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wish that it was me

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The last person you wanted to see at this meeting was your older brother. The same brother who left you in the hands of Chuuya Nakahara and the Port Mafia years ago, but all you can see now are the pleading eyes of Osamu Dazai begging for forgiveness.

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Chapter eight - Memories

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chapter nine

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The two of you sat in awkward silence for awhile before Atsushi spoke up, “You know, Dazai does care a lot about you”

You glanced up from your phone to look at him, “Huh?”

“I heard you and Chuuya talking. Dazai does care about you”

You chuckled at his words while looking around the room, “Sure looks it”

“He-”

You narrowed your eyes as he began speaking, “Atsushi. I have no interest in talking about this with you of all people. Osamu hasn’t reached out in years, do you understand how it makes me feel to see him act like a big brother to you when he hasn’t even made an effort for me?”

Atsushi opened his mouth to respond but you continued,

“I mean, look around! He has pictures of you guys scattered all around this room and not a single photo of me and him.”

“He has one in his wallet,” Atsushi said in a soft tone.

“Huh?”

“A picture of the two of you, he has one in his wallet. I asked him about it when I noticed it”

You weren't sure how to respond, Dazai kept a photo of the two of you with him?

“I was upset for you when he told me he had left you behind. I know what it’s like to be abandoned, trust me”

Your eyes softened as Atsushi continued,

“I don’t agree with his choices but you have to understand why he did it, right?”

You shook your head, “I would have helped him”

Atsushi gave a small smile, “You know you couldn’t have”

Atsushi was right, even if you didn’t want to admit it. You would have only made things harder for Dazai.

“He has photos of you guys in here too,” Atsushi said as he stood up from the couch and began walking towards the kitchen. 

You quickly followed him towards the fridge that was covered in photos, “That is you, right?” Atsushi asked, pointing at a photo in the center.

It was a photo Mori had taken of the two of you when you had first joined the Mafia, 

“Come on, just one picture!” Mori pleaded as you and Dazai looked at eachother with bored expressions. 

“No, thank you” You spoke, going back to brushing your doll's hair. 

“Aren’t you too old to be playing with dolls?” Dazai asked, a smile playing on his lips as he teased you.

“Shut up” You glared back

Mori sighed, the two of you had been bickering all day and he was simply sick of it at this point. 

“The least you two could do is give me a smile. I’ll even buy you a new doll!”

Mori’s words caught your attention as you set your current doll down and gave him a smile.

“Perfect! Now Dazai, smile with your sister, please!”

Dazai rolled his eyes before flashing a big grin.

Mori snapped the picture quickly, knowing the smiles were going to go away any second. 

The smiles you both wore were very obviously fake, making you laugh slightly as you nodded, “Yeah. We were so young”

You continued looking over the photos, most of them were of Dazai’s days in the Port Mafia, over half of them included you. 

“I’ve never asked about this one,” Atsushi stated, pointing at a small photo of you, Dazai, and Chuuya. 

“Oh my gosh” You giggled, “That was after my first mission with them. I don’t even know how Osamu got this”

The photo was of the three of you all asleep on the floor of Mori’s office, you remembered that day so well. 

“Would you guys please stop arguing?” You asked, walking ahead of the fighting boys you were stuck with all day. 

Mori had sent the three of you out on a mission, it was simple enough but it was very late by the time you got back. 

“Chuuya started it” Dazai whined, pushing Chuuya slighting

“HUH? I did not” Chuuya responded, pushing Dazai forward causing him to bump into you. 

You tripped forward and glared at the two boys behind you, “I am never doing this again”

The three of you had finally made your way into Mori’s office, only to find it empty with a note on his desk. 

“Be back soon, make yourselves comfortable” it read

You groaned before sitting down on the floor, 

“Why the fuck are you sitting on the floor when we have chairs?” Chuuya asked

“Comfy”

Dazai looked between the two of you before joining you on the floor, “Come on, Chibi. Get down here”

Chuuya rolled his eyes before sitting beside Dazai. The three of you talked about the mission until sleep overcame all of you. You awoke to the sound of a camera flashing, Mori standing above you all with a smile on his face.

“I apologize for waking you, I just had to remember this moment” He laughed, causing the two boys to wake up. 

“How was the mission?”

Atsushi laughed as you finished the story, “Mori takes a lot of pictures, huh?”

You nodded, “He said it was his way of trying to give us a “normal” childhood, so we could have memories to look back on”

“And i’m glad he did” You heard from behind you, “The only good thing the man has ever done” 

You turned to see Dazai standing beside Chuuya, who was holding several bags from the shop down the road. 

“I told you I didn’t forget about you”

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[chososchalupa]

wish that it was me

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The last person you wanted to see at this meeting was your older brother. The same brother who left you in the hands of Chuuya Nakahara and the Port Mafia years ago, but all you can see now are the pleading eyes of Osamu Dazai begging for forgiveness.

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Chapter seven - Wish that it was me

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cw - none

chapter eight

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The following morning went exactly how you pictured it, Chuuya was in a rush to get to the meeting on time while you weren't even out of your pajamas. 

“Could you please hurry the fuck up?” Chuuya yelled down the hall

You rolled your eyes, not bothering to respond. You weren’t necessarily mad at Chuuya himself but you were mad about everything else and unfortunately for him, you were going to make it everyone else's problem too.

You finished getting ready and walked down the hall to see Chuuya standing by the door with his arms crossed, “About fuckin time” He mumbled before walking out the door with you following behind. 

The two of you arrived just as the meeting was about to begin, you glanced around the room as you entered and just like before, there was no sign of Dazai and luckily for you, there was no sign of Atsushi either. You sighed in relief and took a seat next to Chuuya while you listened to Kunikida begin the meeting. 

The meeting had seemed to go on for hours, you weren't even bothering to listen at this point knowing Chuuya would fill you in once it was over. It wasn’t until you heard the door slowly open that you looked up from your doodling, Atsushi walked into the room with a sheepish smile on his face.

“Sorry I’m late” He spoke towards Kunikida

“It’s fine. Where is Dazai?”

“Oh! Um, he told me to tell you that he wasn’t in the mood for a meeting so he won’t be coming”

Kunikida narrowed his eyes at Atsushi's words before beginning to mumble angrily to himself, “Well,” he began, “This meeting is in regards to a mission that directly involves him so if you don’t mind giving him an update once we finish”

“I’ll fill him in” Chuuya responded, “Gotta go to his house after this anyway”

You glanced at the man beside you with a questioning look but the only response Chuuya gave you was a look that made it clear not to argue or complain.

The meeting finished soon after that and the two of you made your way to the elevator, 

“Hey! Wait up!” Atsushi called as he ran towards the two of you, “If you’re going to Dazais, can I ride along? I figured since we’re all on this mission together it would make sense for us to get there at the same time”

“No” You responded quickly

Chuuya elbowed you in the side as he glanced back at Atsushi, “Sure, come on”

“So not only are you forcing me to go to Osamu's house, I also have to spend my whole day with him?” You complained, glaring at Atsushi.

“Will you cut it out already? I’m really not in the mood today” Chuuya responded, pinching the bridge of his nose.

You didn’t respond as you got into the car waiting for all of you. Once at Dazais, you were more angry than before. Dazai had greeted everyone else while he only offered you a smile and a slight wave, not that you wanted anything more but it still annoyed you for some reason. 

