it.

And i know for many queer people what they need is to distance themselves from that and relate to much more positive representations of queerness but to others that's never gonna be enough. For so many of us the guy making the absolute worst fucking decisions so he can feel like he owns his life is the one that’s gonna really makes us feel seen.

I love me some nice and sweet queer rep but i only truly see myself in the sad, miserable, toxic queers (read These Violent Delights by Micah Nemerever yall). And that rep HAS TO EXIST regardless of whether people think it “makes queer people look bad”. Of course it makes queer people look bad, but it's not the toxic queer rep that is at fault for that, but our queerphobic social structures that make so queer people are only allowed to exist with some semblance of dignity if they pass a moral test.

Queer representation shouldn’t have to follow a certain rigid morale to be deemed acceptable.

Vegas and Andrew’s existence shouldn’t tarnish queer people’s image because we’re not some organization where one person gets to be our representative and we shouldn’t be held to this ridiculously high standard of human experience.

And, like i touched on before, if we ignore these forms of queer existence we erase a whole group of very much real people who have very much real struggles, as uncomfortable as they may be to explore.

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I love a man who plans.

I love how we as a society collectively moved on from the fact that Vegas has a To-go torture kit. And I love that actually!!!

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Dear God.

KINNPORSCHE EP 5 : VEGAS

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Brilliant. Gonna call them my dad's now too.

MY DADS ARE HERE!!!!!

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