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hold on YOU HAVE A BARBIE DR???? i need to know mooooooooore !!!!!!!!!

KERRY BABY IM SO SORRY FOR THE WAIT

i WISH i had insane lore to spill abt this dr but alas 😔 it is very very unscripted

i just basically live in malibu with my own small friend group and eventually we join groups with barbie’s friends and yeah it’s literally just like a lowkey better cr but in a perfect world with barbie ya know?

not necessarily barbie land tho . think like the early 2000s barbie as herself aka barbara roberts, and she’s living with her sisters and family in their nice big house in malibu

it’s very slice of life, very everyday shenanigans with random chaos because i love some chaos

and also, nobody can fault me for having a crush on early 2000s barbie 🙂‍↕️ like don’t get me wrong, ken’s pretty cool, but barbie i could treat you so much better i swear

so yeah unfortunately not a lot of lore or scripting has been done for this dr bcs i literally just wanted to live in malibu, be barbie’s girlfriend, and have a chill life where my biggest struggle at the moment is how am i gonna ask barbie to prom, ya know what i mean?

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hi! your blog is so cool! can we be moots?

yeh ofcs !! thank you sm btw <3

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i am so late to this party but omg your httyd dr???? WOWOWOW ‼️‼️ i never see anyone shifting there or at least not many people post about it😔

i always love seeing people give less popular dragons some attention 😭 like guys there are SO many cool ones out there and usually one that suits you super well if you take a little time to try and find it. a windstriker absolutely suits you so well. and buffing up your dragons abilities is so fun actually cause you really can just do whatever at that point since there’s barely any canon material to go off

also the struggle with coming up with a background is so so real. literally been constantly bouncing between making my own tribe based on where i’m from or just going the easier route of being from berk/gobbers kid. IDKKK it’s so ridiculously tough

anyway!! can’t believe i only just saw this post on my dash and i’m literally like what a month or two late?? not sure but whatever!! no pressure to respond to this either just wanted to say how cool i think it is 🫶🫶

HI ANON !!

don’t worry at all about being late !! there’s no such thing as being late on this blog !!

and YESS HTTYD

(before we go on i must preface that i’m not gonna discuss the live action on this blog unless it’s slander bcs i am very petty and very childish in this particular opinion that it was completely unnecessary and a cash grab)

with that out of the way — i wish more people posted abt httyd dr’s as well !! the entire idea of shifting there is just extremely exciting to me

and i LOVE making lesser known dragons more prominent in my scripts !! idk why the series itself sort of half-follows this rule and retcon’s it whenever it’s convenient but i really miss the idea that dragons have native habitats and biomes that they inhabit for their own physiological and biological needs?? so obvs different islands and different tribes throughout that world would have different species of dragons ??

which is why when i come up with a script or i guess lore for my dr self and the tribe that i come from, i try and figure out what kind of dragons would inhabit the surrounding land and take into account general climate and topography and such other things

super super pedantic, completely optional bcs we know that your subconscious takes care of things but i WANT to do this, it’s FUN for me 😭

AND THANK YOU I LOVE THAT THE WINDSTRIKER MATCHES MY VIBE ??!&!?!(?!

the fact that it dive bombs is so cool to me like the rush of being able to do that?? idk smth about dragons that have speed really aligns with me i think (smth smth me being an impatient aries smth smth)

and also im just realising this but me being an unequivocal yapper, a constant rambler, i love to talk and i talk very fast so . a dragon that literally spews hot air . i feel like the self deprecation writes itself 😭

i feel like the buffing up dragon stats thing is such a guilty pleasure of mine bcs you’re so right, they barely add anything new to the lesser known dragon species so it’s really just up to us

one example for me : as the windstriker is a sharp class dragon, i didn’t wanna take the same route as stormfly where my dragon releases barbed spikes as a defence (even tho they moved stormfly to tracker class but wtv not the point)

my dragon still has spikes on its tail but i use them as like picks? like it grabs material around it (wood, rocks, dried brush) and when the spikes flare, that material propels out which the dragon then blasts to create like a fireball ya know?

idk if i explained that right you just have to see what’s in my head i guess T^T but yeah that’s one move

anyway, i loved rambling abt this dr a little more so tysm for the ask anon and pls don’t feel bad about wanting to talk abt posts ive made months prior I DONT MIND AT ALL i love conversing with you guys

if you see a post of mine that you like, don’t look at the date if you wanna talk to me about it !! it’s always always a welcome chat on this blog <3

i really hope you enjoy shifting to httyd !!! if you wanna lore dump in my inbox PLEASE DO !!!!

