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deathless ♚ sentence meme

You will always fall in love, and it will always be like having your throat cut, just that fast.

You are going to break your promise. I understand.

You’re lonely too.

It will stop your breath, how cruel I can be.

I am a demanding creature. I am selfish and cruel and extremely unreasonable.

I am your servant.

I crawl at your feet; for before your love, your kisses, I am debased.

For you alone I will be weak.

I belong here, and you will not deny me.

I say these things, and the world listens.

I do not tolerate a world emptied of you. I have tried.

In the dark, I have pored over the loss of you like pale gold.

I will not let her speak because I love her, and when you love someone, you do not make them tell war stories.

I moved the earth and the water for you.

You will always run away with her.

You will always lose her.

You will always be a fool.

You will always be dead, in a city of ice, snow falling into your ear.

You have already done all of this and will do it again.

No one should be judged for loving more than they ought, only for loving not enough.

We look terrible to you, and severe, and you see our blood flying.

What we carry between us is hard-won, and we made it just as we wished it to be, just the color, just the shape.

There need never be any rules between us.

Let us be greedy together; let us hoard.

Do not leave me, swear that you will never leave me.

I am selfish. I am cruel. My mate cannot be less than I.

Sleep with fists closed and shoot straight.

I can’t abide a poor liar.

You look like a winter’s night. I could sleep inside the cold of you.

Oh, quit that. Blushing is for virgins and Christians.

Scold me; deny me. Tell me you want what you want and damn me forever. But don’t leave me.

Bad luck relies on absolutely perfect timing.

In his own country, Death can be kind.

What is the world but a boxing ring where fools and devils put up their fists?

Men die. It’s practically what they’re for.

I am no one; I am nothing.

Nothing in me was not made by you.

A revelation is always the end of something. It might even be cause for grief.

Just tell yourself a story that’ll satisfy you and pretend he told it.

Forever isn’t bright; it isn’t like that. Forever is cold and hard and final.

I savor bitterness - it is born of experience. It is the privilege of one who has truly lived.

If you want to kill yourself, do not use us as your knife.

What did I do wrong? Was I boring? Did I ignore you?

Don’t you dare speak to me like that.

I have worn nothing but blood and death for years.

I have fought all your battles for you, just as you asked me.

I have learned not to cry when I strangle a man.

I have learned to watch everything die.

I am not a little girl anymore, dazzled by your magic. It is my magic, now, too.

Are we not devils?

No one is now what they were before the war.

I have not seen you without your skin on.

Close up your head; your brain is getting loose.

We obsess. It’s in our nature.

I’ve a devil of a habit for being right.

In war you must always choose sides.

If you try to be a bridge laid down between them, they will tear you in half.

We are all dead. All equal. Broken and aimless and believing we are alive.

My old bones will follow yours soon enough.

It is better to be strong and cruel than to be fair.

I will see him with his skin off before I agree to fall in love.

After love, no one is what they were before.

I have survived, but I have not been spared.

In the space of one heartbeat to another I loved you and I was lost to you.

Frighten me, make me cry, only come back.

It’s not so bad, my darling. Being dead. It’s like being alive, only colder.

You’ll think it’s love, while he dines on your heart.

You will be so beautiful when you are old.

I cannot keep you and I cannot let you go.

You will live as you live in any world…with difficulty, and grief.

I look at you and it is like my throat being cut.

She said you’d come and I swore to eat your heart.

I still want to kiss you.

My heart is being cut in two. I cannot bear it.

What happens to anything beautiful?

I have to know, I have to or else you will just rule me until the end of everything because you know and I do not.

[chernayavd0va]

⋆ ⁺ ₊ ⋆ ☀︎ love languages, part one: acts of service.

add [ reverse ] to swap sender and receiver's roles.

[ away ] sender plans a surprise weekend away with receiver.

[ breakfast ] sender brings receiver breakfast in bed.

[ chore ] sender does a chore they know receiver hates.

[ dinner ] sender takes receiver out to dinner at their favourite place.

[ event ] sender pretends to be receiver's romantic date at an event they attend together.

