chalupacabras

[chalupacabras]

Hi all! So a long while ago, I made a private sideblog that was not linked to my main, here at chalupacabras, that i made unsearchable, untraceable, unviewable from a browser, and I used it to write my feelings out, which were often very personal, still tender, and raw. Thankfully, I didn’t post it all, because I just learned that apparently people had gotten hold of that blog and used it to screenshot all of the posts I thought would never find an audience, and circulate it on here and on twitter to belittle and humiliate me.  “Why make a blog at all? Why not write in a journal?” I have, most of my life, written in a journal, several, in fact. Before I made that blog, I actually lost one of my journals, and with it, all the irreplaceable content. I thought nothing would ever get lost like that again if I put it on a private account I could access anywhere. I see now, that was a mistake. 

I am extremely hurt by this, and feel vulnerable and exposed. I made chalupacabras as a preteen so i could entertain and be entertained, and always wanted to keep my personal life personal. Blogging is no longer fun for me, I have been constantly harassed for nearly a year now by people seemingly determined to dig their teeth into me. Now that I have just learned about this last breach of trust, there’s nothing to keep me here. I’m relieved I learned of this at all, but wish it hadn’t happened. I don’t feel any need to conceal my hurt by this, and I don’t think there’s any weakness in feeling this way. Within the next week, I’ll delete this blog, or at least lock/deactivate it if possible. Find me somewhere else if you’re interested, if not, then a wonderful life to you all 

[chalupacabras]

Hi all! So a long while ago, I made a private sideblog that was not linked to my main, here at chalupacabras, that i made unsearchable, untraceable, unviewable from a browser, and I used it to write my feelings out, which were often very personal, still tender, and raw. Thankfully, I didn’t post it all, because I just learned that apparently people had gotten hold of that blog and used it to screenshot all of the posts I thought would never find an audience, and circulate it on here and on twitter to belittle and humiliate me.  “Why make a blog at all? Why not write in a journal?” I have, most of my life, written in a journal, several, in fact. Before I made that blog, I actually lost one of my journals, and with it, all the irreplaceable content. I thought nothing would ever get lost like that again if I put it on a private account I could access anywhere. I see now, that was a mistake. 

I am extremely hurt by this, and feel vulnerable and exposed. I made chalupacabras as a preteen so i could entertain and be entertained, and always wanted to keep my personal life personal. Blogging is no longer fun for me, I have been constantly harassed for nearly a year now by people seemingly determined to dig their teeth into me. Now that I have just learned about this last breach of trust, there’s nothing to keep me here. I’m relieved I learned of this at all, but wish it hadn’t happened. I don’t feel any need to conceal my hurt by this, and I don’t think there’s any weakness in feeling this way. Within the next week, I’ll delete this blog, or at least lock/deactivate it if possible. Find me somewhere else if you’re interested, if not, then a wonderful life to you all 

[chalupacabras]

Okie dokie my primary other social media is snapchat and instagram so

Here’s my instagram @a_reinh

And here’s my snapcode

[chalupacabras]

Hi all! So a long while ago, I made a private sideblog that was not linked to my main, here at chalupacabras, that i made unsearchable, untraceable, unviewable from a browser, and I used it to write my feelings out, which were often very personal, still tender, and raw. Thankfully, I didn’t post it all, because I just learned that apparently people had gotten hold of that blog and used it to screenshot all of the posts I thought would never find an audience, and circulate it on here and on twitter to belittle and humiliate me.  “Why make a blog at all? Why not write in a journal?” I have, most of my life, written in a journal, several, in fact. Before I made that blog, I actually lost one of my journals, and with it, all the irreplaceable content. I thought nothing would ever get lost like that again if I put it on a private account I could access anywhere. I see now, that was a mistake. 

I am extremely hurt by this, and feel vulnerable and exposed. I made chalupacabras as a preteen so i could entertain and be entertained, and always wanted to keep my personal life personal. Blogging is no longer fun for me, I have been constantly harassed for nearly a year now by people seemingly determined to dig their teeth into me. Now that I have just learned about this last breach of trust, there’s nothing to keep me here. I’m relieved I learned of this at all, but wish it hadn’t happened. I don’t feel any need to conceal my hurt by this, and I don’t think there’s any weakness in feeling this way. Within the next week, I’ll delete this blog, or at least lock/deactivate it if possible. Find me somewhere else if you’re interested, if not, then a wonderful life to you all 

[chalupacabras]

i’m so sorry that happened to your blog. i also have a private blog to do the same thing idk what i’d do if it got leaked. i hope you’re okay.

