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two weeks since I requested my blog data to be exported and archived and it's still 'backup processing...' it's like Tumblr doesn't want me to go 😣 and I know, I've been pondering 'what if I want to write a stupidly long post again for a niche audience/about a niche thing'. but I can and maybe should live without it, I think. still, I do come on here and read all the tags people leave on my stuff and it makes me happy to know people still think about that one thing or other that I made years ago. I really am grateful for that... that's why I didn't plan on deleting anything.

and tbh even though I said I should delete my reddit account, that's where I've mainly went back to lurking on. in-depth discussions on my more niche interests. there's really no where else on the internet (or outside) to find that, but on reddit. but I doubt I will work up the courage to actively post on there Redditors have intimidated me for 9 years. so this may really be my exception on 'distancing myself from big social media sites' at the moment. it fulfils my need for news and information without participating myself.

having Bluesky as my sole social media is pretty nice actually. simplifies things. I can feel my adhd dopamine low brain trying to bounce around in the same old habit of scrolling thru every social media app which aren't on my phone anymore. now the (English speaking) internet for me is mainly just bluesky, youtube, reddit. well I wanted to write probably the last reflection on all this and HOPEFULLY next and last time I post is when my blog data is exported???!!!!

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been waiting to export my blog data before leaving Tumblr - not deleting just. not going on here not posting anymore. and im like 'whys this taking DAYS' before realizing 'oh shit I have 13 years of tumblr data'. so. who knows how long this will take 🧍

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re: leaving social media. may i recommend eddy burbacks new video i found it quite inspiring

that reminds me I also watched a video about another guy 'dumbifying' his phone and basically separate all the extra functions of a phone into its original, single-purpose devices. im guessing this video might be similar too, I'll definitely check this one out !!!

here's the video I think you are referring to, if anyone also wants to watch

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ive had these thoughts of 'leaving' all big social media platforms on and off but today, funnily enough, it was reading a reddit post about something not quite obviously related that prompted me to now be in the process of archiving my data across twitter, tumblr, instagram, facebook. i really ought to delete my reddit too tbh. i haven't been using twitter since december already but, i guess i felt like taking even more steps today.

the reddit post was actually about how people were too afraid or not willing to emulate fire emblem path of radiance - hence all the 'finally we can play path of radiance' memes in the wake of the game being on nintendo switch 2 online. I also thought 'well, you always could've played that game you know?' and people were discussing how people were getting less computer literate and that everything is designed to be more simple for generations using smartphone-based technology. in some tangential way my frustration upon reading this connected to the feelings im sure a lot of us have over how the internet is getting worse. perhaps the word I'm looking for here is 'control' - if people don't know how to use tech, aren't brave and willing enough to learn how to do and access things differently then that is just another way we will all be trapped in this hamster wheel of the major social media platforms. just taking and accepting all this bullshit cuz 'that's just the way of things' now.

there's so much we have to 'that's just the way of things' about the world as it is. so why not cut back on some of it, if you can, you know?? the internet and our devices will get more boring for sure if we use these less populated social media alternatives, but, maybe that's a good thing imo. I'll cope and live with it. maybe easier said than done but I'm just feeling particularly strongly about it all today

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relieved, aren't you? i’ll protect you

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Masterlist / [Event] Slither ◆ Ouroboros and the Underground Dwelling

📅 31 Mar 2025 ⏰ Summer II (After 4piece arc) 🔖 8 Chapters* 🎭 Ibara, Nagisa, Hiyori, Jun, Mika, Hinata, Yuuta, Himeru, Kohaku, Niki, Rinne

As CosPro's president is stepping down, Ibara decided to appoint Anzu to act as the agency's temporary president. However, in addition to his own plans, a project known as [Let's All Get Along ★ CosPro Fan Meeting] is underway...

Chapters:

Prologue

The Transforming Ring 1 The Transforming Ring 2 The Transforming Ring 3 The Transforming Ring 4 The Transforming Ring 5 The Transforming Ring 6 The Transforming Ring 7

(2nd half pending!)