[ fix ] sender fixes something broken that's meaningful to receiver.

[ go ] sender goes to something to support receiver ( a sporting event, a theatre production, etc).

[ hair ] sender brushes/braids receiver's hair.

[ jacket ] sender lends receiver their jacket.

[ massage ] sender gives receiver a massage.

[ outfit ] sender sets out an outfit for receiver.

[ pay ] sender pays for receiver ( dinner, to see a movie, a ticket to an event, etc. )

[ run ] sender runs receiver a hot bath.

[ snack ] sender brings receiver their favourite snack.

[ towel ] sender has a warm towel waiting when receiver gets out the bath/shower.

[ umbrella ] sender holds their umbrella over receiver when it starts raining.

[ watch ] sender has been waiting for receiver to watch their favourite tv show/movie together, and they've finally got time together.

[chernayavd0va]

@redstarsandnightmares asked: ❛ everything i’ve done, every change that i’ve made - it’s been for you.❜

NATALIA'S LIPS CURLED UP INTO A SOFT BUT LOVING SMILE. She had always loved who James was, no matter where they had been in their lives...She'd always seen him as a good man. But the gesture she wasn't going to ignore, or NOT APPRECIATE. It just proved how good of a man he really was.

If only he could just see it...

She couldn't find words that didn't seem lacking, or like they didn't even come close to telling him how she really felt, but her smile grew. "Me too." She starts with simply, her hand reaching up and cupping his cheek in her hand, her thumb GENTLY STROKING HIS CHEEKBONE. Her eyes fluttered closed as she moved to raise up on her toes until her lips met his in a soft kiss, though it show EVERY ONCE OF LOVE SHE HAD FOR HIM.

"You make me wanna be a better person James." Her voice was quiet, her eyes slowly opening to look up at his. "You don't know the impact you've had on who I turned out to be."

[chernayavd0va]

been up all night and it's time for me to go get some sleep for a few hours, i'll be back to work more on here and @z3moed when i wake up...gonna get icons made for zemo tomorrow.

[chernayavd0va]

SHE WANTS TO DISAGREE...BUT SHE KNOWS HE'LL JUST ARGUE IT. That's how it tended to go. The two of them were hard to accept compliments or praise, but when it came from Bucky...IT FELT MORE REAL. His arm around her feels strong and safe. It's something she can count on. Something she was always able to count on before he was taken away from her.

"Like it when ya call me doll." She commented, having nuzzled into his neck after feeling that kiss on her temple.

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There's a small smile at his words , they really couldn't seem to get it right. The stolen moments through their past when they would cross paths with one another being moments that while often painful , were the ones that she looked back on fondly. Wishing for something that they had strived to make that was taken from them. Her hand squeezes his in return , that touch enough to pull memories she had safely stored away for her and her alone. It was all she really had left of their time together before he forgot it all. "I owe you for how I ended up. I don't think I would've gotten out if it weren't to you."

"Nah, doll, we owe each other for that one. You've pulled my ass out of the fire more than once."

He dropped her hand before snaking his right arm around her waist. He still didn't like to touch people with metal if he could help it. It was...unnerving. Pressing a kiss to her temple, he let out a quiet sigh. Moments like this were few and far between, but he was thankful for them.

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POST MISSION ADRENALINE WAS ENOUGH TO DRIVE NATALIA ABSOLUTELY NUTS. Couple that with Bucky's similar feeling post mission, and coming home was always a frantic dance to get to bed as quickly as possible. Nat would even argue the various bumps and bruises ADDED TO THE FEELING. Once the door was open, there's a huff from her lips as their bodies press against one another in fevered dance they were known for doing. HAVING THIS BACK WITH HIM AGAIN WAS LIKE A DREAM. Sometimes she worried that she would open her eyes and find that it had all been just a dream. She was coming to find her worries didn't need to be worried about. He wasn't going anywhere...They were able to finally BE AT PEACE.

"Take me to bed." It wasn't quite a demand, but damn nearing on it. She had been needing him since before they landed after the last mission, waiting to get home had been torture.

