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Does anybody know if you ever stop being 11 years old and lonely

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art will save you, being unreasonably passionate about something niche will save you, letting past sources of joy show you the way back to yourself will save you, earnestness over composure will save you, the natural world will save you, caring for something bigger than yourself will save you, daring to be seen will save you, kindness not as a whim but a principle will save you, appreciation as a practice will save you, daring to try something new will save you, grounding will save you, love will save you, one good nights sleep will save you

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every time I fumble w my phone’s charger cable I think about emailing steven moffat a pipe bomb

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From the ashes a fire shall be woken, a light from the shadows shall spring…

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wait ok now i'm curious how old were you when you joined tumblr and how old are you now

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actually, growing up is feeling like i turned sixteen two days ago. i’ve been eighteen for years. fifteen year olds seem so young. wasn’t i fifteen just a few weeks ago? all my friends and i are still twelve. i’m closer to thirty then to being a baby. i never got to be a kid. i never grew past eight. i can’t talk to my mom. i want to sit in her lap forever. the week is going by so slow. an entire year has passed. i want to decide everything for myself. i need someone to tell me exactly what to do.

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YOU END UP WHERE YOU’RE MEANT TO BE IN THE END EVEN IF IT DOESN’T SEEM LIKE IT AT THE TIME

anyway in a wild turn of events, I was about to pay the deposit for an apartment when the guy from the apartment I really wanted but lost out on messaged me to say that the other people dropped out so it’s mine now

literally the only thing stopping me from having an actual breakdown is my silly little belief that somehow things tend to work out and you end up where you’re meant to in the end

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Not a popular opinion on tumblr I know but I would argue character death is good for stories, actually, and often a death with long narrative consequences is much better use of a character than having them linger with no more important plot beats to hit.

Character death isn’t writers being mean to viewers or something characters don’t “deserve,” it’s an important part of narrative and plotting to give stories stakes and emotional beats. The work making you have an emotion is in fact the point, not something to avoid.

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On a normal day, do you wear four or more items of jewelry?

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I am in HELL guys

HELL

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I FORGOT TO MENTION

this man also did the WEIRDEST thing a man has ever done

he sent me

fucking

“erotic literature” he wrote

he sent me fucking smut

pleased to announce another edition of arya's dating chronicles:

i've basically been avoiding actual dating since i was leaving the UK and i can't be fucked with dating apps anymore, so it's been a while but i did have one last hurrah

in this edition we have a man, one of the instructors at a place i go dancing in fact, who i meet at the pub after dance class and invites me to his place for a little social gathering

i have nothing better going on easter weekend so fuck it

and i, not being stupid, am fully aware of what's going on here especially since he drove me from halfway down to london to his place and he also offered to let me stay the night because the trains for the evening had finished (i did not, i hitched a ride home with someone else)

anyway he then invites me back to his place the next day, i am bored, i go and hang out with him for a while, he feeds me dinner, we make out, and then he drives me an hour back down to london to drop me off at my flat (i am living the passenger princess life)

now we do end up hooking up a couple times because for me, i'm leaving the country in a week so you know, let's do it for the plot. unfortunately he's too into me so it will only be for the plot, but a girl's got to have fun

what is HILARIOUS though is that he's an aquarius (my ex was an aquarius) and he's polish (my ex was polish) and honestly it made me fully believe that star signs are real because this dude is so similar to my ex that it's truly no wonder we got on

also i clearly have a type which is horrific

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pleased to announce another edition of arya's dating chronicles:

i've basically been avoiding actual dating since i was leaving the UK and i can't be fucked with dating apps anymore, so it's been a while but i did have one last hurrah

in this edition we have a man, one of the instructors at a place i go dancing in fact, who i meet at the pub after dance class and invites me to his place for a little social gathering

i have nothing better going on easter weekend so fuck it

and i, not being stupid, am fully aware of what's going on here especially since he drove me from halfway down to london to his place and he also offered to let me stay the night because the trains for the evening had finished (i did not, i hitched a ride home with someone else)

anyway he then invites me back to his place the next day, i am bored, i go and hang out with him for a while, he feeds me dinner, we make out, and then he drives me an hour back down to london to drop me off at my flat (i am living the passenger princess life)

now we do end up hooking up a couple times because for me, i'm leaving the country in a week so you know, let's do it for the plot. unfortunately he's too into me so it will only be for the plot, but a girl's got to have fun

what is HILARIOUS though is that he's an aquarius (my ex was an aquarius) and he's polish (my ex was polish) and honestly it made me fully believe that star signs are real because this dude is so similar to my ex that it's truly no wonder we got on

also i clearly have a type which is horrific

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what is like… the most on brand, stereotypical zodiac sign trait is true for you?

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please god, take that man’s pain, double it, and put it on ao3

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literally the only thing stopping me from having an actual breakdown is my silly little belief that somehow things tend to work out and you end up where you’re meant to in the end

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the first law of tragedies: the end is already written and inevitable. the second law of tragedies: your actions are all your own and you can choose to get off this ride whenever you want. the third law of tragedies: we both know that you are never going to do that.

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guys I am in hell

I’m so stressed trying to find a new place to live

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