The four of you sat in the living room as Chuuya gave a brief summary of the meeting Dazai had skipped. While they talked, you sat silently looking around the room. Dazai had many framed photos scattered on his walls. Most of them were random pictures of the city or sunsets but there were a few of him with his friends. You recognized a picture of him, Oda, and Ango when they were younger which caused you to smile, you didn’t think he’d keep anything to remind him of his days in the Mafia. You continued studying the photos before you realized, there were none of you two together. The two of you had plenty of photos from childhood and even a few together as teenagers but he didn’t frame a single one. You swallowed hard, glancing down at your hands as you listened to Chuuya and Dazai continue speaking. 

“You okay?” Atsushi asked you, getting the attention of Chuuya and Dazai.

“I’m fine.” You responded, not bothering to look up at him.

Dazai cleared his throat as he glanced at Atsushi, “We should get something to eat before we go. Atsushi, how about you help me find something in the kitchen?”

Atsushi nodded, although he was clearly confused. 

Once they left, Chuuya looked at you and then around the room. “None from the past, right?”

You pointed at the photo on the wall, “Only one. Him, Oda and Ango.” 

Chuuya chuckled, “Should’ve guessed”

You gave a small smile before standing to get a better look at the other photos, Chuuya watched as you walked around the room before stopping in front of a specific photo. He got up from the couch and stood beside you to see what the photo was.

The photo was of Dazai and Atsushi, Dazai’s arm wrapped around his shoulder while they both had big smiles on their faces as they were laughing while the photo was being taken. 

“He doesn’t have any of us” You whispered to Chuuya, “I wish that it was me. This could’ve been us if he didn’t leave me” 

Chuuya sighed, wrapping his arm around you like Dazai had done with Atsushi in the photo before you, “He had his reasons. You’d understand if you’d hear him out”

“I don’t have to. He made his decision very clear”

And although you thought only Chuuya could hear your words, Atsushi and Dazai stood on the opposite side of the room, having come in to tell you they needed to go to the store but stopped once they heard the two of you talking. 

“We have nothing here” Dazai announced as you two had been in silence for a few moments now, “Chuuya’s coming to the store with me?”

Chuuya turned around with an annoyed expression, “let’s go then, asshole”

Dazai smiled before turning back around to lead Chuuya outside, leaving you and Atsushi sitting in an awkward silence alone.

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wish that it was me

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

The last person you wanted to see at this meeting was your older brother. The same brother who left you in the hands of Chuuya Nakahara and the Port Mafia years ago, but all you can see now are the pleading eyes of Osamu Dazai begging for forgiveness.

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Chapter six - He's gone

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cw - sad Akutagawa moment, not proofread

chapter seven

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“Did Dazai actually explain anything?” Akutagawa asked as soon as you got into his car. 

You nodded, “He did”

The three of you sat silently as Akutagawa drove away before he spoke up again, “Care to share?”

“He said he wasn't able to take care of me and was scared of hurting me, I guess. I was eavesdropping on his and Chuuyas' conversation. He didn't say anything to me about it”

Gin laughed from the passenger seat, “As if he didn’t hurt you and everyone else by leaving”

You let out a soft laugh, “exactly”

The rest of the car ride was silent besides Gin humming along to the radio. Akutagawa would glance at you in the mirror every once in a while to make sure you were doing okay but he hadn’t spoken a word since you gave him Dazais’ reasoning. Once you arrived back at their home, he was quick to go to his bedroom. You gave Gin a look of confusion as you both sat on the couch,

“Is he okay?”

“He always gets like that when Dazai is brought up”

You nodded, Akutagawa was the only person who understood the level of pain you felt. Chuuya tried, and he understood for the most part but he also didn’t care as much as the two of you did. Akutagawa looked up to Dazai for everything, even when Dazai didn’t deserve the praise he was given. You remembered years ago, when Akutagawa came to you out of desperation, asking what he could do to receive the slightest praise from your brother.

“I have done everything he asks but it is never good enough” He spoke, clearly trying to hold back tears. You weren't sure if the tears threatening to spill were from anger or sadness but it made you upset regardless, knowing Dazai was capable of hurting someone who tried so hard for him. 

You reassured Akutagawa with a small smile, “I’ll talk to him” 

That night, you sat in your living room waiting for Dazai to come home. It wasn’t until 2am that he walked through the front door, a look of confusion on his face when he saw you still awake. 

“What are you doing up?” He asked, hanging his coat on the hanger beside the door. 

“I needed to talk to you about Akutagawa”

Dazai groaned, throwing his head back, “I’ve dealt with him enough today. Can it wait?”

You rolled your eyes, “You should be nicer to him”

Dazai lifted his head up and looked into your eyes, trying to see if you were joking with him or not, “You’re serious?” 

“Mhm”

“No. He’ll never learn if I'm soft on him. And he definitely shouldn’t be going to my little sister to complain. I’ll talk to him tomorrow”

Your eyes widened, “No, Osamu. He was just upset”

Dazai waved his hand at you as he walked away, “I don’t care about his feelings. I’m training him to be in the Mafia, not to join the Boy Scouts”

You weren't sure what happened after that, Akutagawa didn’t speak to you about Dazai until he had vanished and Dazai never spoke a word about Akutagawa to you. 

What you did know was Dazai never gave Aku the praise he so desperately wanted and now that Dazai was back, all of the memories were flooding Akutagawa's mind again.

“We should probably get rest too, you can sleep in my room with me if you don’t mind. My bed is comfier than the couch” Gin spoke

“You’re right. This couch isn't the best” You laughed, getting up to follow Gin to her room.

You awoke the next morning to hear muffled voices coming from the living room. You quietly got out of bed and made your way down the hall.

“I told the bastard it was a stupid idea, he never fuckin’ listens” You heard one of the voices say.

Definitely Chuuya.

“I don’t think it’s wise to bring her back to your house if he is still there” 

“He went home”

You finally walked out into the living room to see Chuuya and Akutagawa standing beside the couch that Gin was laying on. 

“Ready to come back?” Chuuya asked, eyes locking on yours.

“He’s not there?” You asked, you knew he wasn’t but you needed to be sure before saying yes.

Chuuya huffed, crossing his arms over his chest. “Like I just told Akutagawa, Dazai went home”

You nodded, “I just need to grab my stuff”

Once you had your belongings in hand, you went back to Chuuyas' now Dazai free home.

“Oh and Boss called earlier this morning” Chuuya spoke as you sat at the kitchen table 

“What’d he want?” You asked

Chuuya sighed, his eyes looking apologetically at yours, “Got a meeting tomorrow, me and you gotta go to the ADA building for 8”

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wish that it was me

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

The last person you wanted to see at this meeting was your older brother. The same brother who left you in the hands of Chuuya Nakahara and the Port Mafia years ago, but all you can see now are the pleading eyes of Osamu Dazai begging for forgiveness.

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Chapter five - Come get me

wc - 816

cw - self harm mentioned, not proofread

chapter six

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Chuuya looked disappointed with your words as he walked towards the door. 

“You guys just need to talk” He whispered as he reached for the door handle.

