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every reblog is -1 hp for charles

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Fun, but mildly existential

a "which arcana character are you" uquiz but it's one of those self insert walkthrough ones!!!! enjoy!!!

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dark feminine habits

1. masterbate. give yourself permission to feel pleasure. it release stress from your body.

2. get naked. dance naked. sleep naked. look at you body in the mirror. soak in a bath. moisturize your skin. get a massage.

3. tell people no. if it’s not a hell yes, don’t waste your time. you have free will to do as you please. you are not a slave.

4. have pride in yourself and your achievements. set goals. accept compliments. own your confidence. shine.

5. flirt. it’s fun.

6. do shadow work. at the end of your day, take time to reflect on your mistakes and write down ways to make progress. this helps you understand your fears and guilts. journal. introspection.

7. don’t go along with anything that feels wrong to you. be assertive and don’t be afraid to cut someone off or cause a scene when your boundaries are crossed.

8. work your brain. do puzzles. reads books. learn about seduction. develop a skill. take time to daydream. visually manifest.

9. be daring. wear a sexy outfit or bold makeup look. show cleavage. follow your dreams. break routine. speak your mind. shock the people around you and ignore their judgements.

10. release timidity. stop overly apologizing, stuttering and overthinking. say exactly what you mean. feel exactly how you feel. banish all forms of guilt and shame.

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I came here because I don't have to show my face. I can state all sus shit and no one will bat an eyelash.

If you like my stuff you like it. And if you don't, you scroll past. It's like the dark corner where I can be myself and no one can judge me because it won't circle back to my real life.

That's it. That's why I'm here.

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Anyway I did it and now I want to jump off a building

I love how I'm finding reasons to not apologise when I was the one who messed up because I dislike the idea of having hard conversations and potentially being rejected.

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I love how I'm finding reasons to not apologise when I was the one who messed up because I dislike the idea of having hard conversations and potentially being rejected.

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I love reading about lost/ancient civilizations and practices.

I love reading the author's descent into the information about their studies. It's oftentimes a series of coincidences that link them to their final realization.

A delicious experience really.

And the thing I love the most about it is because when I read the books, I'm also having the same experience.

When I had found the book which detailed how sexuality and spirituality were connected, and not only that gave a practical, step by step process of how these men and women used their sexuality to propel their spirituality - I had been looking for this information for two years already. All I knew was that it existed and I was going to find it.

The author explained how he got into it and it almost seemed by chance that he had been chosen to enter that world because practice was kept private due to the socio-political climate of the world in the last few hundred years.

He was searching just as much as I had been, although for much longer since he's old enough to be my dad.

Reading about the Lemurians now, and seeing this author dive in and try to figure out who the hell are these people that somehow connects these not so connected cultures (I'm talking like Chinese and the Aztec Empire) is a magical experience.

It's a descent into chaos. You have no idea what you'll find but you're looking anyway.

One more thing that I find funny. The sacred sexuality book and the Lemurian book is published by the same company: Inner Traditions - Bear & Company. Not entirely unrealistic, but I wasn't actively looking for them to be connected, but it just feels like I manifested that.

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One of my favourite moments from this episode

Episode 8

Episode 207

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I know Nix Hydra doesn't exist anymore (much to my dismay when I learned of the news) but the Arcana was a game that gave me the confidence to leave my emotionally abusive ex and I wanted to share that with them.

It was pretty simple. April 2019, I was staying with my boyfriend at the time. I got the game because of the insane ads (yall know the ones I'm talking about) and began playing. I played out Nadia, Asra and Julian's route.

And all I could think for most of the time while I was playing is, "If someone could love me like this, then I don't have to put up with the below bare minimum treatment I'm getting with my boyfriend."

Granted, even before getting the game I knew I was going to break up with him, but I didn't know how, nor did I feel comfortable doing so. Seeing Julian profess his love for me over and over again gave me the sliver of emotional support I needed to leave.

At the end of April I went back to my family, and I think in June was when I broke up with him.

So yeah. I've heard of people who accepted their unique features (like their nose which was shaped like Julian), but nothing about abusive people.

Also this is a PSA: use whatever means necessary to get out of whatever toxic situation you're in. There's no shame in survival.

People might say I'm weird and that I needed to fix my self esteem, instead of playing an otome game to leave a dude. But it was the gentlest, most non triggering way for me to be able to do that, and that's all that matters.

Goal achieved, game played - me and Nix Hydra were happy at the end.

Also look at this beautiful man

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My favourite thing about Persephone eating the pomegranate is that she is more of co ruler of the realm than any other wife Hades may have potentially married.

Also the fact that she was willing to basically marry him to protect him.

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Kink: being called baby in a soft and gentle voice

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BUT WAIT. THERE'S MORE. IT'S KOREAN

https://youtu.be/GGK1gQYtHBE

So there's a Japanese Phantom of the Opera. And it's so much better than the movie

The singers' voices are so clear and delicious. Christine? Angelic. Phantom? Magnificent. Raoul? Makes it an actual love triangle.

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Same outfit silhouette and I CAN'T STAND IT

Thank you for suffering with me

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“the love hypothesis, chapter 16: adam” by ali hazelwood

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i fucking love spoilers for media i don’t consume and have zero context for. i love seeing a photo of a slightly surprised normal looking dude and seeing people freak the fuck out because of the significance, for which i know nothing of. he’s just some guy to me. it’s exhilarating. blorbo from my mutuals insanity

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Yesss

“I wasted my 20s”, cool man, just in time for all the gay sex and weird tattoos you’re about to have in your 30s

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Same

I  just love nourishing my online friendships and maintaining my small circle of friends, obsessing over  shows and some engrossing books while minding my business and drinking lots of water and doing my skincare to all the new music I keep discovering and not seeking comfort nor approval from any external factors in the world and living drama free, god i love that for me