charsonmars

[charsonmars]

i am no longer promising to be the nice person anymore as much as i want to people please that is not my job position anymore .

[charsonmars]

restaurant dates suck i hate eating in front of people, why do i need to buy a $20 meal that i most likely won’t finish and will make me feel sick also why is something like eating with someone else considered an event

[charsonmars]

all i’m asking is too fucking breathe at this point . please

[charsonmars]

i am the happiest alone

[charsonmars]

is comfort and being nice that fuckin hard ? i must be a professional at being a kind person with good morals

[charsonmars]

i just want someone to say nice things to me so i don’t feel like i have to travel the 7 fuckin seas to make someone be nice to me.

[charsonmars]

i’m so exhausted, my brain hurts . so much has been happening and i just want a break . i feel like recently everyone has been asking things from me that i just don’t care to do . everything feels like too much . everyone has been asking me for things that i don’t have . i feel like i have been associating making people happy with actions and materials and i keep disappointing everyone. my brain has been so foggy and i just want a day where i don’t feel like i’m being pushed around by what other people want me to do.

[charsonmars]

shut thE fuck up everyone just leave me alone

[charsonmars]

i don’t want to exist i don’t want u to know my name or anything about me

leave me alone

[charsonmars]

i’m a terrible girlfriend . i get it now

[charsonmars]

i have never felt the urge to just never exist and i can’t even do that. i hope the after life isn’t real . i hope one day i can die and never return . i don’t feel like doing this anymore

[charsonmars]

i love my boyfriend!😇😇😇😇😇

[charsonmars]

manifesting him to get sick and lose his voice so he can SHUT THE FUCK UP

[charsonmars]

manifesting u to SHUT THE FUCK UP

[charsonmars]

going on a 48 hour fast , i’m losing my mind

[charsonmars]

ate my one meal for today, told my bf i wanted a break and i’m feeling good 😇😇😇😇😇😇slay

[charsonmars]

been feeling very gay recently.