You shook your head, “there's nothing i need or want to say to him, Chuuya”

Chuuya just shook his head as he opened the door, revealing Dazai standing outside. His cheeks red and eyes watery, 

“Hi” 

His usual confident voice shook as he spoke to you, “I just want to explain myself” he continued as he walked into Chuuyas home. You couldn’t find it in you to feel bad for him, not when he's left you in that exact state many times before. 

“There is nothing to talk about” You replied, turning away from him to look back at your phone.

Chuuya whispered something to Dazai before you heard the two walk into the kitchen. You glanced up quickly to make sure they had actually left before going to message Akutagawa.

“He came to Chuuyas” You wrote

Akutagawa was quick to reply, “Dazai?”

“Yeah, said he wanted to explain himself”

“Are you okay?”

You reread the text several times, realizing quickly that you were in fact not okay. You hadn't realized the tightness in your chest or the fact that your hands were shaking while you were holding your phone. You swallowed hard, closing your eyes trying to relax until you heard the two men walk into the living room.

“Hey, Can we talk?” Dazai asked, sitting in the chair beside the couch.

You glanced back at the text Akutagawa sent before locking your phone and looking up at your brother.

“You left me. You left Akutagawa and Chuuya. You seem so much happier now than you were with us” You spoke, your voice cracking as you held back tears.

“I am happier now, but-”

Those words were all you needed to hear before the tears fell. Your breathing became quicker as you glanced over to Chuuya who just mouthed, “Listen” at you. 

“You didn’t even apologize. You didn’t even care to check up on me” You cried

“I did care and that's why I didn't check in. I knew Chuuya would take care of you. I left to protect you.”

“Protect me from what, Osamu? Because ever since you left, the only person I needed protecting from was myself” You rolled up your sleeves, revealing fresh and old scars. You watched as Dazai held his breath, looking over your arms slowly. 

“Why?”

“Are you seriously asking ‘why’? I felt so unworthy of anything since my own brother didn’t want to be around me. Akutagawa felt the same! He tried so hard to-”

Dazai was quick to cut you off, “I don’t care about Akutagawa, I care about you.”

You scoffed, “You destroyed us. In different ways, sure. But it hurts all the same”

Dazai was silent, he glanced over to Chuuya for help but Chuuyas eyes were glued to you as you stood up.

“I need to go to the bathroom” You whispered, walking quickly down the hall.

Once inside the bathroom, you locked the door and sat on the floor keeping your back pressed to the wall closest to the living room so you could hear them speak. 

“-brought her with me but i couldn't” You heard Dazai whisper, “I wasn’t fit to watch over her. I knew you’d keep her safe. I would’ve just ruined her”

Chuuya scoffed lightly, “You ruined her either way”

You continued listening until you finally got some of the story. Dazai left after Oda’s death, his mental illness getting worse and worse by the day. He wanted to keep you safe from himself, he didn’t realize that keeping you apart would hurt you just as bad. You finally checked your phone to see several messages from Akutagawa. 

“Hello?”

“Y/N”

“Please respond soon. I am worried”

You wiped your tears as you clicked on his contact, the phone ringing as you pressed it to your ear. 

Akutagawa answered quickly, “Hello? Are you okay?” 

You sniffled softly, “I’m okay. Can you come get me from Chuuyas? I can’t be here right now”

“Gin and I are on our way. Be there soon”

“Thank you, Aku” You replied before hanging up the phone.

You looked in the mirror wiping the trails of mascara off your face before walking back to the living room. 

“Akutagawa is coming to get me, I’m going to be staying the night with him and Gin.” You spoke, 

Dazai opened his mouth but you kept talking, “and I heard you guys. Osamu, I would have been there to help you when it got bad. What you did hurt us more than you’ll ever understand”

You finished speaking and walked out the door, exiting quickly before Dazai or Chuuya could respond. You sat on the steps of Chuuyas home, breathing in the fresh air as you waited for Akutagawa to come.

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wish that it was me

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

The last person you wanted to see at this meeting was your older brother. The same brother who left you in the hands of Chuuya Nakahara and the Port Mafia years ago, but all you can see now are the pleading eyes of Osamu Dazai begging for forgiveness.

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

Chapter four - Don't be mad

wc - 718

cw - self harm, suicide attempt,

i was half asleep and sick while writing this chapter,, also not proofread

chapter five

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“Do you want to talk about it?” Chuuya asked as the two of you sat on his couch. 

You glanced over at him quickly before averting your eyes back to your hands as you played with the sleeve of your shirt, “Why does he act like everything is normal?” 

Chuuya sighed, “Hasn’t he tried explaining it to you?”

He has. Every time you’ve seen each other he's attempted to explain but you weren't interested in his stories. You just wanted an apology, for him to say he missed you, for him to act as if he cared even if it was just pretend. 

“He’s so much happier now, without me. He never even tried to reach out” You spoke, your eyes filling with tears. “He doesn’t even know, does he?”

Chuuyas eyes darted to your wrist as you played with your sleeve. “He knows. I told him.”

You looked up at him as he spoke, “When?”

“The day it happened”

You nodded, your mind flooding with memories from that night.

It was the night Chuuya came home after meeting with Dazai for the first time in years, his eyes looking brighter than usual. He rambled on and on about what Dazai was doing and how much better he looked. He tried explaining why Dazai left but you didn’t hear a thing. 

“Please stop” was all you managed to say before breaking down in tears. 

You could see the light dim in Chuuyas eyes as he wrapped his arms around you, 

“‘m sorry. Just thought you’d wanna know” he mumbled 

Sure, you’ve cried over your brother before, more times than you could count but this time was different. This time you knew for a fact that he was happier without you, living a completely different life without his little sister and that broke you even more. You had calmed down enough for Chuuya to head to bed, leaving you on the couch with your own thoughts. You sat in the dark for what felt like hours before slowly making your way to the bathroom. 

You sat down slowly on the toilet seat as you held a razorblade you had found in one of the drawers in your hand. You whispered an apology before sliding the blade over your wrist. You felt instant regret as you watched the blood flow down your arm, your mind becoming foggy as you screamed for Chuuya. The last thing you remembered was the door swinging open and a voice yelling for you to stay with him.

You woke up the next day in a hospital bed, Mori and Chuuya standing in the room.

“I’m sorry” You whispered, causing them both to look at you. 

“You lost a lot of blood but Chuuya brought you just in time” Mori spoke as he lifted your arm to inspect the stitches he had done. 

“He isn’t worth this, ya know? You can be happy without him” Chuuya said, watching as Mori looked over your wrist. “Don’t do that dumb shit again”

You smiled softly. Although it was unfortunate circumstances, this day caused you and Chuuya to become closer than ever. 

You were brought back to reality when Chuuya snapped his fingers in front of you,

“Huh?” You asked, looking up from your now faded scars.

“I said, you wanna get something to eat?” 

“Sorry, lost in thought. Sure, we can get something” You smiled

“There's a new Mexican restaurant I’ve been wanting to try. Apparently they have-” Chuuya was cut off by his phone ringing, “I have to take this” He spoke, standing up and walking to the kitchen

You sat quietly, listening as Chuuya whisper-yelled to whoever was on the other end of the phone. 

“You idiot, that is the worst fucking idea you’ve ever had”

 You rolled your eyes, now having an idea of who he was talking to, you decided the conversation wasn’t worth listening in on. 

You scrolled on your phone, only looking up when you heard footsteps approaching.

