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yeah.

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he won’t stoop to that level

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"are you ok with mutuals dming?" my mutuals can keep me as their pet if they want

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People who love cold weather are fucking weird. You like to freeze? You like to shiver?? You like when you take a step outside and the air stings your skin???

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Is anyone else getting ads on..... How to kill the monkey King?

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they say you can't pour from an empty cup but i've been doing it my whole life and aside from all of these mysterious ailments it's working out great for me

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You are worthy. asking for help is a normal and healthy thing to do.

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Skizz accidentally uploaded his Past Life episode 4 a day early and the juxtaposition of these comments made me laugh

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my beautiful laboratory solar system 100% accurate

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i don't think a lot of people understand this,

if you post ANYTHING ANYONE will interact with it. proshippers, antis, minors, adults, paraphiles, radqueer, horrible people, great people. there's nothing you can do about it

those fat ass ugly banners at the end of every post aren't doin shit bro

making long ass dnis then getting mad when others dont listen, yeah gtfo the internet

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compliments from girls go hard

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Ive been asked to be the leader/figure head of a camp for middle school girls that my uni wants to put on, because Im kind of the departments' toke "girl in STEM".

Except I'm not a girl. I'm Nonbinary. But I'm also kind'a glass-closet about that. I have my pronouns on my account, and my flag in my office. But I don't really made a deal about it.

I don't think it really... matters... for my workplace. The students that get it call me they/them, and the students that don't will never get it. Its my job to teach them electricity, and I just don't have the spare cycles to also teach them about gender spectrum and stuff like that. If they're not in that world, I'm not opening the door.

But I still feel a little conflicted about this Girl's camp. Yeah. I was a girl once. I was a little girl once. Confused and distant for the concept of girlhood. Dangerously close to the "not like other girls", but it turned out that I wasn't like girls at all. Because I'm not one. I'm the endless void beyond the dome of the sky. The sea of stardust and background radiation that bathes creation. I'm cosmic and complete and not at all tied to the boobs or uterus of this body. Its just my physical self, its really irrelevant to who I am - barring the trouble it's caused me over the years.

So I guess I'm just coming to the conclusion that I don't need to bring my personal opinion into this. This is a job. I need to get paid, and the guy arranging it is dangling a more permanent position under my nose. I need to take the job. I need to do the job. It's also irrelevant to who I am.

And the guy is only looking at the Mars-Venus of it. And what he really wants is to up enrollment, so investors will up donations. So like. All of this is predicated on "girl empowerment", and I do believe in that. There's still a lot of constructed stigma about girls in STEM. There's still a lot of closed doors and closed social groups and closed off ceilings.

But its i guess a little odd to me that I didnt get here, in my eyes, as a Girl in STEM. I got here as a person in STEM. Like everyone else. Sure, yeah, I was treated misogynistically, regardless of how I see myself. Yeah I know that I didn't have a lot of friends from my own department. But there's so many more aspects to that calculus than just my gender. I'm autistic. Adhd. Afantasic spectrum. I live 2 hours from home. Couldn't drive. Oldest Daughter Syndrome. Parentified and used to being talked down to about my degree. IM ALSO PUNK AND EMO!!!

There were reasons I didn't make friends, and stood out like a sore thumb. It wasn't just my tits. (They're good tits, I will say. And I liked to flaunt them in my 20s, its like the one part of my body I was happy with.) But like... IDK man.

I know this is still a real problem, and a real thing that needs outreach. But I just don't think the answer is "single out girls, because girls need the help". I think its "un-gender everything. Correct misogynistic and misandryistic behaviors when children are young. Get your kids obsessed with heroes of all types and help them do things they want to do." I really don't think playing to the gender disparity is the solution.

But at the end of the day, I need a paycheck, and I can't fix society by wishing. So I can be the freak that opens these girls' eyes. I can be the fruit that leaves a positive impression. I can be the reason these girls, for a little while, stop having to be hyperaware of their gender at every waking moment.

After all. I used to love getting the undergrad theatre lab girls to help me with prop demolition. You've never seen anything until the girl in the VS tights and painted nails looks at you with the abject glee of a small child while holding the sledge hammer you just showed her how to use, and watched her decimate a set of prop stairs.

So yeah. Empowerment still needs to happen. But It need to happen by decoupling gender from every little thing.