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[ccbelladonna]

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parties were certainly bella's thing. throngs of men and women alike threw themselves at her feet. she was treated as the woman who hung the stars, who shined with more radiance than their own gods ever could. parties were also certainly not bella's thing. it reminded her that it was fleeting-- the feelings of belonging and being loved--and maybe even false. she couldn't decide which part of her spoke louder, which was the truth but it hardly mattered, did it? not when her mother wanted to show her off and her manager demanded she show up and show out to continue her meteoric rise in popularity and, in turn, the popularity and patronage of khonsu.

cornered at one of the small standing tables for over thirty minutes she nodded along to the words of the man across from her, eyes glazed over with boredom as she nursed her rosé wine and watched the people around them. it wasn't her fault that she had checked out of the conversation. heavens no. he had begun talking about his job, something to do with math, in an attempt to impress her and it had backfired spectacularly. once he started actually talking numbers she had to officially check out. part of her felt bad that she couldn't even feign interest as he seemed so passionate and in love with his job, much like she did, but he was so very dull and her sparkle casted a shadow over him. perhaps she should've also felt ashamed in her ability to rationalize her poor behavior as well and yet...

a delicate hand raised from the table, platinum bangles clinking at the movement, as bella signaled to a waiter for another glass of wine. at least she had a friend in alcohol. the man across from her had finally clued in on her disinterest but instead of bowing out he tried to recapture her attention. "uh huh." she chirped, eyes still drawn to the pairs on the dance floor. why hadn't she been asked to dance? was she too intimidating? was her mother playing matchmaker and running interference if they weren't a perfect match? regardless the reason she let out a sigh, a pout tugging at her lips as decided she would be the one who dared to ask for a dance.

not him. certainly not him. he would he a good choice but he has a wedding ring. she scanned the crowd looking for the perfect dance partner when she was forced to stop dead in her tracks. for a moment she thought the world was slowing down and her vision tunneling. she knew those eyes, that smile, though she hadn't seen them it what felt like an eternity. what was she going to say? what could she say? it had been years since they had seen each other and surely he still remembered what a lovesick little puppy she had been in their younger days. it was embarrassing to think about but she was far from the only one who had ever fawned over the governor only to her what she had adored was likely a completely different person than the man standing in front of her now. she offered her current companion a quick, and to be truthful insincere apology before allowing her legs to carry her towards the governor with little thought of the consequences.

"it seems to me that you're in need of saving this evening." she teased, ever playful and one to shy away from pomp and circumstance in even the most important occasions. she could see jealousy and anger flare in the eyes of the women she had maneuvered through to approach him but she brushed it off and offered him a dazzling smile. "care to escape to the gardens to catch up or are you too busy to reminisce with an old friend?"

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to do:

reply to misaki.

starter for yongsun.

make evanora the supreme. ( pick theme, submit app, make her business )

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We at Khonsu Theater regret having to reach out to our patrons for such a tragic event. Last night, after completing dress rehearsal for our upcoming show, Belladonna was on her way home as she usually did. She had never had any issues doing this until last night when, sometime after 10PM, she was attacked by a male who claimed to be her fan. She was stabbed several times. The tip of the blade was covered in some kind of homemade concoction that included Ash trees as an ingredient. Though things were touch and go in the beginning, Belladonna is now back home and resting and will not be opening for our upcoming play. We wish her a speedy recovery and hope to see her back where her passion lays, the stage. Please respect her privacy during these times. 

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I just need you to listen. can you promise me that?

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bella startled from her slumber, visions swimming inside her head. they were all such a blur and the edges of each scene bled into the next leaving her chest heaving and heart racing as she tried to steady herself, orient herself to the waking world. no matter how she tried to reason her safety, reason that the man was in jail, reason that there was a guard just down the hall, she couldn't seem to calm her nerves.

with uncertain steps she freed herself from her silk sheets and made her way towards the large window that adorned the east wall of her room. she had it built to her specifications so during the night if she returned home late or couldn't sleep she could watch the moon hang from her heavens, bathing the town in her glow. on any other night it would sooth her soul and give her peace, but tonight it seemed as though the moon and the darkness conspired against her-- the dark hiding terrors beneath shadows and the moon giving her just enough light to catch glimpses of what danger may come.