“Okay, don’t be mad but-” 

Your eyes narrowed as he spoke, “Chuuya, I swear to fucking god-” 

Just as Chuuya was about to respond, you heard a familiar knock at the door. 

You took a deep breath before looking from the door back to the man in front of you, 

“I hate you both”

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ooo okay what about Theater boy!Chuuya and Jock!Dazai ?? ugh that sounds adorable i think i should write it,, what are we thinking?

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The last person you wanted to see at this meeting was your older brother. The same brother who left you in the hands of Chuuya Nakahara and the Port Mafia years ago, but all you can see now are the pleading eyes of Osamu Dazai begging for forgiveness.

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Chapter three - More than you'll ever be

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cw - this is sooo dialogue heavy,, and not proofread ofc

chapter four

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The two of you walked in silently, confusion clear on your face.

“Thank you both for coming so quickly.” Mori greeted, “Chuuya, I assume you are aware of what this is about?” 

Chuuya looked at you before nodding, “I don’t know if it’s a good idea. The meeting didn’t go well”

“No? Who would’ve thought?” Mori chuckled, “As unfortunate as that is, Chuuya. I already freed Akutagawa of his mission”

“What mission? What are you guys talking about?” You spoke, looking between the two men in front of you.

Mori smiled at you, “You will be taking Akutagawa’s place on a mission with the ADA”

Your eyes widened, “No.”

“It is not up for discussion. You will be meeting with Dazai and Atsushi later this evening”

“No. You don’t understand-”

“I do. But this is work, please set aside your family troubles for the night” Mori had no emotion on his face, making it clear to you that you shouldn’t argue back.

You nodded, no longer making eye contact with Mori or Chuuya. Your eyes were locked onto the floor as you listened to Mori go over details.

“Are you going?” You asked, staring at Chuuya

“Huh? No. I work with that asshole enough” 

Mori shook his head at Chuuya’s reply before looking back to you, “If it goes bad, we will make sure the two of you stay separated but working alongside the detective agency is not up for debate. Do you understand?”

You nodded, glaring at Mori. Your eyes saying what your words couldn’t.

“Great!” He clasped his hands together, “You are both free to go”

“You knew about this, didn’t you?” You asked, following Chuuya to his office. 

Chuuya ignored your comments as you trailed behind him, annoyance clear on his face as he stopped in front of the door. “There should be a car outside already waiting for you. The spot is about an hour away, you’ll get there just in time if you leave now” 

“This isn’t fair” You responded, crossing your arms over your chest.

Chuuya sighed in response, “You’re acting childish. Akutagawa could handle working with them, why can’t you?”

“Akutagawa didn’t lose his brother. I did”

“He’s here now. Maybe you should listen to what the bastard has to say” Chuuya snapped, moving his hand to rest on the handle to his office. “Now go, boss won’t be happy if you’re late”

You kept your mouth closed, not wanting to argue any further. As you were walking away you heard Chuuya shout one last thing,

“Message if you need me”

You didn’t acknowledge him but he knew you heard him. 

The ride to the building was slow, thankfully. The traffic making you arrive 15 minutes later than you should’ve. As you exited the vehicle, you heard the annoying voice of your brother. 

“Hey! Glad you could make it” He smiled, walking up to you with Atsushi trailing behind. 

You hummed a response before looking behind them towards the building.

“I’m not here for small talk, Osamu. What are we doing here?”

“Mori didn’t tell you?”

“He did, but I wasn't listening” You replied, not looking away from the building.

“Wow, you two really are related,” Atsushi laughed, causing you to glare at him. 

“Not talking to you, Weretiger”

Dazai only chuckled at the two of you, “It’s simple. Go in, grab a few papers off the desk in room 206 and bring them back to me”

You blinked slowly before looking up at him, “That’s it? You can’t do that?”

“I could. But I’m only here to supervise you and Atsushi”

“He can’t do it alone?” You asked, staring at the boy behind Dazai

“He could, but Mori wants to see how well you two work together”

“Of course he does” You mumbled, walking towards the building.

You heard the running feet behind you as Atsushi tried to catch up. 

“You don’t want to make a plan?” He asked as he caught up to you.

“Walk in and grab the papers” You responded

“And if we get caught?”

“We won’t”

“How are you so sure?” Atsushi asked as you walked into the lobby of the building. It was dark, the workers having gone home for the day.

“My ability” You responded, looking around for the stairs.

“What is it?”

You finally found the stairs, walking quickly towards them. Eager to get away from your current “partner”.

He followed just as fast, walking behind you until you reached the second floor. 

“202…203…” You whispered out loud, looking back to see Atsushi hiding behind a plant. “What the fuck are you doing?” 

His eyes widened as he pointed to the camera on the ceiling pointed at the two of you. Your eyebrows furrowed as you looked back at him with a questioning look on your face.

“The camera!” He whisper-yelled

You glanced between him and the camera, “Mhm?”

“The security can see us!”

You rolled your eyes, “I turned them off with my ability. We’re fine as long as you stop talking”

“You never told me your ability. How was I supposed to know?”

You groaned, throwing your head back in annoyance before walking towards room 206.

The mission was simple, you grabbed the papers and made your way back to Dazai without any issues, besides the constant questions coming from the Weretiger. 

“How’d it go?” Dazai asked as the two of you walked closer to him

“I’d say we work well together!” Atsushi smiled

Dazai nodded, reading over the papers you had handed him. “Want a ride back to headquarters? Mori asked I meet with him anyway”

“No thanks” You replied, looking through your contacts to find Chuuya.

“Come on~” Dazai trailed on

“Did you think everything would go back to normal just because we have to see eachother again? Did you forget you abandoned me? You left me behind for him!” You spoke, pointing towards Atsushi.

“I had to. If you would just listen to my reasoning. It was to protect you!”

You ignored his response, texting Chuuya for him to come get you. 

“You know Chuuya isn’t your brother, right? You shouldn’t depend on him for everything. Especially when i’m here”

“Chuuya never abandoned me. He’s more of a brother than you’ll ever be”

You could see the frustration on his face as he processed your words, but without saying anything else he turned and walked towards the car waiting for the three of you. 

You watched as they drove away, leaving you on the steps of the building waiting for Chuuya.

He arrived half an hour later, “Spending the night?” he asked as you got into his car.

You nodded, not bothering to say anything else. The tears already welling up in your eyes.

Tonight was going to be a long night.

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i also got two rats today and named them Fyodor and Nikolai 😎

You're literally my favorite writer ILYSM POOKIE!! CAN I ASK FOR BEASTZAI X READER BUT IN THE BEAST UNIVERSE HIS S/O IS HIS RIVAL AND SHE DESPISE HIM A LOT

THANK YOU SM ILY!!! I just started reading beast so i can write this bc it’s such a good idea🥹 I will write as soon as im done so it’s coming soon! 💗💗

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The last person you wanted to see at this meeting was your older brother. The same brother who left you in the hands of Chuuya Nakahara and the Port Mafia years ago, but all you can see now are the pleading eyes of Osamu Dazai begging for forgiveness.

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Chapter two - Please listen

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Chapter three

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Everyone's eyes watched as you stared back at Dazai, your cheeks burning red with embarrassment and anger. After years of not speaking, you thought Dazai would have been more excited to see you, but his face showed nothing but confusion. 

