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Look back at happier healthier times. Cowboy Knight with my oldest son as the #model Unfortunately my wife just tested #positive for #covid_19 and my son is starting to feel off. Sigh. Going to have to drive myself to several doctors appointments the next couple of days. Guess it’s time to see if the mind can still outdo the body. (at Rio Rico, Arizona) https://www.instagram.com/p/CgsYx_xrPbH/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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I am here as a photographer and an artist. I was followed by someone I thought was a model after a glimpse of their profile. So I followed back in the hope of a collaboration once my health returns. Then the messages started. I find them rude and a very unprofessional way to introduce yourself. Out of principle I unfollowed the person in question. I am not here to be someone’s side fling or sugar daddy. I’m here to make contacts to make and show off my photography. If you are looking for something else, that’s fine. I’m no prude. I’ve done OnlyFans work for a few models. But I am not a participant in the action. If this loses me followers, so be it. I guess I should dive deeper into profiles before following back. I am disturbed and upset by this whole interaction. My poor health this year is probably making my reaction worse than it should be but oh well. I needed to #rant some. (at Rio Rico, Arizona) https://www.instagram.com/p/Cgid3KxLQL7/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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Rare sighting of the Giant #arizona #cloudshark at #sunset This specimen last spotted 12 years ago today in #riorico #az19 #clouds #cloudformation #kodakv610 #azwx (at Rio Rico, Arizona) https://www.instagram.com/p/Cf7juf4r5zv/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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Beginning to fear that this entire year will be a miss for me due to this #necrotizingpancreatitis issue I have dealt with all year so far. Thankfully I have insurance… but still $15,000.00 out of pocket is what I owe and that resets on July 1, so I start owing more soon. Especially with 2 more surgeries needed. Oh, well. At least I have a body of work I can fall back on, and friends who have tried to help. Looking at one of my favorite locations in #madera #canyon at the #waterfall #model #models #bikini #bikinimodel #water #swimsuit #swimwear #fashion (at Madera Canyon, Arizona) https://www.instagram.com/p/CfSDL_evp9a/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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Learned the #hardway yesterday what #opiod #withdrawals are like. Forgot to take my med yesterday morning and over the course of the day just kept getting worse. #physicaltherapy to help with my recovery from #necrotizingpancreatitis was tough and the day went downhill from there. Was not until late last night that I realized if missed my meds. Just kept trying to power through the day like my #stupidself always do. When will I learn? Well, at least I know now what physical addiction is like. #photo is of the #murphycomplexfire from several years ago taken in #tumacacori #arizona Kinda matches how I felt last night (at Tumacácori National Historical Park) https://www.instagram.com/p/CezD87gvIK7/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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I know that they say that imitation is the most sincere form of flattery… but taking one of my #photos and using it on your website as an example of the types of #photoshoots you offer is not flattery. It’s theft. Just because you are in Europe or England does not mean someone somewhere won’t notice. #theft #stolenpicture He has taken the photo down, apparently he stole from others and got legal notice from them. https://www.instagram.com/p/CezB96CPLUV/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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#sunset tonight in #riorico #arizona First sunset of #monsoon2022 there are #sprinkles in the area tonight. Was some lightning at sunset but I’m not strong enough to shoot it right now. #azwx #weather #azskies #arizonasunset (at Rio Rico, Arizona) https://www.instagram.com/p/CekiWV4Ocgc/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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Looking back two years to a #photoshoot to try to recreate an image one of the models sent me. We ended up one model short, but it still worked out (at Peña Blanca Lake) https://www.instagram.com/p/CekFZsGrSzC/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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#spiralgalaxy in my cup of #tea #ipad #ipadphoto (at Rio Rico, Arizona) https://www.instagram.com/p/CeXdll4L6K3/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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Was hoping to have the picc line removed by now so I could attend a conference in #flagstaff #arizona June 9-11 so I could have the opportunity to do another #photoshoot with #model @bizlemke Oh well. #blackandwhite #boudoir (at Flagstaff, Arizona) https://www.instagram.com/p/CeMmXegPO5o/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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Last night’s #lunareclipse Viewing was not clear in #riorico #arizona (at Rio Rico, Arizona) https://www.instagram.com/p/CdpSR6Bu45m/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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I want to thank @odanita_azmodel for setting this up to try to help out with my bout of #necrotizing #pancreatitis I have been feeling with for the last four months. The event is in #Bisbee #arizona at the @hitchingpostbisbee on May 21, from 1 to 6 PM if you are interested. Again, thank you Odanita, I really do appreciate the thought and care. #fundraiser (at Hitching Post) https://www.instagram.com/p/CdCtaHaLPpt/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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Finally starting to #feelbetter like the fight with the #pancreatitis is ending. Unfortunately I’ve had to #cancel the #travel I was supposed to do in May. So here is a #throwback with #model @xoangelamarie whom I was really looking forward to seeing and doing a #photoshoot with next month, but it’s not to be. #wildflowers #riorico #arizona #rioricoaz (at Rio Rico, Arizona) https://www.instagram.com/p/CcPJNatumQJ/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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On the plus side, doctor gave me the go ahead to try soft foods. First real food in the system since January 8th is mashed potatoes with a little soup broth. Meantime here is a #throwback of a #stilllife near my home in #southernarizona A pot in a neighbor’s yard with a bunch of #wildflowers namely #lupine and #californiapoppies (at Rio Rico, Arizona) https://www.instagram.com/p/Cb-5KSQPsf_/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Still #alive. Now under #homecare Hoping my pace of healing increases. #throwback to a #sunset I took at #holeintherock in #scottsdale #arizona a few years back. #silhouette #redsky #clouds #azwx #azskies #arizonasunset (at Hole in the Rock) https://www.instagram.com/p/Cb6tncpAPVQ/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Still stuck in #hospital due to necrotizing #pancreatitis so here is a #mondaymemory with #model @bryndowning up on #mtlemmon a few years ago. Ended the day shooting in the snow… still remember when she moved and sunk knee deep in the snow. #photoshoot #arizonamodel (at Mt Lemmon Ski Valley) https://www.instagram.com/p/Cakbsa4Je8q/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Alright, I’m a #laidup #photographer for now. Been in the #hospital for the last 9 days due to a really #severe #pancreatitis #attack There is debate if there is active #necrosis that needs to be dealt with. So for the #nearfuture I am out of action. One bright spot is today’s #pct recognized my @instagram handle. #selfie #blackandwhite #blackandwhitephotography (at Tucson, Arizona) https://www.instagram.com/p/CY4fHAaPHnY/?utm_medium=tumblr