she couldn't be sure if the movement in her courtyard was an apparition or hallucination or something more, but she knew she had see something dash in between the shadows. her blood ran cold and dread twisted in her gut. she threw herself away from the window in a blind panic, slipping once, twice, even a third time as she clambered off the hardwood floor with all the might she could summon.

she wanted to scream, to beg for help, for salvation. she could still feel the phantom sensation of metal where she had been stabbed and the thought of her blood turning into liquid fire trying to burn her from the inside out because of ash tree poison made her vision swim. somehow she managed her way out of her room and down to the guest chambers that currently housed her newly hired guard. she hadn't wanted one but her manager had insisted and now she was glad he had been so adamant in his conviction.

"please, please!" she cried, her hands banging wildly at the door. "I think someone is out there. I saw them in the garden." her voice was wracked by sobs and the terror was evident. she knew in her mind he needed a moment to wake up and come to his senses but she couldn't still herself as she continued to beat against the large oak door.

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MIDNIGHT MASS SENTENCE STARTERS   —   quotes pulled from the 2021 netflix limited series. feel free to make alternations.

i know i’m not who you expected to see this morning.

you aren’t a good person.

i loved you my whole life.

do you feel at peace?

i have absolutely no purpose at all.

look at us, back where we started.

god doesn’t love you more than anyone else.

i would go anywhere in the world with you.

it might come down to just minutes, maybe seconds.

everyone gets theirs wings clipped at some point.

i’m sorry that we never told you.

just tell me what you need.

don’t tell me what to do.

i’m sorry for what you’ve been through. i’m really, really sorry.

we don’t have to be afraid ever again.

you’re here and that is enough.

i’m not scared, not of you.

you never felt like a sin.

this isn’t the way. this is never the way.

i learned early there’s no point trying to stop you drinking.

he said to run.

it just felt too easy to leave, like i shouldn’t be able to just leave.

did it hurt you?

i never remember my dreams.

we made our choices.

i just need you to listen. can you promise me that?

everything has its season.

i’m tired of you lying to me!

our whole lives have been wasted.

it isn’t about us anymore.

that’s not how god works.

i forgive you.

forgive me.

i did my best.

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misakixcc​:

with friends like these | m & b

getting the ball rolling with @ccbelladonna

“It really isn’t the thing you know, dearest.” Misaki’s soft voice was thoughtful, taking a sip of the cheerfully bubbling drink from her champagne flute. It was brunch at the Cornucopia and while the high-end restaurant wasn’t exactly filled with patrons, it was busy enough that the Fairchilde Fae felt comfortable talking about the topic without being overheard. Across her sat one of her dear friends, and one of Crescent City’s most popular figures.

“Fan gifts are flattering, but why a marriage proposal? That would make it what—your hundredth in the past three months?” There was no derision in her tone, just curiosity. Having been friends with the other Fae for a few decades, she had seen her career blossom into what it was today.

“Would you like me to recommend a security detail from 7Star? Perhaps one of the Malakhim from the Comitium. They are the best of the best after all, and quite easy on the eyes. Perhaps an angel bodyguard is just what you need to thwart the more…eager admirers.”

belladonna could only laugh, a slender hand rising to cover her mouth-- remnants of years and years of cotillion taking over. she wasn’t laughing at the woman before her, luna no. she laughed at the ridiculousness of it all and how her friend was right, as she often was. she shot her raven haired companion a knowing smile from behind the champagne glass she was nursing. “you may very well have a point but what would you have me do? break the hearts of my adoring masses?” 

she placed her free hand over her heart, hamming up her expression of sadness to really punctuate her words. “truthfully, though? it’s far from the worst thing a fan has asked of me.” she admitted, her usual smile dissolving into a grimace at thoughts she’d rather not remember. “usually my charm will wear down enough that they’ll find their sense, or at least i hope so.” 

“mm, a malakhim bodyguard does have my attention, i must admit.” if she were a fae with more shame she may have blushed at the insinuation but she wasn’t one to hide from good eye candy. “if you can promise me he’ll be as good looking as our dear governor, i’ll accept immediately.” she teased, her eyes twinkling with a devious sparkle. 