“Can the two of you discuss this later?” Kunikida interrupted, causing Dazai to break eye contact with you. 

“Absolutely! ” Dazai smiled, sitting down in the last empty seat beside Chuuya.

The meeting continued but you were unable to focus, not when the two boys across the table were constantly whispering and glancing in your direction. You could tell Chuuya was getting more and more frustrated as Dazai spoke. 

“You okay?” Akutagawa whispered, glancing up from his notes to make sure you heard him.

“No. I wasn’t ready to see him” You responded, your eyes glancing from your older brother back to Akutagawa. 

Just as Akutagawa was about to respond, Kunikida cleared his throat, his eyes fixed on Chuuya and Dazai who were still whispering back and forth. “We will take a 15 minute break. It appears some people have more important topics to discuss at the moment” 

Chuuya gave an apology nod before going back to his conversation. As most people left the room, Akutagawa filled you in on who was who since you had yet to officially meet anyone from the agency. 

“So!” You heard from across the table, “Since when do you come to these meetings?” 

You glared across the table to see your brother smirking at you, “I was forced to come”

“You didn’t want to see me?” Dazai laughed, earning an elbow from Chuuya who looked apologetic at you. 

“I haven’t heard from you in years, Osamu. Why is this a joke to you?” 

Dazai narrowed his eyes as you spoke, “You didn’t reach out either”

You could hear Akutagawa's breath catch in his throat as he looked between you and Dazai. 

“You left me. You vanished without a word to anyone so my apologies for not chasing after you. I had no way of contacting you even if I wanted to!” Your voice broke as tears filled your eyes. 

“Woah, what’s going on in here?” A boy, who you assumed was the “Weretiger” based on Akutagawa's muttering, asked as he sat down beside Dazai.

“Not the time, Jinko” Akutagawa said. 

“Now now, Akutagawa. Be respectful. Isn’t that what Chuuya told you?” Dazai smiled, though it was never a genuine smile when it was towards the boy beside you. 

You scoffed at your brother's actions, you weren’t sure how you were expecting him to act but it certainly wasn't like this. 

“Did you even miss me?” You asked

“Of course I did. Don’t ask silly questions. I had my reasons for leaving, you were safer without me” Dazai responded

“Yeah, He-” Atsushi began speaking again but you were quick to cut him off. 

“I don’t think I was talking to you” 

Atsushi’s eyes widened, his mouth opening slightly to speak but you continued. “I heard all about you from Akutagawa. Osamu’s “new apprentice”, the one who’s “superior to us in every way imaginable”.” You used finger quotes as you recited the words Akutagawa had told you after his first time seeing Dazai after all these years. “Isn’t that right?” Your eyes shifted back to Dazai. A glimmer of guilt shined in his eyes as he stared back but it was gone within seconds. 

“Please listen. I can explain everything. I just-”

You shook your head as he spoke, tears finally escaping your eyes. “I can’t do this”. You stood from your chair and quickly exited the room, hearing the footsteps of Akutagawa following you. 

“Ryu, I just want to be left alone.” You spoke, not bothering to turn around. 

“We were given permission to leave. I was ordered to take you back to Chuuyas, is that okay with you?”

You nodded, wiping the tears from your cheeks as you stopped walking so Akutagawa could catch up. A driver had been waiting outside for the two of you when you exited the building. The car ride home was quiet, the both of you silently staring out the window until you pulled up to Chuuya’s home. 

You looked down at the seated Akutagawa as you exited the vehicle, 

“Aren’t you coming in?”

“I am not. I have a mission to complete today. Chuuya should be home shortly. I assume you’ll be okay?”

You nodded before waving goodbye, “Good luck on your mission”

You sat on the couch in the living room watching a movie until you heard the door open. Glancing up from the couch, you saw Chuuya placing his jacket and hat on the hanger by the door. 

“Why did you force me to go? You knew he would act like it wasn’t a big deal. I told you I wasn’t ready.” You spoke, anger clear in your tone. 

Chuuya raised his eyebrows at you, “I did it for your own good. You’re going to be seeing him a lot more now”

“What do you mean?” You asked, glancing down at your phone as you received a message from Mori. 

“Boss?” Chuuya asked as he walked over to the couch, glancing over your shoulder. 

“Mhm. He asked me to come to his office” You answered, not bothering to look up as you typed back. “Can you give me a ride?”

“Course” He smiled

As the two of you pulled up to the Port Mafia Headquarters, Chuuyas' phone dinged with a message. 

“Shit. Exactly what i thought” He mumbled

“Hmm?” 

“I’m going to the office with you,” He responded, not bothering to explain more. 

The two of you walked until you reached Mori’s door, “Wait, what did you mean earlier about seeing Dazai more?” you asked before walking in. 

“Oh, you’re about to find out” He responded, knocking on the door in front of you.

“Come in!”

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The last person you wanted to see at this meeting was your older brother. The same brother who left you in the hands of Chuuya Nakahara and the Port Mafia years ago, but all you can see now are the pleading eyes of Osamu Dazai begging for forgiveness.

warnings,, mentions of self harm, anxiety

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Ch 1. - Deep Breath

Ch. 2 - Please listen

Ch. 3 - More than you’ll ever be

Ch. 4 - Don’t be mad

Ch. 5 - Come get me

Ch. 6 - He's gone

Ch. 7 - Wish that was me

Ch. 8 - Memories

Ch. 9 - I told you

Ch. 10 - What about me?

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The last person you wanted to see at this meeting was your older brother. The same brother who left you in the hands of Chuuya Nakahara and the Port Mafia years ago, but all you can see now are the pleading eyes of Osamu Dazai begging for forgiveness.

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Chapter one - Deep breath

warning,, slight mention of anxiety attack

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Chapter two

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You blink slowly as you process the words coming out of Chuuyas mouth. 

“Huh?”

Chuuya lets out a loud sigh as he looks between you and Akutagawa, “I said, it would be good for both of you to come with me to the meeting. We’re going to be working with the ADA a lot more often now. You need to get familiar with them” 

“I’m all set, Chu. Thanks for thinking of me though” You spoke with a smile that didn’t quite reach your eyes. 

“Listen, if it’s because of Daz-”

Chuuya was cut off by the sound of your phone ringing, you glanced down to see Mori’s caller ID flashing on the screen. “Boss calls. You two have fun at that meeting though” 

You turned quickly to walk towards Mori’s office before Chuuya could argue the issue anymore. You knew where he was heading with it, ever since the Mafia and ADA joined forces, you’ve been quick to avoid any interaction with them. Always coming up with an excuse to avoid joint missions and meetings but Chuuya could see right through you. He had been there for you the night Dazai vanished without a goodbye, not bothering to text or even write a note to you about where he was going. Chuuya took over the role of older brother and trained you to be one of the strongest alongside Akutagawa. The three of you growing closer together using the hurt your brother had caused to give you all something to relate to. 

Unfortunately for you, Chuuya forgave Dazai. It was soon after the two organizations had joined together, Chuuya had texted you to come over to his apartment and once you were there, he tried explaining why Dazai did what he did, why he left without a word but you weren't hearing any of it. You hadn’t spoken about your brother in over a year, his name alone made your stomach drop and eyes water. “Please stop” was all you managed to say back to Chuuya that night before breaking down. You had barely heard what Chuuya said besides a couple words, “Detective” “Happier” and “He had to”, knowing Dazai was happier with the ADA than he was with the Mafia made sense, but what you couldn’t understand was why he was so much happier without you. 

