celesteee

[celesteee]

I deserve someone na will show up for me

Sa lahat ng shenanigans mo, rant mom problema mo. Debate mo. Neediness mo. Andon ako. Di ako nanunumbat. Andon ako kasi mahal kita

Pero pano ako. You couldnt even show up.

Youll said you'll clap the loudest for me. Bitch you cant even enter the event. You can even show up.

Ill get tired real soon. I know it.

[celesteee]

So may history pala sya ng cheating

Lmaooo. Self righteous ka masyado, putangina ka rin naman pala

[celesteee]

"your femininity is an issue for me"

I used to look at you with such love, care and respect, but everything suddenly crumbled when those words escaped your mouth.

Axcel i cant look at you the same now. Im so dissapointed. I am hurt. i am shocked. I am embarrassed. I am scared. I am hurt. I am questioning myself.

I dont know but those words made me love you a little less and I dont want that to happen.

I dont know ano pa bang kulang sakin. Ginagawa ko lahat para umayos itsura ko. I try to learn and be knowledgeable about things so i become interesting. I work my ass off in the dance studio just so I'd be the best at something. I try to dress well and present well so no one would be able to say anything about me. I really tried to be everything.

And you know what's sad. Kala ko ikaw yung safe place ko. :<

Feel ko hindi na ikaw yung taong magpaparamdam sakin ng comfort.

Axcel, I dont want to hate you. I love you.

As i am trying to process my emotions right now. Masakit! Sobrang Sakit! Kasi all my life, I haven't been able to connect with some people because of my feminine side.

It hurts kasi lantaran mong pinaparamdan sakin na mas interested ka sa ibang tao sa harap ko. Masakit kasi yung emotion na to matagal kong sinupress, at ngayon bumabalik lahat.

[celesteee]

I dont exist for no motherfuckin man

[celesteee]

just let them

[celesteee]

Peace over drama

[celesteee]

Jessica Stam @ Jean Paul Gaultier Spr/Sum 2007

[celesteee]

[celesteee]

The sooner you make a fool of yourself the sooner i can get rid of you byeee

[celesteee]

the point is dapat di ka nag rereply sa mga nakalandian mo

HAHAHHAHAHA

the fuck why do you need to talk to them

[celesteee]

if cross were to compare himself to any celestial being, he'd say the stars. a star. just one.

not any specific one. he's not important enough to be a specific one, to be named.

if he were to be asked why, he'd say he hasn't given it much thought. there's a million stars. billion. infinite. and none are recognizable, except when grouped up with others, made into constellations. they all look the same.

maybe he'll get deep about it. something about being a derivative of another. an infinte number of others, who all look identical to him. or nearly identical. close enough.

but the way you look at him...

you look at him like he's a star, like he's a million starts, billion stars, an infinite number of stars. like he's the moon and the planets and the galaxies and nebulae.

you look at him like he's recognizable. like you could look up into the sky, point him out each and every time.

you're a satellite, made specifically to orbit him, observe him, accompany him.

he doesn't even know that much about space.

[celesteee]

should i stay or should i go tenenenenenenen

[celesteee]

"oh" yan lang nasabi nya.

Whahahahahha!!

[celesteee]

Oh and his family hates me ♥️🫶🏻

[celesteee]

baby, the thing is i am good at these kinds of games <3

[celesteee]

he is just like every other man i met. just in different font and oh he has money (?) yeah his job pays well *_*

[celesteee]

all men disappoints