I actually feel alright now, I’m relieved I didn’t post more on that blog not knowing it was leaked, and I’ve been toying with moving on from tumblr for a while now since it just seems like a dead-end platform and I feel like I’ve gotten all I’m going to get out of it, so I just needed that one extra push. There’s nothing I can do about it now, I can’t wash off the very violated and nasty feeling of this in the shower, so i’m grateful that I still have a few unbroken eggs in my dozen to gather up and move onto better pastures. thank u very much i hope u add me on other media 

[chalupacabras]

I cant see your instagram/snapchat link in your description( All it says is "primary interested it decadence". Can you give me your instagram username/link? Also, I wondered what's your enneagram trytype, with wings and stuff. I remeember you had it in your profile description but now it's gone and I'm curious

i’ve heard that a couple times now, so i made a post about it! But my instagram handle is @a_reinh and my sc is @tacobelles I forgot my enneagram but was so determined to give you a good answer that I just retook an ennea quiz at 2 am to tell you that it’s 4-7-9. A few years ago when i was edgier and going through some shit it was 7w8 but if there’s one thing I know, it’s that enneagram measures traits only and therefore can change as you change

[chalupacabras]

Okie dokie my primary other social media is snapchat and instagram so

Here’s my instagram @a_reinh

And here’s my snapcode

[chalupacabras]

I'm realizing that the juxtaposition of my 21p posts and my post about my blog getting leaked makes it look like i angered 21p fans so much that i got doxxed 

thats not the case, but the people who hate me and leaked my blog are 21p fans but that’s just coincidence 

[chalupacabras]

Hello. The whole personal blog situation is awful and disgusting, you're amazing person and your content and vibes are incredibly raw and significal. I don't want to lost you in my internet life so if you feel secure enough about this - can you give me any links to other social media account you have? If you cant it's fine, it was nice to folliw you for last 2 years

i have an instagram and a snapchat! They’re in my description. Thank you for saying these kind words, I still feel incredibly hurt by this whole situation and would’ve never dreamt it would get this far

[chalupacabras]

Hi all! So a long while ago, I made a private sideblog that was not linked to my main, here at chalupacabras, that i made unsearchable, untraceable, unviewable from a browser, and I used it to write my feelings out, which were often very personal, still tender, and raw. Thankfully, I didn’t post it all, because I just learned that apparently people had gotten hold of that blog and used it to screenshot all of the posts I thought would never find an audience, and circulate it on here and on twitter to belittle and humiliate me.  “Why make a blog at all? Why not write in a journal?” I have, most of my life, written in a journal, several, in fact. Before I made that blog, I actually lost one of my journals, and with it, all the irreplaceable content. I thought nothing would ever get lost like that again if I put it on a private account I could access anywhere. I see now, that was a mistake. 

I am extremely hurt by this, and feel vulnerable and exposed. I made chalupacabras as a preteen so i could entertain and be entertained, and always wanted to keep my personal life personal. Blogging is no longer fun for me, I have been constantly harassed for nearly a year now by people seemingly determined to dig their teeth into me. Now that I have just learned about this last breach of trust, there’s nothing to keep me here. I’m relieved I learned of this at all, but wish it hadn’t happened. I don’t feel any need to conceal my hurt by this, and I don’t think there’s any weakness in feeling this way. Within the next week, I’ll delete this blog, or at least lock/deactivate it if possible. Find me somewhere else if you’re interested, if not, then a wonderful life to you all 

[chalupacabras]

y’all if you wanna discuss any of my observations or 21p or defend your viewpoints or ask questions or anything else that you’d send me an anon for, you’re just going to have to message me directly and i’d be happy to respond, but the amount of asks in my inbox is ludicrous and I can’t and won't spam my blog with this anymore. I don’t want to turn off anon because I know the importance of an outlet and i think it’s cowardly to say things and then not be available to back them up, but i just can’t answer them all. just message me

[chalupacabras]

Does anyone in this thread smoke weed

[chalupacabras]

all i did was compare visuals! they’re right there in front of your eyes in a video that was released to everyone, how come you’re all acting like i hacked their email this is so rabid i got 2 more asks in while i was typing that last post out I'm done for the evening please give it a rest it’s just a damn BAND

[chalupacabras]

i’ll get to every ask but they’re piling up and i’m not even finished typing the response to one before another shows up in my inbox so I'm going as fast as i can but jesus take a rest

[chalupacabras]

dude .. no offence but .. if you google “night protest” / “protest at night” you’ll literally find like ten images that look like the mv. sorry charlottesville happened at night. fuck.

It’s really more about Tyler’s bald head and really white supremacist vibe right there in the middle of the riot scenario over anything

[chalupacabras]

You’re sticking pins in this twenty one pilots voodoo doll like it’s hurting edy aren’t you

literally please I’m surprised to even see this because i have not had a single interaction with edy since they said all those horrible things since like january why in god’s name is this appearing in my inbox in august 2018 i feel like the next ask i’ll get is about homestuck or doctor who

[chalupacabras]

no offence why’re you the one getting upset when you’re making nazi comparisons? it��s not really funny and honestly i used to defend you a lot cause you don’t deserve all the hate messages you get just cause you don’t like 21p anymore cause you’re allowed to not like things that’s how the world works! and you shouldn’t get hate for that! but it is hurtful to make nazi comparisons to a band that you know a lot of people look up to. but it’s your blog so post what you want. just hurts a lot dude.

ok I'm back from eating so really there’s only 2 scenarios. Either:

-you think I'm wrong, so my comparisons are unjust, and you DON’T think the points I made are real or good, and that’s your opinion and you’re entitled to it. I just made objective observations off of what I saw, though

or 

-you think i’m right, and you don’t like that I’m saying those things about them, because you’d rather not think about it or believe they’re true, in which case you need to do a little introspection and think about why you like them so much