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loa is your best friend, not your crush

tldr: stop seeking loa’s validation, trust in your friendship and the love you share

so we’re gonna need a bit of backstory for everyone as to how i reached this epiphany which i could only articulate this well thanks to @faeriemarie letting me ramble on discord thnx bby

anyway, backstory :

i have a wonderful best friend from high school and she is someone that i’ve scripted into many realities (she’s one of the members in my kpop girl group dr, i love her sm). but in my cr, as can be expected, life hasn’t been easy and we hadn’t talked for quite a while.

sometimes i’d remember her with so much warmth and fondness and reminisce in the times we’d shared, the love that was so real and so precious to me, the way i’d literally see her five days out of the week and still never feel tired of her presence because at a time where i was struggling (high school) she got me like no one else did

and afterwards, after losing so much time to life and university and careers and new friendships, most of which could never even hope to reach her level, i was pleasantly surprised when she reached out to me.

two text messages later and we’d slipped back into the same energy that we’d always shared, like nothing had changed, because nothing had changed

we very quickly organised a lunch, no fuss no rescheduling, nothing blocking our paths back to each other and right now, as i type this, i’m cuddled under a blanket after a lovely meal with her and a warmth in my soul.

because she single-handedly changed the way i view loa

something about me and her — in my eyes she was always perfection and me being the anxious fool that i am, sometimes i’d spiral and convince myself that i’m not worthy of being her friend

today, at lunch, sitting right across from me, she burned those burdens and alleviated each and every facet of fear i had about it, about us.

she said “you mean so much to me, i value us and our friendship so much. i know that we go a long time without speaking and i really miss you but at the same time, i just know that i can reach out whenever, for anything, and you’ll be there for me. because you’re so genuine and so authentic. this kind of friendship is something i’ll always cherish”.

aside from the fact that i’m getting teary eyed as i remember her words, i have a point with all of this rambling and exposition — as soon as she said this and helped me rid myself of all that stress, it felt like i’d just slipped into my better cr

a reality where i’ve always scripted this kind of energy, this kind of vibe, with her

at that moment, shifting wasn’t on my mind bcs i felt like i’d achieved it ?? i felt like i was there, in my better cr, getting lunch with one of my most cherished friends, just like those scenarios i’ve scripted

and her and i have even planned another meet up pretty soon with our extended group and i cannot explain how refreshing it is to feel zero social anxiety about this plan

usually i’d have inklings of fear and doubt but right now? nothing !! absolutely nothing

i am so at peace and i haven’t felt this way about a friendship in so long ???

having lunch with her and speaking with her affirmed to me that my fears of losing our friendship were unfounded, because how can you lose something so genuine and so real?

i’ve finally learned to trust in our friendship and the love we share and dismiss my irrational fears that are baseless and are a result of my own overthinking

i don’t think you guys understand how incredible this is for me because i am without a doubt one of the most anxious people in existence it is disgustingly debilitating

but i’ve won this battle and there are gonna be more battles that i’m gonna win (anxiety-wise ahdhdhsh)

and i know i’m gonna win those because meeting up with her affirmed me of my own capabilities and my own manifestations

i’ve learned to dismiss unfounded fear and trust in my friendship with this person

why don’t we think the same way about loa???

we need to trust in your friendship with loa, one of the most genuine friendships you can ever have

the universe can throw as much at you as it wants but loa always has your back

we need to stop thinking of loa as this unresponsive crush, always seeking its validation, in need of constant attention and interaction and hoping to “run into them” to “share a moment”

stop. stand up.

loa is not your crush, for fuck’s sake, loa is your life long soulmate friendship

a friend like loa? you don’t need to talk to them 24/7 to know they love you and value you and care about you and will provide for you

that’s what loa should be, a true genuine friend who you can hit up for whatever you want (manifestation) and they’ll follow through (materialisation)

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thank you thank you !!!

gang we’ve reached another angel number ☹️🫶🏽

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lola darling i miss you xx thank you for the tag bb <3

okayy five things i love abt myself (no particular order) :

1. my hair — i take great pride in the care i give to my hair, it’s long and voluminous and smells like coconut shea butter and i never get tired of seeing the way it waves so nicely when i put it in a half up do

