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RECOVERY.

(tw- now/then pictures)

i have been working very hard to recover these past few months and it’s actually going well. u don’t have to read this but i want to share what i did that helped me and also answer questions.

first i started going to soulcycle.

i initially was planning on continuing to starve myself and also burn 700-800 calories at a blacked out room with blasting music on a bike not going anywhere, however the community around fitness where i live has (unknowingly) played the biggest part in my recovery.

the riders: all body shapes and sizes in sports bras and biker shorts is actually really therapeutic for a lot of reasons; u can’t isolate urself at soulcycle like u can at school, it’s a social place. these gorgeous women are also cheering you on while you work out. if you get close enough to them they might even invite you out to burritos or sweetgreen after class. eating with healthy women that you just sweat ur ass off with is LIBERATING AS FUCK.

the instructors: i don’t know where to begin. these people who work out for A LIVING are muscular, healthy, and happy. one of the female instructors at my studio has the same body type as me and it makes me so confident to watch her run a class. they also just have your back always. the instructors are always cheering you on, making you feel worth it, and making you feel valuable. actually, one of my fav instructors at the studio introduced me to this other rider a few weeks ago, who turns out to be a instructor at a place called solidcore. so now i also attend classes at her gym. the community just builds on top of itself.

OVERALL, knowing that i can workout better, feel better, and get better by eating protein, makes it really easy to not keep track of calories but protein intake.

EVERYONE KNOWS PROTEIN IS GOOD FOR YOU! so instead of trying to keep calories low focus on the amount of protein, and try to get the number as high as possible every day. protein makes your performance better every day and therefore is helping you workout to the fullest potential.

second, i have barely weighed myself- which was one of my biggest issues

i took pictures of my scale around 3x per day. at my lowest i was 87lbs. however, i went to get a checkup and realized when i went in, i had no idea how much i weighed because i haven’t felt the need to weigh myself in so long.

but here’s the best part. i’m literally 93 pounds. (i’m only 5ft tall.) however, at my worst i was 120, and because i know i’m healthy now (i’m working out 4-6x per week and not restricting food but staying away from unhealthy ones) i know that 93lbs is just a natural state for my body. keeping with the routine i have assures the fact i’ll stay right where i am, and i’m happy.

third, i stopped taking adderall. (lol)

LMFAO seems stupid, but i’d rather struggle in school then die so….

anyways here’s some photos at my lowest vs now.

this is a very big deal to me because i know the group of people i’m about to post this to and i know which one you’ll probably find more appealing- however, i’m so happy with myself that i can see past that.

I WISH ALL THE BEST FOR YOU. REACH OUT IF U NEED HELP. IM HERE.

before rec

now (during rec)

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89!

UM

no fucking way i just hopped on the scale and it said

99.4 LBS.

fuck off this has GOT TO BE A FUCKING JOKE.

it’s not even the morning EITEHR???!!! ITS 7;10 at NIGHT AND I WAS FEELING SO TERRIBLE ABT MY CALS TODAY (ate 570, net 503) and then i cried as i walked to go step on the scale and it said that.

i am so happy ❤️

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the doctor made me get blood work done because she was worried about my nutrition and then i got this email this morning LMFAO

thanks doc i’ll forsure be using these 👍

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me weight 92lbs now 🫠

UM

no fucking way i just hopped on the scale and it said

99.4 LBS.

fuck off this has GOT TO BE A FUCKING JOKE.

it’s not even the morning EITEHR???!!! ITS 7;10 at NIGHT AND I WAS FEELING SO TERRIBLE ABT MY CALS TODAY (ate 570, net 503) and then i cried as i walked to go step on the scale and it said that.

i am so happy ❤️

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for a girl who goes to school, has a job, lives between two houses (divorced parents yippee) having my own box of low cal turn toos that i can just leave in my car is ESSENTIAL. makes the urge to binge way less extreme.

here’s what i have in mine;

rice cakes , 35cals/ea

slim tea, 0 cals (i bought this at my local eastern eurpean market, where u can find a gold mine of diet friendly snacks btw, but research before u go in cause chances r everything will be in romanian/russian/etc)

fiber one brownie bars, 70cals/ea

celsius, 7cals/ea

unreal dark choc peanut butter cups, 60cals/ea

i’m going to the store in the morning!!! plz comment ur fav low cal snacks , it would help a lot (:

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Me when I starve, consume enormous amounts of caffeine, and vape until I'm light headed

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UM

no fucking way i just hopped on the scale and it said

99.4 LBS.

fuck off this has GOT TO BE A FUCKING JOKE.

it’s not even the morning EITEHR???!!! ITS 7;10 at NIGHT AND I WAS FEELING SO TERRIBLE ABT MY CALS TODAY (ate 570, net 503) and then i cried as i walked to go step on the scale and it said that.

i am so happy ❤️

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Ana Movies/shows

some ana movies and tv shows you can watch are

1. To The Bone Where to watch: Netflix or ayeno.net (ayeno.net is free)

2. Feed Where to watch: ayeno.net (free)

3. Thinspiration Where to watch: Tubi TV (free)

4. Degrassi season 5 episode 15-16 Where to watch: Tubi Tv or Youtube ep 15 ep 16 (Both are free)

5. Perfect body Where to watch: Youtube (Free)

6. Full house Season 4 episode 8 Where to watch: Hulu and ayeno.net 

If you know any others feel free to comment!