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i really gotta wonder why deus ex suddenly popped back into my mind recently because like did i sense some sort of Movement in the universe (game industry) or what. these past few weeks i was already mourning and trying to get over the various stages of bad news i was years late to, and now as im getting back into this game series more bad news is happening in real time?? 😭 ignorance is bliss literally (context)

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thoughts on the delicious delicious ibara character arc implications in the latest event based on my friend’s rough translation so far

i feel like i should make 2 things clear first. one is that some of the writing choices are pretty strange but you know, ain’t that enstars especially as of late lmfao. at this point, you just focus and pick out what’s valuable to you personally and kinda zone out the rest. related to that, second point is that i think i approach stories in a specific, emotional way that might differ from others and maybe lose the plot or something lol.

up to this point, i was rather satisfied with the way ibara’s character arc has been going. i have said maybe a few times that i consider absolute like the peak or ‘end’ to his arc even though, its a gacha game that doesn’t end. however i didnt expect the writers to pick up THIS particular strand of his character again and that is: his future, his inner conflict around being more producer than idol that was hinted at in exceed. im a big fan of this development, i hope there’s a good conclusion or exploration of it at least. i’m a big fan of that weird little freaks psychological and emotional problems.

and also that these thoughts he’s having about following jun’s path, doing something like debuting overseas or just focusing on being an idol more are touching on MY unrealistic dream of him going solo. so that’s where i got a sort of major wish fulfilment on my end from this story so far.

now these are scattered bits of info i can’t remember clearly where i got them from, like a combination of maybe enstars basic main story and obbligato (before the translation got deleted) ((edit: my friend has informed me this is from saga)) - but i think they did establish that ibara is Very talented, considered a genius by the shuuetsu students. i think just the fact he’s so multi-faceted plus related to godfather speaks to this genius. annnnd… my fave meta fact that ibara reached the highest note in enstars (i don’t think that’s changed). but you know, despite how brightly he can shine in the spotlight - he’s all about being in the shadows like a little snake, the soft power i guess. and that is what has always intrigued me, because he knows that constructing an understandable, predictable, relatable image is important for business and public power. basically not being branded as an unrelatable, tragic, conflict-sowing eccentric like in yumenosaki. can’t stand out too much (bogie time flashbacks), can’t deviate too much from the established roles of each member and unit - that was his breaking point in this story apparently, as he has a huge problem with how anzu is radically changing cospro’s image for a variety show. but maybe this is what will lead him to face what his heart is saying to him, to exceed his self-placed limits so to say….

ibara’s constant battle between the mindsets that keeps him safe in a real war zone and the figurative war zone that is society, vs his natural desires for self actualization. this is how i see it all, and why im so excited about this particular aspect of the new story so far… even if, i do feel like, they kinda took a few steps backward with some parts of his current character development to set this all up lmao. you take what you can get really

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redraw of an eden piece from 2023 🍎 og version under cut!

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got temporarily taken out of my art block by force

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a scene in awakening that strikes me as surprisingly aesthetic

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so I really did buy fe engage and I always appreciate a really well made and polished game. I love somniel it's very relaxing, and all the little ways they reference the older games. it truly is a nice experience so far in presentation and voice acting and gameplay. and I was enjoying it SO much... I picked up my 2ds and ended up playing more fire emblem awakening lol. it's a fire emblem that makes you love fire emblem

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zzzzzzz

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angel, devil, god, friend

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ive bought like 3 different games this month, and just renewed my sub to ffxiv too - but you know what, im now in a position to purchase fire emblem engage too lmao... what's one more game purchase before this crazy month ends

some of my Hard Honest Thoughts (H.H.T) about engage for like no reason other that I want to talk about it years later

unfortunately I have to say that like maybe half of the fe fandom at the time, I was very disappointed with the engage trailer. the look of it, the fire emblem heroes-ness of it with the returning characters. but I suppose I didn't know what it was I actually wanted from another fire emblem either. I just wanted another cultural reset like three houses, searching for whatever was in the water when they made that game. because after however much love I put into it, I was terribly and utterly burnt out on it. it's too bad because I made some really cool art during that time, but, I kinda just feel nothing when I look back on it...

I can't say if all this was THE reason I'm no longer such a fire emblem head, but maybe it was part of it?

flash forward a few years later, i got to do a really nice drawing of jade/ivy, all the requests I got for fe rally for Gaza (fundraising event for Palestine charities) were of engage. I think by this time my initial disappointment and judgment mellowed out, and honestly whether it is of commissions or donation art I naturally end up curious and receptive to whatever it is im drawing. to draw it better of course. so with the distance of time at my side, I watched some supports of various characters to know them better. I do enjoy Rosado for his shameless gender-ness a lot. sure enough, this game didn't look that bad to me anymore. a growing need for me to actually play this game took place in me. I also just miss fire emblem gameplay.

im a big supporter of going against the crowd, having your own opinions, and actually being able to enjoy and see the meaning and beauty of almost all things. surely we would all be less miserable and actually like the games we play if we had an objective mind and realize everything is good and worthwhile, it's us that's the problem. you have to meet art halfway. but im not perfect unfortunately, initial feelings and reactions are pretty strong