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first blossom amongst the dull leaves.

caged heart, part I

— a sakuverse Kayson fan fiction ✧˖°.

it's the first year in Kingsworth College, and anxiety that's been following Theo since school days is haunting his mind. he stares at the grand tall building with neo-baroque styled exterior, that is his new college, in front of him, and releases a sigh, in hopes that his first day won't be ruined by unexpected nuisances. he walks through the gates and entrance doors and heads inside, managing to sway his dark thoughts away and keeping a light mind. Theo walks down the hallways as he takes in the surroundings, finally realizing this is a new fresh page, the next chapter of his life, started anew. any feelings of self-doubt and unnecessary fear that he had left have flown away. to pass the time and let the new reality settle, he wanders the college building and surrounding campus, he pulls out his phone to look over his schedule, to find and go to his first destination.

sitting down, Theo is finally ready for the first class of the day: literature. new professor, Mr. Marston, does his introductions and gives a brief on what the year has in store for everyone. after listening for a while, the literature professor made quite an impression: he's reasonably strict and pretty young, only being 3 years older than the students, it fascinated Theo that someone this young was able to find work and teach here. time passes by quickly and Theo starts to relax a little bit— even discussing books and comics with nearby classmates, and making new friends, something unfamiliar, something new, something he hasn't done since early school days. their names are Alison, Brynn, Chris and Tristan, most of them fellow history majors like Theo, and from this day forth they form a little close-knit friend group. despite enjoying being only with friends, it never stopped Theo from socializing with other people and opening up little by little to having connections everywhere.

few weeks pass and college life started slowly changing Theo's social life outside of home, no longer being afraid of judgement— knowing you have friends by your side— he does what he wants to do and strives to reach his academic goals, despite the best efforts of his own parents and older sibling pressuring him, but Theo doesn't let it get the best of him, even when they say the perfect grades are not enough. life moves on and Theo is also moving, acing almost every class and impressing the professors and his fellow peers, earning him a reputation over time.

first semester is still ongoing and Theo's given his first assignment where students are partnered in pairs. professor Marston starts pairing the students himself and Theo hopes to be paired with one of his friends. it doesn't happen, yet— he never expected his pair to be someone so close, yet so far.

Professor Andrew Marston: Colbeck, I'm pairing you with Mr. Mayer this time, since I have never seen you both work together, or interact at all for that matter.

the blonde foreigner guy that's been sitting right behind Theo all this time in literature class silently gasps in disbelief and nervousness. Theo turns around to see him, as he lowers his head into his textbook and pretends to read to hide his face. Theo wonders why he reacted in such a way, but didn't question it for the time being. after asking friend Chris more information is known: the name of the guy that sits behind Theo during this class is named Kayson Mayer— foreigner student from the states who got accepted in this college for his volleyball skills. after finding out more, it doesn't surprise Theo why he hasn't talked to him yet: he's very extroverted and hangs around with his sporty buddies, besides the fact that he's been sighted flirting with a girl or two. it makes Theo think they are opposites of each other, which wouldn't be an incorrect assumption for the moment, but thoughts and reservations doesn't dissuade him from wanting to start a conversation with the handsome volleyball player.

after class ends, Kayson starts walking towards Theo, waving at his friends, then looking around, smiling every time his eyes shift towards Theo. then Theo's friends, becoming aware that he needs to talk with his assignment partner, start teasing and flustering him, making fun of the fact that he is about to talk with someone who is "completely out of his comfort social zone", and say their goodbyes before Kayson fully approaches.

Kayson: Hey, were they talking about me? Theo: Sorta, kinda, sorry. They weren't making fun of you though, I swear! Kayson: I get it, I get it! *Kayson chuckles* Kayson: So, you're Theo, right? Theo: Yeah— wait, how do you know my first name? Kayson: Your reputation precedes you, you know. *Kayson finger gun points towards Theo* Theo: Ugh, seriously… *Theo facepalms* Kayson: I mean, you are a bit of a well-known nerd around here! *Kayson chuckles again* Kayson: But, I honestly don't think it's anything to be ashamed about. Learning fast is impressive and that's why you're here. Theo: Well, thanks, I guess… I didn't expect to hear that. *Theo looks away briefly, unable to process the compliment* Kayson: Don't mention it. Oh— and my name is Kayson, Kayson Mayer. From the states, as you can tell. Theo: Yeah, nice to meet you. Hope being paired with me isn't a problem in some capacity. I know you might've not wanted me as your assignment partner. Kayson: Oh, not at all!

after introductions, Theo has a short chat with him about their collaborative assignment, and processes his thoughts, feelings and first impressions. he did not get a bad impression of Kayson at all, in fact Theo grew quite fond of the fact that he's taking this seriously, despite being more passionate about his sports over the studies. his character intrigues Theo, piques his interest— it surprises Theo an attractive sports type guy is being very cordial and respectful, contrasting the belief system he has formed from painful life experiences. out of personal fears and worries, Theo decides to keep their relationship friendly but strictly academic, as he doesn't quite know Kayson and what to expect from him.