2. my writing — i say this every time i mention this skill but i am meant to be a writer, i can’t see myself as anything else, even when i shift to have different careers, i always am a writer in those realities too, either as another job or a hobby. i have such an appreciation for my own ideas and creativity and i value my own mind so much in that regard, i always aim to put out my best work when it comes to writing, it’s part of my identity

3. my personality — cliche but i wasn’t the conventionally attractive kid growing up (especially as i went to schools that were predominantly white .. as a brown girl) so i realised pretty quickly that to be valued socially, i needed to bring more to the table than other people, and i think learning to find confidence and learning to appreciate my own personality helped me find the most incredible friend groups and i truly truly know, unwaveringly in my core, that i have a pretty cool personality and i make a pretty great friend. that kind of confidence is something that people can struggle a whole life to find, so i’m eternally grateful that i’ve managed to find it in me

4. my eyes — this one’s hard bcs i have like eternal dark circles from childhood allergies, BUT, my eyes are nice i’ll be honest. they’re big, almond shaped, deep brown irises, i like them, they’re kinda pretty in that doe eyed way

5. my idealism — it’s a double edged sword, this one. i was raised by pessimists and realists and that took a toll on my inherent optimism, so i still battle with my logical self every single day and probably will for the rest of my life. but, i think it’s incredible how i have an unmoving hope for success inside me, just a small part of that will never go away, that always believes that things will work out, that things will get better, not just for me but for everyone that i care about. it’s probably ridiculously naive of me, but i don’t think i can help myself, so why hate it when i can love it, right?

is this too deep? am i taking this too seriously? probably .. (shrugs) oh well !!

tagging : @faeriemarie . @hrrtshape . @kissmete . @bruisedswan . @withluvvenus . @laylasverse . @shaysplanet . @macknshift . @kerryshifts . @eddieisashifter . @viperrshifts + any one else who wants to join in !!

^ no pressure loves <3

Firstly, when you get this, you have to answer with 5 things you like about yourself, publicly. Then, send this ask to 10 of your favorite followers (non-negotiable, positivity is cool)

Tysm!

Okay, this is gonna be difficult BUT

1) I like my hair

2) I like my eyes

3) I like my writing

4) I like my aesthetic

5) I like the fact I'm a bookworm

Instead of sending asks, I'll just tag my mooties/friends here!! ;

The sweet and coolbeanz you, @izumi-miffy

The one and only @3thereality

The awesomesauce @stareyeofficial @chuchucharlie @itzzkaylaaa @crazed-transbian-lunatic and @saturnidiot

My dear @finnosaurusladiesman217

And the love of my life, @h0neybun-xx

That makes 9 people but I don't have any more moots, so that'll suffice I think!

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i find it so cool when my better cr script starts bleeding over into my cr?? like reminding me how shifting is just a branch of manifestation

bcs i scripted that in my better cr i worked for my high school eng tutor right? and in this reality, life has just been so slow for me for the last four years and i haven’t really transitioned into adulthood as smoothly and as competently as my peers have

so i’ve been quite disheartened by my progress as a student and a young person joining the workforce

anyway, today my mum motivated me to reach out to my ex tutor for some training and just basically put some confidence in me that i could do this if i really wanted it

and that really helped bcs working for my ex tutor would give me more access to english and literature and creative writing fields rather than stem fields (which is my other degree) so .. idk

i’m nervous but . i’m going for it ya know? do it scared type shit

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EIGHT??!!$((!&)?!

i feel ancient …

on a similar note tho, this is clarity with red velvet and bts when we were predebut

also THIS IS SUCH A CUTE IDEA BCS imagine all the predebut photos of you where you appear in the background of a lumino at one of our concerts!!

and then after you get announced to debut, lumino’s are like “oh the new rookie group’s member was at a clarity concert in the row behind me !???!”

just realised how fun it’ll be to be a rusher in my kpop dr (a big time rush fan)

like i’ll be shouting the lyrics to worldwide every time it‘s on T^T

not to mention the lyrics just fit so well for an idol’s lifestyle

and being able to go to their reunion tours and shows and potentially meet lumino’s that are also rushers?? sign me up

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just realised how fun it’ll be to be a rusher in my kpop dr (a big time rush fan)

like i’ll be shouting the lyrics to worldwide every time it‘s on T^T

not to mention the lyrics just fit so well for an idol’s lifestyle

and being able to go to their reunion tours and shows and potentially meet lumino’s that are also rushers?? sign me up

