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Julian K. Jarboe, "As Tender Feet of Cretan Girls Danced Once Around an Altar of Love." Everyone on the Moon is Essential Personnel

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having a lowkey meltdown for about 2 hours now

I don’t know how I keep myself from going fully insane but I just do

Mutual friend is streaming so FP is in there chatting and I’m just lurking like an absolute psycho creep because I don’t want my presence or existence acknowledged but I have to be near FP and witness what he’s doing, saying, experiencing… must be with him… just kind of floating through time and space until mutual stops streaming and FP can remember me and maybe reach out to me

I don’t know what I’ll do if he just keeps streaming into the night…. Don’t know how or if should reach out to FP? lfkdkakskfks fuckingHATE!!!!! MYSELF!!!!!!

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I hate myself for loving you

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One day I’ll look back on all this

And feel really really stupid

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“T'es arrivée au bon moment, t'es sortie d'nowhere un peu comme une fleur qui pousse dans l'ciment.”

— Banlieue, Les Cowboys Fringants.

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I just want to talk to him all the time

I want to wake up and tell him my dreams immediately, especially because he’s usually in them

I want to tell him about my day every evening

I want to hear his voice constantly

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Québec City, 2018

https://instagram.com/p/BoPzOOrgLOE/

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Canadian memes are so goddamn stupid but I love them nonetheless.

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anne sexton // richard siken// margaret atwood // virginia woolf

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I joined tandem but of course I’m too shy to talk to anyone

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“Certaines fois, quand nous parlons ensemble, c’est aussi difficile que de mourir.”

— Marguerite Duras, Emily L.

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L'amour pour vrai j'en ai soupé

Dîné, jeûné et déjeuné

J'ai passé proche de m'étouffer

Pis j'étais prêt à recommencer

Des fois je t'aime tellement trop

Que je ne sais même plus qu’est-ce que ça vaut

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I can barely function today

Last night he said he didn’t want to hang up

I asked him why

« Im gonna miss you »

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Je suis très contente parce qu’il neige à nouveau !! Toute la journée !