You shook your head trying to erase the memories swarming your mind as you reached Moris door. 

“Hellloooo” You announced, walking into his office. Most people would think you’re out of your mind for walking in without permission but you had been alongside Mori for eight years, he was used to this behavior by now. 

Mori raised his eyes from his desk as you made yourself comfortable in the chair across from him. 

“Hello to you too” He smiled, “I needed to talk to you about tomorrow”

Your eyebrows furrowed in confusion, “Tomorrow?”

“Yes, tomorrow. Chuuya had requested you and Akutagawa join him for a meeting with the Detective Agency and-”

“No.”

“And I knew you’d give him a hard time about it so this is now an order. You will be attending this meeting.”

“Mori-” You started

“I know. But you will have to see Dazai at some point. We might as well get it over with, right?”

You took a deep breath as your eyes began to water, “I can’t”.

“This isn’t a question, you are going. That is all I needed to discuss. You’re free to go”

You nodded, standing up from your chair. 

“Chuuya is waiting outside,” Mori spoke, not bothering to glance up from the paper he was reading. 

As soon as you stepped into the hallway, Chuuya was by your side rambling about how he didn’t want to go to Mori but you left him no other choice. You tried to focus on his words but your heartbeat was pumping loudly in your ears.

“Hey, you okay?” was all it took for the tears to finally fall down your face. Your chest growing tighter and tighter with every gasp you take. 

“I don’t want to see him, Chuuya. Why couldn’t you respect that?” You spoke through your tears.

“I’m sorry. Look, you can spend the night at my house tonight. We can watch a movie or something to calm you down. If Dazai tries anything tomorrow, I’ll be the first to knock him down, you know that”

You nodded, following Chuuya towards the exit of the building. “I hope he just keeps his mouth shut”

“I think everyone hopes for that,” Chuuya laughed.

The night went by fast, Chuuya and you watched movies until you fell asleep on the couch. You had forgotten all about seeing Dazai until Chuuya was shaking you awake at seven in the morning. 

“Come on. We have an hour until the meeting” You could hear the slight irritation in his voice as he shook you

“Five more minutes”

Chuuya ripped the blanket off of you, “No. You said that five minutes ago. Get up”

You grabbed the blanket back from his hands with a glare, “I’m sick. ‘m not going” 

“Bullshit. If you’re not ready in 15 minutes, I’ll carry you there in your pajamas. We still have to go get Akutagawa.”

So now, here you are. Standing in front of the ADA building alongside Chuuya and Akutagawa. 

“Yeah, I can’t do this” You spoke, turning to walk towards the car.

“Akutagawa, you know what to do,” Chuuya spoke with a sigh.

“Wha- Akutagawa! Let go!” You shouted, as Rashomon wrapped around your waist, keeping you from walking any further. 

“No.” Akutagawa replied, staring at you with a straight face.

You huffed as you tried pulling yourself out of the strong grip.

“Not going to work. Stop being a child, we’re going to be late” Chuuya spoke, glaring from his watch to you. 

You rolled your eyes, mumbling a ‘fine’ as Akutagawa released you, allowing you to follow them into the building. 

You stood outside the meeting door, glaring daggers into the back of Chuuyas head as he spoke to, who you now know as, Kunikida. 

“Ready?” He asked, turning towards you.

“Do I have a choice?” You asked, side eyeing Akutagawa who gave you a small smile in return.

“Just take a deep breath. You’ll be fine.”

You closed your eyes, breathing in deeply as Chuuya opened the door. You opened your eyes and scanned the room, no sign of Dazai. ‘Maybe this anxiety was all for nothing’ you thought as you sat beside Akutagawa and a younger blonde boy. 

Kunikida stood, scanning over the seats as he spoke. 

“Where is Dazai?” He asked

The boy beside you began to answer before the door swung open revealing the last person you wanted to see. 

“Sorry, Kunikida~” Dazai sang as he strolled into the room, “I was-” He stopped mid-sentence as his eyes locked onto yours. 

“What are you doing here?”

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guys i just got tickets to CT GamerCon for next weekend and i’m hopefully meeting Kaiji Tang (gojo/dazais english VA) and i’m far too excited ,, i had to share the news 🥹🥹

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Can i ask for kunikida x reader dating headcannons?? Even if they dont complete his ideal spouse 😭😭❓

sorry this took SO long, i never really got into Kunikidas character so i’ve been rewatching and trying to get his vibe 😭 I hope you enjoy!!

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ꕥ He’s def the type to celebrate any important date (anniversary/ national gf/bf day / literally anything no matter how small) but i don’t think he’d do anything extreme, he’s a very lowkey romantic. Simple flowers or doing what he knows will make you happiest

ꕥ he’d be super duper protective, his job puts him in a dangerous position sometimes so that also puts you in a dangerous position so he’d like to have your location and have constant communication just to make sure you’re safe

ꕥ going off the last one, i don’t think he’d be the jealous/super controlling type. He wouldn’t mind who you hang out with or what you’re doing as long as you tell him ahead of time so he knows what to expect

ꕥ Yall definitely go on lots of dates, i think he’d enjoy dressing up with you and going out to a fancy dinner but he’d also enjoy just sitting in comfy clothes at home and watching a movie while cuddling. He’s just happy to spend time with you

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ꕥ He definitely gives off a more vanilla type of vibe. He will do anything to make you happy but he’s more of a missionary make love type of person (which is not a bad thing)

ꕥ BUT that doesn’t mean he’s boring, he will make sure you’ve came at least twice before he even thinks about finishing himself. A true gentleman

ꕥ I also think he’d have his more kinkier moments , if he’s super stressed out about work, he may go a bit more rough on you and you maaay not be able to walk the next day but he’ll definitely be there to help you

ꕥ Aftercare with him isn’t too extreme, i think he’d clean you up and get you water and cuddle you but he won’t be the type to run you a bath and give a massage. (unless you ask)

overall, i think he’d be an absolute sweetheart who definitely lets his less serious side shine when he’s with you. i give him an 8/10

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HII is it alr to ask for jealous ranpo x reader😭😭

Basically the reader has this friend and calls them "sweetheart" and stuff (like how alastor treats charlie idk if you watched that) and steals her attention, love you🔥

ofc! sorry this took so long to get to, i've had the worst writers block,, ilysm! Hope you enjoy <3

Pleasure to meet you

contents,, F!Reader x Ranpo, slightly toxic!Ranpo, splash of Hazbin Hotel references (watch it, its so good), fluffy ending <3 not proofread ofc

WC- 821

You sat in a booth at your favorite cafe listening to your boyfriend and coworkers laugh and talk loudly, nothing was out of the ordinary until you heard your name being called from a familiar voice. You spun your head around to see an old friend from your previous job giving you a bright smile. You quickly got up from your spot and ran over to wrap your arms around him.

“How have you been, dear?” He asked, wrapping his arms tightly around you.

“I’ve been great! This new job is really fun. I’ve made tons of friends and even-”

“A boyfriend, I see” He laughed, staring over your shoulder.