@chernayavd0va liked for a sunday starter.

HE'S LONG FORGOTTEN ABOUT THE ACHE IN HIS SHOULDER - or the mottled bruises forming under his eye. Too preoccupied with the rush of adrenaline that hasn't faded , the moment the door opens they're pressed against one another ; HANDS MOVING & TOUCHING AS IF AFRAID THE OTHER WOULD DISAPPEAR. This was a common occurrence after one of them went on a mission and it was a sense of normality that Bucky liked. In between kisses , he manages to close the door to his apartment - although it takes a little longer than usual because his mind is somewhere else entirely.

[chernayavd0va]

gonna be working on drafts over here after i've slept. gonna be setting up a schedule on working on my blogs since I have so many of them but I'm going to put priority on my main blogs which are this one, @brooklynbred, @zimnyayavdova and @zimniyxprizrak

[chernayavd0va]

@grimmusings asked: THE WARDROBE MEME

💝 on a fancy date 🎃 to a Halloween/costume party

[chernayavd0va]

@redstarsandnightmares asked: ​❝ good morning. no, don’t get up, it’s raining, let’s stay in bed a little longer… ❞

SHE LOVED RAINY MORNINGS. They were the times when she and James could lose the WHOLE DAY IN BED if they weren't careful. When her alarm had gone off, and she tapped on the screen before letting out a groan, the idea he proposed brought a playful smile to her lips before she rolled over in the soft bed to wrap her arms around him.

"I like the sound of that." She responded before leaning in to place a LANGUID KISS to his lips. "You gonna make it worth my while then? We were supposed to meet Steve for brunch. Gonna need a good excuse to cancel."

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@empirefall asked: ❝ want to trade candy? ❞

"I....Actually, now that ya mention it." Zemo was a Baron, which meant he was likelye to have the GOOD STUFF. "Yeah...Yeah lets do a trade. You can have my candy corn."

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❝𝑵𝑨𝑻𝑨𝑺𝑯𝑨 , 𝑵𝑶𝑻 𝑱𝑼𝑺𝑻 𝑨 𝑺𝑷𝒀 , 𝑵𝑶𝑻 𝑱𝑼𝑺𝑻 𝑻𝑶𝑷𝑷𝑳𝑰𝑵𝑮 𝑹𝑬𝑮𝑰𝑴𝑬𝑺 𝑨𝑵𝑫 𝑫𝑬𝑺𝑻𝑹𝑶𝒀𝑰𝑵𝑮 𝑬𝑴𝑷𝑰𝑹𝑬𝑺 𝑭𝑹𝑶𝑴 𝑾𝑰𝑻𝑯𝑰𝑵...𝑩𝑼𝑻 𝑨𝑵 𝑨𝑽𝑬𝑵𝑮𝑬𝑹.❞

❝ 𝐓𝐑𝐔𝐓𝐇 𝐈𝐒 𝐀 𝐌𝐀𝐓𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐎𝐅 𝐂𝐈𝐑𝐂𝐔𝐌𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐄. 𝐈𝐓 𝐃𝐎𝐄𝐒𝐍'𝐓 𝐇𝐀𝐕𝐄 𝐓𝐎 𝐌𝐄𝐀𝐍 𝐀𝐋𝐋 𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒 𝐓𝐎 𝐀𝐋𝐋 𝐏𝐄𝐎𝐏𝐋𝐄. 𝐍𝐄𝐈𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑 𝐀𝐌 𝐈. ❞

CHERNAYAVD0VA is a private , mutuals only , mcu/earth/headcanon based roleplay blog for Marvel's NATASHA ROMANOFF/THE BLACK WIDOW. mun and muse are 30+ and blog has a mature rating. 21+ to follow. personals dni. scripted by jj.

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@empirefall asked: "I am the monster you created."

HER JAW CLENCHED TIGHT AT THE COMMENT. It's not unlike some of her own thoughts she's had in the past. That she's THE RESON for all the pain and heartache in so many lives. Being an Avenger had always been to MAKE UP FOR THE PAIN, not add to it under the guise of being a hero.

