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bruh last week was all “im happy enough” and now im trembling and nauseous and headache-y and terrified of everything and nothing

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bvlimia backache is real sighs

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me: doesnt take care of myself

my body and mind: start deteriorating

me:

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me core

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make it make sense 😭😭

when ur brain tells u that if u eat one (1) boiled egg u r gonna be fat ugly & unlovable the rest of ur life

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(after explaining something mildly inconvenient or ego-bruising thing in the most deranged and nonsensical way)

and therefore i need to pass away

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my version of affirmations is staring at myself in the mirror reminding myself of how i don’t deserve any rights lmao

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going through my lw clothes honestly is just twisting a knife. emotionally masochistic lmao

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I hate myself. I don't even know who I am anymore.

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there’s a sick satisfaction that comes from seeing the bruises on my knuckles, the scars building up there. like a confirmation that i am sick, even if it’s in the details

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do you ever get so tired of your own ba you just give up? like ed? fuck that. im not gonna do anything. im not gonna fix anything, just existing with the consequences

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that post purge nosebleed 🫦🫦

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sorry about always repeating the same mistakes. it will happen again :/

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getting a piercing to cope 🤩🤩🤩

well so… drinking isnt worth it 🤩🤩