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[chemist-who]

I have completed my coursework and am will be starting my thesis next semester. I look forward to this summer.

life update

it's been awhile.

1. just wanna say that i have *finally* submitted my application for graduate studies. i have decided to get a masters degree in environmental science. yeah i wanna be an environmental scientist for quite sometime now (since university days actually). hoping things to go my way this year!!!!

2. again.. *finally* decided to learn how to drive

3. currently taking care of 10 (?) stray cats

[chemist-who]

They said that grief is just love persevering, and I’m still mourning your loss.

[chemist-who]

I have been re-watching the show Bojack Horseman. It’s something I’ll never get bored of. Every time I rewatch certain episodes, I notice something new. Still, the feelings I have stay the same. Sadness and frustration.

Truth be told, I’m actually rooting for Bojack. He did really awful stuff but I was rooting for him to eventually be better and I’m frustrated that every time he tries to turn his life around, his past mistakes eventually catches up. Of course, they are consequences of his actions. He made so many wrong decisions without being accountable for it and it started piling up. In a way, it’s like he’s designed to live a very tragic life. Not to mention the environment he grew up with. There is no way a well-balanced adult would result from that kind of environment.

Bojack is an awful character, yes, but I can’t really hate him. I actually empathize with him. I have a troubled past and I did (still does) things I wish I didn’t. So seeing Bojack go to rehab and be a professor and just be a different person made me happy. It’s really frustrating how things turned out. I wanted him to have an implied happy ending because that would mean I too can have one.

Show aside, I just really hate it how life is designed for you to lose.

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Happy new year, I guess.

I’m still at my full time work. I extended my stay for one month. Also, I am now officially halfway through my masters program. One more semester and I’m gonna start my thesis. The semester is starting two weeks from now. I’m leaving my job in a week. I’m also still teaching at a university. This year i’m hopeful.

life update

it's been awhile.

1. just wanna say that i have *finally* submitted my application for graduate studies. i have decided to get a masters degree in environmental science. yeah i wanna be an environmental scientist for quite sometime now (since university days actually). hoping things to go my way this year!!!!

2. again.. *finally* decided to learn how to drive

3. currently taking care of 10 (?) stray cats

[chemist-who]

Well, It has been a few months. My full time work is so demanding and I can’t handle it anymore. Handed out my resignation letter and my last day will be in Dec 3. I’ll be focusing on graduate school as well as on being a university lecturer.

life update

it's been awhile.

1. just wanna say that i have *finally* submitted my application for graduate studies. i have decided to get a masters degree in environmental science. yeah i wanna be an environmental scientist for quite sometime now (since university days actually). hoping things to go my way this year!!!!

2. again.. *finally* decided to learn how to drive

3. currently taking care of 10 (?) stray cats

[chemist-who]

Hi, it’s been a few weeks since the start of my third semester in graduate school. I feel so stupid, actually, more than ever. Anyway I am now a lecturer (part time) at a university. It’s nice to be busy so I can stop having certain thoughts but it gets stressful sometimes. I can do this though, I hope.

life update

it's been awhile.

1. just wanna say that i have *finally* submitted my application for graduate studies. i have decided to get a masters degree in environmental science. yeah i wanna be an environmental scientist for quite sometime now (since university days actually). hoping things to go my way this year!!!!

2. again.. *finally* decided to learn how to drive

3. currently taking care of 10 (?) stray cats

[chemist-who]

Got all As for my second semester. I was only happy for five seconds. I’m sad. I regret everything. I miss my grandma. I feel suffocated right now. I miss my grandpa as well. I want to die

life update

it's been awhile.

1. just wanna say that i have *finally* submitted my application for graduate studies. i have decided to get a masters degree in environmental science. yeah i wanna be an environmental scientist for quite sometime now (since university days actually). hoping things to go my way this year!!!!

2. again.. *finally* decided to learn how to drive

3. currently taking care of 10 (?) stray cats

[chemist-who]

To happiness that is fleeting, and sadness that lingers

it might be considered greed but i just want it to be filled the void that keeps asking for more and a never ending refill what kind of world am i living in where happiness lasts seconds and sadness lingers like a tattoo kiss

- c.

[chemist-who]

Philippines is a fucked-up country rotten to the core. Unless the quality of education gets improved, we will never prosper.

[chemist-who]

Start of the second semester. I am once again struggling and completely doubting myself. I hope these feelings of incompetence would pass.

life update

it's been awhile.

1. just wanna say that i have *finally* submitted my application for graduate studies. i have decided to get a masters degree in environmental science. yeah i wanna be an environmental scientist for quite sometime now (since university days actually). hoping things to go my way this year!!!!

2. again.. *finally* decided to learn how to drive

3. currently taking care of 10 (?) stray cats

[chemist-who]

Got all As on my first semester of graduate school. It’s really fuckin hard - juggling work and studying at the same time. I have used most of my vacation leaves just to finish my readings and do presentations. But it’s all worth it. It’s really a roller coaster ride. I thought I was gonna fail one of my subjects because my prof gave me a 50% grade (It’s literally an F) on one of my presentations. But I managed to ace everything afterwards. Hilarious because I was depressed the whole semester because I thought I was gonna fail.

And yes, I am enjoying grad school.

life update

it's been awhile.

1. just wanna say that i have *finally* submitted my application for graduate studies. i have decided to get a masters degree in environmental science. yeah i wanna be an environmental scientist for quite sometime now (since university days actually). hoping things to go my way this year!!!!

2. again.. *finally* decided to learn how to drive

3. currently taking care of 10 (?) stray cats

[chemist-who]

Why do I feel like there’s a hole in my heart?

[chemist-who]

I finished my first semester of graduate school!!!!!!!!!!! It’s so fasssssssst.

[chemist-who]

Guys, graduate school is hard and I always feel either empty or inferior. But i love what i’m doing so there’s that. Also baek seju... that’s all.

[chemist-who]

What a thrill!

[chemist-who]

“I’m going to cling onto you, even if it’s useless and hold onto you, even if I look despicable.”

[chemist-who]

I want her to step on me//