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[chron1cally1r1s]

Walked for an hour, 4448 steps and I'm exhausted

After I got COVID in 2022 my energy levels took a nosedive and I haven't recovered to my normal energy levels and it annoys the crap it of me.

I get out of breath just walking up some stairs. It doesn't help that I developed mild asthma and have to use 2 inhalers when it acts up. Thankfully I haven't had to use them after I moved to my new apartment, there was clearly something in my old apartment that was triggering my lungs because I had a chronic awful cough, breathing difficulties and I was constantly sick. I moved to a new apartment mid January and the apartment is brand new and I've gotten ill twice and I haven't used my inhaler at all.

I feel better here emotionally and mentally. I had saved up a good sum of money over the past 2 years to use to furnish and decorate my apartment and I'm so happy with the choices I've made so far. The style is I guess romantic, I was going to do boho style but it didn't turn out that way and that's ok😊 I still have my bedroom to decorate and I want to make it a haven, a place that will bring me comfort and calmness. I'm still trying to figure it out.

Physically I've not been doing too well. I finally got a Ketamin/lidocaine/magnesium infusion and holy crap that was something. I had to be in the area where patients are taken to when they wake up from anesthesia while I was receiving the infusion. I was hooked up to a ECG machine, blood pressure cuff was out on my arm and a oximeter. A needle was out in my hand and a big syringe was out into a machine that pushed the syringe so it would take 75 minutes for the medication to enter my body. A few minutes later I started feeling the effect of the infusion and I feel asleep like when you get anesthesia. Half an hour later (I think) I woke up and I had an oxygen tube in my left nostril. I was so high that I couldn't see straight. If someone has blond hair I couldn't tell if I was seeing the face or the back of the head, it was freaky. I tried to see my b/p numbers but they were all scrambled and moving around on the screen. It was one of the strangest experiences of my life. I had asked the anesthesiologist if people had hallucinations and he told me yes because this medication is related to LSD 😵‍💫 That kind of freaked me out but I've already had a medication that is related to heroin so what is another medication that is a related to another drug hard drug, *shrugs*

This helped with some of the pain in my body but not the nerve pain in my feet which was the reason I was trying this medication combo. It was the last thing to try and I've tried everything medically to try to lessen the pain caused by poly peripheral neuropathy. I'm going to try it one more time and ask to increase the lidocaine which has numbing effect.