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꒰ঌ ໒꒱ hi queen this post just reminded me of u

PLEASE COME HERE AND LET ME GIVE YOU THE MOST TENDER FOREHEAD KISS BCS YOU GOT ME SO RIGHT

this is quite LITERALLY me and my better cr bf

i’ve scripted scenarios exactly like this

i will be thinking abt this all day ☹️ you have most definitely made my week better (i’ve been in a slump and i can’t thank you enough)

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my dad walked into my room with a cup of masala chai and was like “here :)” and then walked back out ☹️

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this is literally me and wonyo what are y’all talking abt ??

kpop dr rambles :

can’t wait to film a tt w wonyoung and then go viral for captioning it “we’ll never hate eo the way you all want us to”

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from rivalry bonds ; my friendship w mariah

clarity/kpop dr

this is another post that was inspired by an edit i saw, which then spawned an edit idea.. but i felt like there’s some lore behind it that needs explaining ahahah

i went into it a little bit in my moodboard + desc. post abt clarity’s friendship but this is more focused on mariah and i

when we first met, we instantly knew we’d be competition bcs we were introduced to each other as vocalists.

i was two years younger than her and desperate to prove myself so i thought “ok, let’s become friends with this girl and see what her skills set is like so i can gauge myself and train accordingly”

mariah on the other hand heard ‘ she’s also a vocalist ’ and immediately was like “nope. i’m the gonna be the vocalist, i don’t want anything to do with her” and i lowkey respect that bcs why was my mindset more sneaky like tf T^T

constantly we were used as a comparison for each other, where i succeeded she would falter and where i fumbled she’d carry through, i think i genuinely hated her at one point bcs she was so talented (and while i was also very talented .. she was also older than me and more likely to debut first)

i think mariah’s animosity towards me was based on my need to always one up myself — if i was given criticism on something, id make it my mission to not only rectify that issue, but i’d do it so well that i’d have to be complimented on it — i had this childish need to be verbally validated not just to my face but in front of other trainees so they knew that despite my age, i’m capable of levelling with them

we were both immature in our own ways and we were uncomfortably similar so we felt seen in one another in a time where we didn’t want anything to do with each other 😭 but then they finally put us in a duet for a monthly eval and our harmonies continue to be talked abt and the clip continues to go viral years after we’ve debuted — vocal powerhouses for sure

that’s when the switch flipped and we let our musical sense drive our relationship rather than our need for validation and victory — at the end of the day, both of us were there bcs we loved music, art, performance, entertainment, we were creative people so we started to explore what it was like to create together, we’d practise together and request duets more often, we were falling in love with the way our voices sounded when harmonising, in a way we actually started to feel more confident if we had each other, side by side, a mic for each of us

and once we began to rely on each, we never stopped. we’re the duo in the group that got the most notice for how we make eye contact and seem to always smile supportively of each other while on stage together, mid-choreo and we’ll be communicating via facial expressions, it’s a problem

anyway, all this to say, our friendship is so strong because of the fraught beginnings — while my other members and i had good relationships from the start (and those relationships are still strong) mariah’s is special for the opposite reason entirely and i think that’s what makes our connection so interesting <333

you can find the edit that i scripted under the cut ≈

the only change i’d make to this edit is more scenes are used —

it’d start off with weird side eyes and blank expressions when looking at each other pre-debut

cut to the way we always look at each other adoringly, hands holding each other, hugs, laughs, random arguments that have us chasing each other around, huge smiles on our faces

i love her and miss her sm rn ☹️

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gang we’ve reached another angel number ☹️🫶🏽

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can’t wait to film a tt w wonyoung and then go viral for captioning it “we’ll never hate eo the way you all want us to”

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THIS LITERALLY HAPPENED TO ME IN MAY TF

i met this reality’s version of my better cr bf and TELL ME WHY THAT MAN WAS SO FINE

i already knew of him and heard abt him from parents as he’s an old family friend but like, i’ve recently been hanging out with his family more and tell me why his mum and sister keep hyping him up around me???

like you don’t have to convince me JAHDJFJSJDJD IM ALREADY SHIFTING FOR THE GUY 😔🥲

tell me why i manifested the real life wang junhao. why is my friend bringing him up in my conversation. (for reference we still have a couple of mutual friends that he hangs out with?

anyway WHAT??????