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Guys I woke up today and while I was getting ready (for 1st day at new job) I remembered that fine shyt is going to the same collage as me, I get to see him againnnn, he's literally the finest man I've ever seen in my life like yay

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IM SOOOO HAPPPPPYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY YAYAYAYYAYAYAYAYAYA!

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I just MADE a bracelet with this cute little bracelet kit I bought it has little stars and hearts in gold and white beads with gold letters that spell "little mouse" SOOOO CUTEEEE gonna post it on my insta for funsies to show it off😗😗😗

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Yall my ex is crashing out abt me that's crazyy

Like we already know HE is better than you bro u don't need to prove it😗

Actually laughing out loud, not gonna talk to him tho bc he very desperately wants me too clearly, like I've never seen anyone crash out so hard from lack of attention 😃

Anyways that's all, gonna make some insta posts abt my prom when I get more pics of me😁

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I'm so down bad✋️

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Actually dying , prom was amazing, I didn't dance with him but I'm ngl I didn't want too,

HE HAD A RED TIE?! (I had a red dress) but yeah as suspected he looked great in a suit and omgg he looked me in the eyes I think he got a video of me dancing?!?!?!?! It was so great tho, so happy I went to prom, my ugly ahh ex bumped into me like no-one wants ur peasant ahhh go away? Attention seeking ahh

I just ignored him and carried on dancing with my friends like a queen, I danced ALL NIGHT in heels and (unintentionally) people were talking abt it, coming up to me and saying "how was u dancing the whole time?!" And, "you did all that in HEELS?"

it was so fun plus my fine shyt was watching me dance🤭

I didn't get a chance to ask what college he's going to tho so I've gotta either go through like many ppl to find out like a game of Chinese whispers or just sit and pray I see him in college, idk how I'm gonna enjoy summer break when idk if I'm ever gonna see that gorgeous MAN again, + we aren't gonna talk about how manly he looked in that suit compared to my ex who looked like a little boy tryna be big in his dads work clothes or smth💀, he (he as in fine shyt) took a photo with his friends and crossed his arms omllll that MANNNNNNNNN AADJIWIAISBW it's the manly way he stood like hello I could be so wifed up in the future to him like I WOULD MARRY HIM AHAHAHAHAHA

(Sadly I won't ofc, I fr need to just find someone good in college so I can stop being so down bad for him fr fr)

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Guys my prom is soon my dress is gorgeous it's slim and red and its long but it has a leg slit and oh my goddd HE is going to prom!!!!

HIMMM AAAJCUWOAIAOAO

HOW AM I GONNA HANDLE PROM AFTER SEEING HIM IN A SUITT WHAATTT I BET HES GONNA LOOK SO SO GOOODDDD

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My life now consists of poetry, rock bands, diet lemonade, my laptop, my bed and my fucking annoying fake scenarios that come up in my head about HIM and the worst part is a lot of them aren't even fake they are straight up memories because he acts like a man written by a woman in real life mixed with a goddamn chai character bad memory and all, I'm going crazy. HONESTLY

I kind of love my life these days, apart from seeing my ex's face whenever I'm in school because his face and voice makes me physically wanna throw up because I remember what he's done😍 YAY! But fr I actually love my life sometimes so that's goooodd

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Alright here's the update...

I'm COOKEEDDD I freeze up around him I can't help it. He's just so so good looking and I've never seem anyone as gorgeous oml I'm so done. I'm like trying to get over it but he's the only thing I think about? So yay.... and when I see him... like on Friday I saw him across the street and then I looked down and I had almost walked into a massive puddle, or I saw him in the corridor and then I almost walked into a door. It's so bad I just loose myself around him I've actually just never seen anyone so AJAHDIAOAJIAIAAAAAAAA yk?😭

My life...

Poetry wise though I've been doing such good ones!

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Saw him yesterday. I accidently locked eyes with him in the shop and stopped breathing like I flet my breath catch in my throat I had to get away fast. I need need need to put an end to this madness so I'm gonna try, I'll tell yall how it goes tomorrow 🤞

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I miss him SO much rn.

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just baked some shortbread biscuits today, I know they don't look the best but they were supposed to give the vibes of the little twin starts from sanrio...

Also my poetry is going so good I just wrote 5 poems on my laptop and they are so cute and just perfect. I'm planning on showing them to my English teacher since I hang out in the English room a lot, often really early in the morning and a lot of times where it is just my teacher and me alone, we would laugh at people walking by as we share humour and anytime I go in he tells me to write him a poem, I never do but sometimes I share my poems with him, he once said one of them could make him cry. He's a 58 year old man and he's great. He's a little deaf like If you speak quiet he doesn't hear you but it's cute in a pitying way. I absolutely love him as a teacher and a man, I almost see him a bit like a dad since I don't have one and he does actually have a daughter so he is a girl dad. I love sharing poems with him as he gets so excited to read them and always thanks me for letting him see them, he's such a nice and weird man. We should show more appreciation to English teachers😭🫶🏻

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ITS MY BIRTHDAYY!

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This is so me

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Alr guys I have nothing better to do than blog atleast 5 times a day rn, I've been gardening, drawing, making poetry to complete my book, almost halfway now! (Halfway=60) I've also been trying to complete my comic, got one page where I kind of include the main character imagining the fine shyts hands on her waist which is just relatable for any girl at this point..., also been taking care of my animals, saved a lamb by the river bank, carrying it through 2 fields while screaming for help and once I took it to safety I fell onto the floor and cried out as if I gave birth to the lamb myself I literally felt like a devastated mother sheep, I know I'd be such a good mum if I ever wanted kids, but I don't like kids😭, anyway also been taking care of my little canary bird he's a cutie, cleaned out his cage the other day and even though we gave him a bath mf likes to bath in his water bowl anyway, and also my cats, been feeding and cuddling all 4. Even set up an extra water bowl in my bedroom since the one in the bathroom and one in the kitchen are shared by the dogs also, the one in my room is cats only. My birthday tomorrow! Gonna do one of my fave things ever (shopping) and just refresh myself since I'm SO happy now yay!

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He's such a good person I'm loosing my shii