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I know I didn’t find everyone so I’m gonna post this in hopes that the people who need to see this, see it. Hi. I’m Shelby. I haven’t been on here in a long time. But I felt it was fitting to come back now. Ten years ago, almost to the day, I tried to commit suicide. It was April 23rd 2013. I was hospitalized for 6 days and when I got out I got a flood of kind messages. And I sit here now, typing this, a 26 year old woman who is genuinely happy. I’ve come so far and I wanted to thank everyone who reached out to me. Mainly Ayesha and Alexia. Two people I know aren’t on here anymore. But if you somehow see this, Ayesha, you called me that night and begged me to get help. And I can honestly say I wouldn’t be here without you. And Alexia. I just want to say thank you. For being there when I needed you.

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Where did that come from??

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Desire (ferocity)

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My dad is pretending to be on the computer again

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shane "eat the rich" madej

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Being back is bringing so many memories and not all of them are good. But I kinda missed it here

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Back after years. What did I miss?

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a stray cat showed up in my garden earlier and i named him todd howard as a joke but now i have to live with this because my stepfather just said “todd howard didnt eat the cat food i left out for him”

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i wish i could have been alive when gods would regularly come down from the heavens and fuck the brains out of mortals for no reason other than they felt like it 

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You can be depressed and not feel sad or blue. Depression can also be a haze of sleepiness, distractedness/obsessiveness cycles, and a twinge of irritability that can be hard to recognize because you might already be a “fiery” person. It can feel like a lazy Sunday that keeps imposing itself for weeks or months.