Still...She couldn't quite come to agree with Zemo on this.

"You're the monster you let yourself become." She shook her head. "We've made mistakes...Big ones...But I'd like t'think I at least have learned from them." Staring him down she shrugged. "What about you? Any mistakes in your past? Moments you're not proud of?"

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𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐒 𝐓𝐎 𝐄𝐍𝐄𝐌𝐈𝐄𝐒 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐓𝐒 (a collection of prompts for lovers who became enemies. Some can also work for friends to enemies, but most have a romantic undertone. Feel free to adjust phrasing and gendered terms as necessary)

“Even saying your name hurts.”

“We were meant to be, but we did it wrong.”

“I can’t wait to look at your face, and feel nothing.”

“I trusted you.”

“I don’t know what I’m more afraid of: to see you again, or to never see you again.”

“I knew you’d betray me eventually.”

“I wish I had never loved you.”

“None of it was real, then?”

“You have ruined everything.”

“It doesn’t matter that I love you. I’ll kill you if I ever see you again.”

“Don’t make me kill you.”

“Say you never loved me, say it.”

“Did I even mean anything to you?”

“Kill me then. Do it.”

“So you lied to me. All this time, you were lying to me.”

“It’s too late now.”

“I almost wish we never met.”

“We could have had a beautiful life together.”

“I was ready to give you my love, my heart, everything.”

“I’d still be yours, if you asked.”

“I can never forgive you.”

“You can’t even look me in the eyes!”

“You almost sounded like you enjoyed my company.”

“I do care about you. I’m still going to kill you, though.”

“Tear my heart apart one more time.”

“Hell is loving you in my sleep, and waking up alone.”

“I should have known better than to trust you.”

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Send “Wrong number!” for my muse to send yours a random text meant for someone else

Remember to specify which muse the text should be from, if sending the meme to a multi-muse, and to specify your muse if you are a multi-muse.

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𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐌𝐎𝐎𝐃𝐁𝐎𝐀𝐑𝐃 𝐌𝐄𝐌𝐄

Send an emoji and I’ll make a moodboard for:

🌞 my muse’s aesthetic 

🌙 your muse’s aesthetic

👨‍👩‍👧‍👦 my muse’s family

💼 my muse’s job/occupation

🍕 my muse’s favorite foods

💛 our muses’ relationship 

💕 our muses’ romantic relationship 

🔮 my muse’s zodiac sign

🏨 my muse’s town/country 

🏠 my muse’s home

📚 my muse’s past/childhood

🎨 my muse’s favorite color

⭐ one of my muse’s AU (please specify)

⚡ one of your muse’s AU (please specify)

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𝐖𝐑𝐈𝐓𝐓𝐄𝐍 𝐍𝐎𝐓𝐄𝐒 𝐌𝐄𝐌𝐄

Send an emoji for my muse to send yours:

✉️ a friendly letter

💌 a love letter

😰 a worried letter

🩸 a threatening letter

💔 a heartbreaking letter

😢 a goodbye letter

💢 an angry letter

📜 a cryptic letter

🙍‍♀️ a letter about someone else

😔 a written apology

🤫 a written confession

💼 a professional email 

💻 a friendly email

📝 a note 

🏖️ a postcard

📋 a shopping list

🎁 + any idea you want!

[chernayavd0va]

𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐃 “𝐒𝐌𝐀𝐒𝐇 / 𝐊𝐈𝐒𝐒 (𝐅𝐎𝐑 𝐔𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐑𝐀𝐆𝐄 𝐌𝐔𝐒𝐄𝐒) 𝐎𝐑 𝐏𝐀𝐒𝐒” + 𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑 𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐌𝐘 𝐌𝐔𝐒𝐄 𝐖𝐈𝐋𝐋 𝐇𝐀𝐕𝐄 𝐓𝐎 𝐀𝐍𝐒𝐖𝐄𝐑 𝐇𝐎𝐍𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐋𝐘.

Remember to specify which muse the text should be from, if sending the meme to a multi-muse, and to specify your muse if you are a multi-muse.