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real yearners miss people BEFORE they're gone

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The kindergarten-ification of society

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u can has cheezburger by georgia nielson, acrylic on canvas, 100 x 100 centimeters

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Every time there's a post talking about religion (in general) as a tool of social control there's always someone in the comments like "um it depends. because my church is actually decentralised and non heirarchical and is really leftist" and you look at their blog and they're part of an obscure microcult offshoot of Messianic Judaism (Christianity) or a full on Mormon

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i'm the lebron james of sexuality ocd

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Today’s spoiled, phone-addicted generation wouldn’t last five minutes inside the Earth’s molten core

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when someone tries to make china out as uniquely evil ('authoritarian') for having official state censorship policies, bear in mind that three usamerican companies are currently globally enforcing censorship policies founded in a right wing christian worldview. this is the 'freedom of speech' capitalism gets you!

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A bread is one of the most vulnerable animals on earth of all time. It can die in a number of different ways, which include being smashed, being old, being rottened, being crumpled up, getting too hot, having water put on it, and having water not on it but being in the air a lot (the water (mist)). The bread’s favorite way to die is being eaten, but the world is a complicated place, and it does not care for what the bread wants, and so it dies in a variety of ways which are not the preference of the bread.

Humans are considered the bread’s natural predator, and also, are the bread’s mommy (make/give birth to the bread). Humans are a large species of ant or plant or ele phant with two grasping appendages which they use to give birth to the bread. They also have one hole which eats the bread, and some other holes, which the bread is not allowed near, generally.

Some bread can go in the fridge. Some bread has fruit in it. Scientists don’t know why, as putting fruit in the bread is considered yucky, and scientists have difficulty imagining an organism that likes yucky things.

There is the anteater, which is an organism that likes yucky things, but scientists do not need to imagine it, because it is real.

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Kaiji

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some moral ocd haver with 4 followers: hmmm.... i dont know... saying puppies dont deserved to be kicked seems kind of risky. what if im not as well-spoken as i think and people misunderstand me and think im actually pro puppies getting kicked? maybe this can just stay in the drafts. i dont want to come off as an deplorable force of evil

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rednote is the only good social media because its the only one that consistently shows me lambs from xinjiang in little hats

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Do you play

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PLEASE READ!

This is my friend Layla from Gaza. ( layla_gazan on instagram )

She’s a dental student whose university got bombed and who’s been pursuing her studies online for a while, all while facing the horrors of famine and genocide. On top of basic needs, she needs to pay tuition, or else her education and future is at risk.

Her last Kofi got suspended, so a new one has been created. Please share this and, if you can, donate to support her and her family!🙏 This is urgent and any help is appreciated!!

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White Streamer: Hey, guys, you're not going to believe this. I thought this Japanese (Chinese? Eastern?) gacha video game was simply a form of obnoxious, degenerate art, but then I played it, and it was actually just a fun video game. I'm not going to let my mom know I play, this, though (LOL!)

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The portrayal of white people who have been violently separated from their own culture stealing the power of black culture and music to try to get reconnected was SO literal and somehow not at ALL heavy-handed or trite. Fkn remarkable.

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Going to preface before I go on a long-winded rant: I am diagnosed with OCD--a disorder that causes me immense distress with unwanted thoughts and images, including the things described below. It will also cause me to fixate on things such as worrying I'm faking my sexuality. I am currently in therapy for my disorder and currently in a relapse. Please don't try and reassure me in my comments as it makes the cycle worse. Also, please don't go into my comments saying that sexuality is 'fluid', it's okay to be bisexual/straight, or that lesbians can like penis or men. It's not helpful. Great, cool for you if that's how you feel for yourself. But I am a lesbian and know that I am one.

It's been a long time since I ranted on here, but my OCD & mental health are spiraling again. It feels like it'll never stop. I keep getting intrusive thoughts about men constantly, pretty much no matter what I'm doing and it's worse when I interact with them. I get constant thoughts worrying about if I 'secretly like them' and will fixate on any random man. I also do checking compulsions to test to see if I am attracted to them. I sometimes do it with women to make sure I am attracted to them to 'reaffirm' my sexuality. OCD is one of those things where it will never be satisfied with any answer and will continue to try and seek out 'evidence'. For me, I will compulsively search for every little thing. It's horrible and its been making me super stressed out.

It's constant and nonstop, causing me to dissociate from real life and feeling horribly disconnected. I also can't focus on shit either and have to do three different things to keep the thoughts at bay--listening to music, reading something, and playing a video game all at the same time. It's like I'm always far away and glass-eyed. My biggest fear is that I am going to be attracted to men or find them appealing. I don't want to be bisexual or straight. I don't want to end up with men. Currently the past few months seeing all these queer women who were very sapphic suddenly become obsessed with men is disheartening. I understand that they are queer/bi/pan and that's great, but it feels like they're pushing the belief that all lesbians need is the 'right man'. I worry that someday I'll just 'wake up' and no longer like women, turning into whatever fucking tradwife Jojo Siwa has become. I'd rather kill myself

I also hate when people say that lesbians can like penis or men. I've seen a lot of debates online saying that lesbians can like penis or can even like men. I personally do not and it reinforces my OCD that 'its only a matter of time before I like men', like a clock counting down. I'm so tired and just want my brain to shut up.

It's even worse during sex because my brain will give me intrusive thoughts about dicks or random things, making it hard to be present in the moment. I feel tainted by men cause it feels like I can't even enjoy sex with women, making me worry that I don't like sex with them. I just wanna lay down and just not do anything.