You looked over to see Ranpo glaring intensely at the two of you. You gave him a small smile before turning back around. 

“He can get a little jealous sometimes. Come on, I’ll introduce you” You smiled, dragging him with you back to your table. “This is Dazai, Yosano and last but certainly not least, this is my boyfriend, Ranpo” 

Your friend gave a smile to everyone before going to shake Ranpos hand, “Pleasure to meet you”

Ranpo gave a fake smile, “Quite”

Your friend gave a small chuckle before looking back to you, “I must get going now but we should get together if you’re free this evening?”

You agreed and gave another small hug before waving goodbye and sitting back in your seat besides Ranpo.

“Well he seems pleasant” Dazai smiled

“Oh yeah. He seems great” Ranpo muttered, his words dripping with sarcasm.

You rolled your eyes at his pettiness before excusing yourself, “I have to get back to the office. Kunikida has been blowing up my phone about an unfinished report.” 

・❥・

You assumed Ranpo would be back to normal by the time he made his way back to the office, but you were incredibly mistaken. Despite his fake smiles, he would barely speak a word to you.

“Did I do something wrong?” You asked, stepping into the elevator beside him at the end of the day.

“No” He responded, keeping his responses as short as possible. 

The walk home was silent, the only sounds being your soft footsteps and Ranpo sighing, clearly trying to show he was upset without actually saying it.

Once you both were inside your home, you spun around to look up at him with your arms crossed.

“Yes?” He asked, his emerald eyes staring down at you.

“Why do you keep pouting? Ever since I saw my old friend you’ve been acting jealous!”

“Did you ever think maybe I am jealous?” He asked, blinking slowly.

Your eyes widened, “Of what?!”

“I don’t like him” He responded, as if it were the most obvious thing in the world. 

“Why?”

“He’s tall, he’s handsome. You clearly enjoy being around him. I just don’t want him to take you from me and he’s trying to!” Ranpo explained, his bottom lip jutting out in a small pout as he finished speaking. 

“He’s certainly not trying to take me from you, my love. I promise”

“Yeah? And how do I know that?”

“Because Ranpo, He-” You started but were instantly cut off by your cell phone ringing. 

Ranpo looked down at the caller ID before scoffing, “Of course” he sighed, seeing your friend from earlier calling.

You glared at him before answering the phone on speaker,

“Hello, darling!” He started, causing Ranpo to glare towards your phone. “I unfortunately have to cancel our plans tonight, something has come up with work” You glanced up to your boyfriend, seeing a small smile form on his lips, “But I would love to invite you and Ranpo over for tea this week. My partner and I would love to have you”

You watched as the color drained from Ranpo’s face, causing you to let out a small giggle, “We would love to! I miss both of you”

“Wonderful! I will message you when we have a set time. It was lovely seeing you today” 

You quickly finished up your conversation, hanging up the phone and glancing back towards Ranpo.

“As I was saying, he already has a partner. And even if he didn’t, I will only ever love you. You make me happier than any person on this earth” You smiled, hugging your boyfriend tightly as he sighed. 

“I’m sorry I was wrong. I didn’t mean to get so jealous” He spoke, pulling you tighter to his chest.

“You were what? Could you say that again?” 

“No.” He replied with a small laugh. “Can we go cuddle?”

“Of course,” You smiled, pulling away from the hug. “I’ll get snacks, Go put on a movie”

Ranpos eyes lit up, “I love you so much” He spoke, kissing your forehead before turning towards the living room to put on a movie. 

You smiled as you watched him walk away, you felt so lucky to have him, even if he was an idiot sometimes.

[chososchalupa]

Hello! I hope your day has been going great. I was hoping you could do Tetchou in your dance for me fic? They've all been great thus far!

Thank you!! I added Jouno too because it just made sense to have them together lol. Hope you enjoy!

Part 1 - Dazai / Chuuya

Part 2 - Ranpo / Fyodor

Part 3 - Nikolai

Dance for me / part 4

MDNI 18+

content,, F!Reader x Tecchou, F!Reader x Jouno, Pole Dancer!Reader, Sadistic af Jouno, Choking, overstimulation, name calling (slut), Oral M Receiving, squirting, i think thats everything but if im missing something lmk! All warnings are for Jounos basically, I tried making Tecchou as fluffy as possible because Juono is a LOT lol. NSFW UNDER CUT!!

wc - 607, 642

Tecchou -

The music blared loudly through your ears as you finished your set, your eyes dancing over the crowd until you locked eyes with Tecchou sitting in the VIP section of the club. His eyes looked you up and down as he gave you a soft smile.

“Beautiful” He mouthed as the two of you made eye contact once again. Your face blushed a deep red as you walked off the stage towards him.

His strong arms pulled you into his chest, “I can’t wait to get you home” He mumbled, pressing a kiss to your forehead. “Go get changed, I’ll meet you outside”

You nodded, quickly kissing his lips and rushing to your dressing room. You changed as fast as possible before going to meet Tecchou in his car. As soon as you sat beside him, his lips were on yours.

“I just can’t get enough of you” He spoke softly, pulling away and looking into your eyes.

You responded by pressing your lips to his once more, your hands brushing through his hair, tugging slightly as his tongue entered your mouth. As the kiss deepened, you felt his hands move up your thigh. Stopping just before the center of your legs before pulling away completely. “Let’s go home”

The ride home was painfully long, your boyfriend kept his hand on your thigh and ever so often, he’d brush his fingers over your clothed clit.

His car had fully pulled into the driveway and the two of you rushed into the house and towards your bedroom.

Tecchou laid on the bed, having stripped from his clothes. His hard length already in his hand as he stroked it lazily while watching you undress yourself.

“You looked amazing tonight, love. I loved your performance” He spoke, his voice deep with lust.

“Thank you, ‘hiro” You responded, climbing onto his lap. “I love having you there”

He chuckled softly at your words as he rubbed his hands over your body, “Beautiful” he muttered under his breath. He moaned softly as you grinded against him, his hands quickly finding their way to your breasts. He carefully rolled your nipple between his fingers causing you to throw your head back in pleasure.

“I am so lucky” He smiled up at you.

You smiled back as you slowly lifted up, aligning his cock with your dripping hole. “I am so lucky to have you” You moaned as you sunk down onto him until he was fully inside of you.

You began to ride him slowly as you watched his eyebrows furrow with pleasure. The room filled with nothing but soft moans and quiet slapping sounds as you began to bounce faster, coming closer and closer to your orgasm.

“Fuck, baby.” Tecchou moaned, “I’m close”

You moaned loudly, leaning down to kiss his neck, leaving bright purple and red marks as you bit down softly.

“F-fuck, Can I cum in you?”

You could feel his cock twitching as he came closer to his release. “Please” You moaned into his ear, kissing the mark you had just finished leaving.

You felt his hands tightly grasp your hips as he fucked deeper into you until you felt his warm seed flood your insides, causing your orgasm to finally crash over you. The room filled with loud moans as you both came down from your high.

“I love you so much” He whispered, laying down in bed as the two of you had finished cleaning up.

“I love you more” You replied, laying down beside him.

He chuckled softly before wrapping his arms around your waist and pulling you into his chest, you were truly so lucky.

Jouno -

You looked at the time as you pulled into the driveway, 02:32. You ended up having to stay late again tonight.

