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i’ve listened to ‘virgin’ twice already. i have way too many thoughts about this album but. it’s late night in new york boots splashing into puddles. it’s a rebirth. it’s looking back to your old self while in wait for your future to make itself known. it’s finding melody in the dissonance. it’s baring your chest and losing hours to the call of the music. it’s fun. it’s quiet. it’s crowded. it’s alone. i need to have a cigarette.

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Chills the entire album. She took a scalpel and cut into the music and I felt like I was inside her bedroom with unwashed sheets. A best friend telling me secrets late at night. Anger and sweat and the love of imperfection. I’m so happy for you Ella and Thank You Lorde

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The beauty of living in a walkable city is that when you feel sad you can just walk and walk and walk till you stumble upon a place that makes you feel better

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Cleaning with ADHD all about momentum. Its like being a shark, if you stop moving you just straight up die.

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our coming-of-age has come and gone

“first love / late spring”, mitski // “class of 2013”, mitski // “grown”, gatlin // “the man with the axe”, lorde // “working for the knife”, mitski // “nothing new”, taylor swift // “funeral”, phoebe bridgers // “forever winter”, taylor swift // “garden song”, phoebe bridgers // “little women”, greta gerwig

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i am a “i don’t know how, but i’m taller” “sleeping off the growing pains” “i can’t believe childhood is over” “i don’t believe in that stuff anymore” “if only you had seen what you know now then” “you’re still an innocent” “i miss everything” “you know you’ll always know me” “before i learned civility, i use to scream ferociously” “i was so ahead of the curve, the curve became a sphere” “and i was catching my breath” “i rewind the type, but all it does is pause” “and i’m still a believer, and i don’t know why” “the end is here” “it’s like the tide going out… it can’t be stopped” “i’ll stop it” “if i were a girl in a book this would all be so easy” “and though i can’t recall your face, i still got love for you” “and i woke up in my childhood bed” “romanticise a quiet life, there’s no place like my room” “wishing i was someone else” “so i got wasted like all my potential” “fell behind all my classmates and i ended up here” “all your closets of backlogged dreams” “she reminds me of memories” “to be certain, we’ll be tall again” 

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When Fleabag said, "Either everyone feels like this a little bit and they are just not talking about it, or I am completely fucking alone" and when Warshan Shire said, "My alone feels so good, I'll only have you if you are sweeter than my solitude" and when the Hot Priest said, "I am really fucking lonely" and when Charles Riborg Mann and George Ransom Twiss wrote, "If a tree falls in a forest, does it make a sound?" and when Jo March said, "Women, they have minds, and they have souls, as well as just hearts. And they’ve got ambition, and they’ve got talent, as well as just beauty. I’m so sick of people saying that love is all a woman is fit for, I’m sick of it! But I’m so lonely" and when Ocean Vuong said, "Remember, loneliness is still time spent with the world"

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jo march was. right. greta gerwig did her so much justice. jo march was an aching mess of a little woman. her older sister meg left, chasing her dream marriage, and jo with her inkstained fingers and cramped attic remained. amy went to europe, the perfect picture of a good lady, and jo, with her abrasive tongue and hot-headed temper remained. beth went to the beyond, having seen no dream but of kindness and family, dead from being kind and surrounded by family- and jo, always the odd one out, the one who loved her family in isolation, remained.

and laurie. laurie with his quicksilver grin and charming boyishness, jo's best friend. he loved her. she loved him too. just not the way he wanted. and jo knew. laurie went to europe and and loved amy truer and deeper than his infatuation with jo....and jo, with her guarded heart and sensible mind, remained.

always, always everyone thought jo with her oddity and jo with her beautiful, big, enormous dreams would go first. she remained.

i'm so lonely, she sobs. louisa may alcott fashioned a Jo March quirky and imperfect, and 150 years later Greta Gerwig made her into a desperately lonely child. Maybe when she was crying in the attic Jo could feel the weight of years on her shoulders, the realization that there was no childhood left, no sisters playing in a garden without care. No two neighbours simply being best friends. Nothing and no one had prepared her for this, and Jo March was so lonely.

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Pride & Prejudice, Jane Austen (1813) / “Lover,” Taylor Swift (2019) / You’ve Got Mail, Nora Ephron (1998) / Fraiser, David Angell, Peter Casey, David Lee (1993-2004)

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BROOKLYN NINE-NINE ( 2013 - 2021 ) ↳ season 3 episode 7

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“Look…”

“I didn’t want to be a half-blood”

I HAVE LITERAL GOOSEBUMPS WHAT THE FUCK

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"Betty" words by Taylor Swift

ig: ine8s

@taylorswift

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corporate needs you to find the difference

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#spiderverse

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just tried to show my older brother something while my little brother tried to show me something. poetic cinema in motion