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I know nobody wants to say it out loud but I’m pretty sure we’re all thinking the same thing 🫣 let the anti choicers make up whatever they want about late term abortion and shit but THAT (that) baby (yes that baby you know which one) should not live. like genuinely I hope it does not survive its first month for his sake and for the greater good of the country 🙇‍♂️ his life and the lives of so many other women if he survives, no matter how traumatized or disabled or lacking in quality of life, will be forever the precedent for the death of American womens rights

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I gotta look so stupid rn having a panic attack listening to break free by Ariana n zedd sitting on a couch in my clean house with three puppies sleeping in my lap like girl get it together

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Once deep in Appalachia I ran into the completely untouched for decades woods because I was a 14 year old doing full time care for two dementia patients on my own and I needed a break to go play outside and be a kid for the first time in a month

I followed a path of flowers growing in the middle of winter, everything dead around it, to the center of the woods where I found two dead trees woven into an archway and I walked through it

I followed the same path back and somehow got lost but found several deer antlers and giant perfectly clean quartz crystals that definitely weren’t there on my way in and I brought them home and still have them to this day

is there any chance those actions may have put a little butterfly icon in the corner of my screen or am I the way I am because I had a difficult home life

The world may never know

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Anyone else notice a surge in ads seeking research participants that are super hyper specific but always include being lgbtq in the criteria since trump took office or is that just me

not to be a conspiracy theorist but seems a little sus

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the military in recruitment ads: do you want to have the most stressful day of your life? But also maybe do that every day? Do you wanna look really cool and heroic while you lick boots? Perhaps roll around in the mud and rain and die far far away from your loved ones (but dw the funeral will be rly cool)?? Then I know the place for you 😉

the military irl: yeah we lick boots but at least we’re all gay furries about it nya :3

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I just want to scream and cry and be held like a baby and then immediately phase out of existence just before my brain starts to catch up to the embarrassment of that whole situation is that too much to ask

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Honestly, y'all, I'm begging you. Take the time to think and learn for yourself. Even if it's just something casual like knitting or cooking. Exercise your brain. It's important.

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hold on guys I gotta give myself a headache and a tummy ache and really bad sensory issues for the next five minutes *hits my vape*

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i hate the thing with autism where you care about things and therefore care about things being right and you see a problem with the thing you care about and everyone either thinks you’re trying to be this big fat kiss ass narc or you’re trying to insult their intelligence and assert dominance 😡 or worse, BOTH

I work in a restaurant and we have this big weekly rotation of little chores that need to be done so that nothing ever gets so bad that it takes FOREVVVVVERRRRR

and almost all of these tasks are supposed to take like. Less than ten minutes each. It’s shit like wiping down the menus with sani water, dusting the fans and tvs, sweeping under the bar, etc

And the one i had today was to take a sani rag with a little bleach on it and scrub down the inside of the door to the giant ice machine so that it doesn’t get moldy

And I’m on like. Minute 35 of this task bc lo n behold, the part the ice slides off of is covered in mold. Not TECHNICALLY part of the door but like. If you’re cleaning the thing right behind the door with bleach and it’s visibly moldy why would you not clean it also right. Like common sense. That is a shut down the restaurant for health code violations level problem so i wanted to take the extra time to fix it because if id known it was like that I wouldn’t be comfortable drinking our drinks with the mold ice so im not gonna be all “lol not my problem” and let someone else get sick unknowingly because I CARE ABOUT MY JOB 👹

And my boss comes around and he’s like WOAH you’ve been working on that forEVERRERR why. And I tell him what’s wrong and ask when the last time it was cleaned is. And my coworker, visibly super fucking annoyed, is like

😡 I literally cleaned it less than a week ago 😡

And so I was like oh I’m not trying to say you didn’t do your job or you did a bad job the door itself wasn’t visibly dirty it was just that part and it’s not really part of the door, I wasn’t talking about that sorry it’s not your fault

and my boss is like uhhhhh no… it may not say it on the list but that IS part of that task actually, if (coworker) had actually just shown some initiative and asked a manager or just looked closer he would’ve known that 🙄🙄🙄 if you ever leave it like that again I’m writing you up 🙄🙄

And so he tells him he doesn’t need my help anymore since it was dead and he can just send me home early 💀 and I hear from my little work bestie that he was being like “yeah usually I really like them and working with them but they KNOW I’m such a meticulous and clean person and they still decided to kiss ass and be a little know it all KNOWING it would get me in trouble and make me look stupid 😑”

So now next time we work together I either have to be all confrontational and risk making this bitch hate me or apologize even though I did nothing wrong and being seen as more of a pushover or fake or whatever it is people think of me bc I really like working with this person and I don’t want to ruin that over a misunderstanding I just wish I spoke their language

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Sorry I MUST Debbie down if you fw labubus you shouldn’t have independent access to money

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I miss the pre-sad beige era. Beige was my favorite color when i was a kid. MAGA co opted beige and took it too far in interior design and made it evil

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premonition

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i cleaned it for you 🫵

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I would revoke respect for this mf but I never rly even knew the guy tbh

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Was gonna c word myself but then I just got some chips and guacamole and a sweet tea. Shared them with my stupid dogs. found out one of em doesn’t like guac. Wild world.

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oh my god I was stupid!! I was right about the rest of it but I was so so stupid!!!!

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When I was on pr0@n@ tumblr back in the day I would do (to my abilities at the time) super detailed drawings of just the skinniest little malnourished twigs I could find posted under the t—-spo tags (no offense #bodypositivity hope they’re better now) to force myself to rly study them n feel as bad as possible about my weight and I just saw a reel of someone posting their old 2014 tumblr pix and one was a reference I used and I was catatonic like. Glad to see you #healed but my neck hurts from that whiplash