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hello! i'm tamina ( she/her, 20+ ) and i give to you my drama queen dearest, belladonna. if you go back far enough, you might know her as calanthe, her birth name before she became the shining star in crescent city. she’s a fae from the danaan clan and a bit over the top and has a love for the finer things in life. she can be quite the diva, quite the drama queen, but if you manage to wiggle your way into her favor, she can be the most kind and generous person you’ll find. most of her bad qualities come from insecurity and wanting to belong, to be loved, to belong to someone and not just be sought after or wanted because of her looks/powers. below the read more will be a few beats to get to know her a little better.

❀  she is one of three children. her brother and sister chose professions more inline with the fae and danaan clan expectations. ( both are available/wanted connections for bella and i’d love to see them taken by someone. 

❀ she's the emotional type and this effects her powers. her telekinesis can be quite out of control and destructive when she’s feeling a negative emotion and is often out of her control until someone calms her down or she manages to self soothe.

❀ she is the lead actress at khonsu and is often sought after for her commanding stage presence but also her beautiful voice. ( her singing voice claim is jane zhang ).

❀ she doesn’t have good luck when it comes to love. most who dated her wanted to covet her and possess her, not love her. she felt stifled and lonely and so she’s waiting for the right one to come along. ( she is bisexual )

❀ her mother is a stage parent and often only brings up bella or has her around to gloat and show her off. her dad has the other two children to puppet and so he’s basically written bella off, leaving her without a family.

❀ despite barely being involved with her family she is very close in lineage to the main danaan clan line and does experience the perks and benefits that come with this. 

❀ she really just wants affection and attention. 

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staring in the mirror, belladonna heaved a soft sigh. nobody around her would have heard the sound as they bustled about trying to tidy up backstage. some were helping others free themselves from their costumes, some were chatting about where they should head now that the show was over, some were even fawning over the stars of the play. vacant eyes watched them scurry about in the reflection of the mirror, so close to her but so far, so detached.

after the curtain fell and the play was over, there was an emptiness in bella that was so prevailing that she could only long for the next time she would step on stage. her eyes glazed over as she removed the costume jewelry from her neck and ears, replacing them with a proper set befitting a daughter of danaan: rubies in gold settings with delicate filigree. her fingers lingered over the pear shaped ruby hanging from her neck for a moment before she steadied her resolve and turned from the mirror.

her empty gaze was now replaced with a bright smile that set her amber eyes alight. immediately the room's attention turned to her. she was the leading lady after all. everyone had something to say whether it was a compliment, question, or invitation. she greeted each with the appropriate response, giving special attention to those who showered her with praise. she was happy to bask in their admiration, no matter how many times they had said it before.

her stage makeup would be left until she got home, she didn't want to fuss with the dramatic red lip and deep smoky eyes with just the products they had back stage. they simply wouldn't do as she had an entire routine that allowed her to slip back into calanthe, so to speak. she could take off her mask in more than one way. the costume, a beautiful, pink, victorian style dress with lace and bows dripping from it would be stripped from her, without the help of stage hands as she preferred to do it alone, and be hung up with care with the rest of the outfits.

running through a checklist in her mind, she finally deemed herself able to leave as all her tasks were complete. she gave a special goodbye to her favorite stage manager, waving a broad goodbye to the rest of her colleagues with a tired smile. she turned back with the door as it shut, making sure it didn't slam and damage anything backstage or catch anyone she was aware was following behind her. satisfied with the soft click of the doors she turned back around, eyes lighting up with sincerity as she saw there was still a bartender behind the counter of the bar. they were cleaning things up and likely ready for the night to end but she couldn't help herself.

the distinct staccato of her stiletto heels clacking against the floor gave away her presence before she arrived at the bar, giving her plenty of time to offer the man a dazzling smile, if she did say so herself. approaching the bar, she leaned her elbows on it, chin resting in the cup of her hands. her tone and look was both placating and imploring, hoping it would help her get her way.

"i know you've been working hard all night and just want to get home but is there any chance I could get a glass of chateau lafite? it would mean the absolute world to me."

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