 ‘Jouno is probably asleep’ you thought as you made your way into the house. Only to find your white haired boyfriend walking towards the door from your bedroom. 

“Late again” He spoke, his hands grabbing onto your hips tightly.

“I know” You replied, laying your head on his chest. “I meant to call you, it was really busy tonight”

He sighed, stroking your hair softly before stepping away from you and grabbing your hand, leading you towards your shared room.

Once inside, Jouno shut the door and wrapped his arms around you again, his hands finding their way back to your hair. 

“Are you mad?” You asked

He chuckled darkly at your question before grabbing your hair and tilting your head back, forcing you to look up at his face.

“I’m not mad, princess. I’m disappointed, but don’t worry! I know the perfect way you can make up for it” He replied, pushing you down to your knees.

You guessed this would happen, not that you were complaining. You loved to please your boyfriend, even if he could be a bit crude sometimes. 

You quickly pulled down his boxers causing his hard cock to spring out in front of you, already leaking with precum. 

You took his tip into your mouth, slowly inching your way towards the base of his length. “You seem to love being a slut at work, how about you show me your skill?” He spoke, pushing your head down deeper. 

You gagged as he hit the back of your throat but you kept going regardless, hollowing your cheeks as you bobbed your head back and forth. You could feel him twitching as you sucked harder, his loud moans filling your ears.

“Get on the bed, princess” He moaned, stroking your hair as he pulled you off of him.

You got up quickly, getting on your hands and knees for your boyfriend. You felt the bed sink down behind you as Jouno pressed his hard cock to your entrance. 

“You’re so wet, princess” He commented, using the head of his cock to smear your arousal around.

You didn’t have time to respond as he pressed into you in one go, not allowing you to adjust completely before setting a steady but fast pace. 

“J-Jouno, Too much” You stuttered, already feeling the knot in your stomach tighten. 

“Too much?” He taunted back, his hand wrapping around your throat as he continued to fuck into you. “Is my little slut going to cum?”

You moaned at his words, nodding as you came closer to your release.

“Then cum”

The knot in your stomach snapped as soon as he spoke but Jouno didn’t have any intentions of stopping there. 

“Good girl” He smiled, pulling out quickly to turn you on your back before slamming back inside.

The pleasure was almost overwhelming as he fucked into you, tears pricking into your eyes as he leaned down to kiss your cheek. 

You moaned loudly as you felt his fingers move down your body towards your clit, rubbing fast circles as he thrusted into you. 

“Who do you belong to, princess?” He asked, his fingers slowing down as he waited for your reply.

“You, Jouno. I belong to you”

You watched as a bright smile formed on his face, “Cum for me”

Your eyes squeezed shut as another orgasm flooded your body causing you to squirt over your boyfriend and yourself. 

You felt Jounos hips stutter as he filled you with his release, before pulling out and lying beside you.

“Good girl, you did so good for me” He praised, kissing the top of your head. “I love you”

“I love you too” You whispered, eyes slowly shutting as you cuddled into his chest.

[chososchalupa]

bro ur dance for me thing is just 🤧😖🤪🤫☺️😍, if ur not working on anything else could i request the for nikolai and anyother char of ur choice? i like to imagine kolya helps reader with stability while practising on new routines.

note: pole dancers usually wear revealing clothing (take that however u want)

ah thank you sm!! 💗💗💗 sorry this took SO long for me to get to. I hope you like it! <3

Part 1 - Dazai / Chuuya

Part 2 - Ranpo / Fyodor

Dance for me / part 3

MDNI 18+

content,, F!Reader x Nikolai, pole dancing, choking, maybe ooc? I've never written for him before lol, fluffy ending, not proofread ofc, NSFW UNDER CUT!!

wc - 770

You dropped to your feet again with a sigh, the new routine you had started was not as easy as you assumed it would be. You were so focused on practicing that you didn't notice the white haired man standing just behind you, watching you intensely as you wrapped your hands around the pole to begin the routine again. 

Nikolai watched with bright eyes as you moved your body around the pole, your eyes closed with concentration. He watched as your hands began to slip from the pole, but before your feet could touch the ground, you felt his arms wrap around your waist.

“You look like you were struggling a bit, dear. Let me help” He mumbled into your hair as he lowered you to the ground. 

You spun around to face your smiling boyfriend, “How long have you been watching?” 

“Oh~, not long! I just couldn’t help myself! You looked stunning!” Nikolai giggled as his hands snaked around your back, quickly undoing the string that kept your top on, “And now you look even better!”

Your eyes widened as your top fell to the floor, “I still need to prac-”

“How about you take a break?” He cut you off, picking you up and carrying you towards the bedroom.

You rolled your eyes as you let yourself wrap around your tall boyfriend, “We have to be fast” you whispered into his neck, causing him to laugh as he opened your bedroom door.

“If you say so, dove” He smiled, setting you on the bed as he removed the clothes he had on. 

You watched carefully as Nikolai removed his boxers, revealing his hard cock already leaking with precum. Your eyes glanced up to his face only to find him smiling down at you. 

“Lay down” He spoke, his hands pressing your shoulders back as he crawled onto the bed with you. “I’ll let you get back to practicing soon. Just relax”

You took a deep breath as you felt his long fingers slide between your already dripping folds, “So wet for me already! You must have really wanted me!” He giggled, kissing your lips softly as he pressed two fingers inside of you. 

You moaned into the kiss as he continued stretching you, thrusting his fingers in and out.

You whined as Nikolai’s lips left yours, trailing kisses down towards the heat between your legs. His fingers were still relentlessly pumping into you as you felt his lips start to suck on your clit. The sudden stimulation causing you to release a loud moan as your back arched off the bed. 

“You taste amazing, Dove” He moaned, as his tongue continued licking up the juices that were flowing between your legs.

“Nikolai, I’m going to c-cum” You moaned

He didn’t respond as he pulled his fingers out of you, roughly spinning your body around so you were laying on your stomach.

You felt his hard length press against your entrance, “So stunning” you heard him say as he pressed into you. He paused for a moment so you could adjust before gradually picking up speed.

“Ni-Nikolai I’m going to-” You moaned, as you felt his hand wrap around your throat

“Going to what?” He asked, squeezing softly as he pounded into you. The sound of skin slapping filling the room. “Are you going to cum?” 

You nodded as your mind became foggy from the lack of oxygen as Nikolai kept his hand wrapped tightly around your throat.

“Cum with me” He moaned, pressing his hips down hard against you.

His hand released your neck as your orgasm crashed over you. You came hard around his dick as he released inside of you before slowly pulling out. 

You remained laying on your stomach as Nikolai sat back on his heels, watching as his cum dripped from your now aching core. 

“Well we can’t let this go to waste!” He announced, before shoving his two fingers back inside of you, keeping his seed planted exactly where he wanted it.

You gasped as you felt him remove his fingers, watching as he sucked both of your fluids off.

“Tastes amazing as always” He grinned, making a ‘pop’ noise as he pulled his fingers out of his mouth. “I know you need to practice, but..” He trailed off as he laid down beside you. “Just a little longer?” He asked, wrapping his arms around your waist and pulling you into his chest.

You smiled softly, how could you say no to him? “Anything for you” you replied, cuddling deeper into his embrace as your eyes fluttered shut.

Practice could wait for tomorrow.