Kayson: So, you always go straight to business, huh? *Kayson scratches his head* Theo: At least for now, sorry. No hard feelings? Kayson: You really think I'd get butt-hurt over this? Look at me. *Kayson holds up his right hand, fisted, and points his thumb toward himself* Theo: Well, that's good. Kayson: Ouch, so cold. *Kayson looks away with sad puppy eyes* Theo: Hey! I thought no hard feelings! *Kayson laughs* Kayson: I'm messing with you, jeez. Take it easy! Theo: Hmph... *Theo lets out a mix of a whiny noise and a sigh* Kayson: So, how should we work on this together? Theo: Let's do it over the college email, will be easy to distinguish work from leisure for both of us. Kayson: Fair. Theo: I'll give you mine real quick. *Theo takes out a sticky note from the keychain attached to his backpack and a pen from inside his backpack* Theo: If I remember correctly, we can find college emails of peers attending the same classes somewhere, but I'll just do this anyway. *Theo gives the sticky note he wrote on to Kayson* Kayson: Thanks a ton! So, I guess we can discuss more tomorrow on what we'll do? We don't need to rush, since the deadline is in two weeks, I'm quite busy today, actually, I'll be going here in a minute. Theo: Oh, yeah, of course. Kayson: Well, see you tomorrow then. *Kayson starts walking away but immediately turns back to Theo* Kayson: And hey, don't be a stranger. At least during class. *Kayson smiles and walks away*

once he walks away, something takes Theo over— his heart is racing like it hasn't before, and his body starts to feel hot, similar to how warming up next to a fire under a thick blanket becomes too overbearing if you sit there for too long. Theo tries to rush to the bathroom, but also wants to not make it look obvious he's flustered and bothered— he power-walks to the nearest restroom that happens to be quite close and Theo's lucky it's empty and no one's around to see him in this state.

closing the door, Theo walks up to the sink, slightly moving the tap to let the water slowly flow. from embarrassment, he washes his face to come to senses, yet these few intrusive thoughts that leave him embarrassed can't leave his mind: why is he so kind? why is he so goddamn hot?

the following day Theo and Kayson discussed more what they will do for their assignment, and the following days after shared emails now and then. however, Kayson and thoughts of him have left Theo feeling trapped— when he saw him, when he heard him, when he thought about him, Theo's body reacted with thumps in his gut, quickening of his pulse, faster pumping of his heart. is this a short obsession phase or a crush? every time this would happen and he would question himself, he would stop thinking about such things, think of it as nothing but a trivial interference in his daily life, and move on...

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featured characters

Kayson Mayer originally by ZSakuVA ᵗᵘᵐᵇˡʳ

Theo Colbeck

Professor Andrew Marston originally by ZSakuVA ᵗᵘᵐᵇˡʳ

Tristan originally by ZSakuVA ᵗᵘᵐᵇˡʳ

Alison

Brynn

Chris

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based on a story-driven audio roleplay series "Trapped Crush" by ZSakuVA ʸᵒᵘᵗᵘᵇᵉ

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Theo Colbeck

the Prefect

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I have finally returned to my sims era once again, and I decided to share something abnormal, which is more personal rather than something I'd normally share. this is my recreation of a character I've been obsessing over for the past few weeks, Kayson!

something I don't share with many is I'm hella obsessed with asmr-ish roleplays (especially romantic ones, friends-to-lovers are the best ones), and after having discovered ZSakuVA, I have fallen down a DEEP rabbit hole of listening to their works for when I need to fall asleep. it has kept my mind from honestly thinking about some dark stuff, and occupied me with instead fantasizing about more positive things and even getting my creative side out a bit more (yes, I have made my own version of the listener "Prefect", may or may not share screenshots of Kayson with them).

so, in order to honor one of my favorite roleplay series— ever probably— I decided to put Kayson in the sims, one way of eternalizing the character for myself in my own way without drawing, despite that being way less impressive as art, but I'm not that much of an artist anymore like I used to be, I hella fell out of drawing over the past few years.

maybe in the future I'll write some sort of fanfiction, but I am not that eloquent with words and I'm not that good of a writer to be blunt (despite trying it out here on tumblr). but also it would be fun to reimagine Kayson and Prefect's story in my own way, so I may give it a shot, make it something similar to my first short story I posted here.

before I finish the post, I shall also share my own recreation of the thumbnail/official art outfit for Kayson. altho custom content has me quite limited with options, I hope my version still resembles most aspects of the original character— at least visual aspects that I could base off the main art: the red eyes, bleach blonde hair, pale skin, slightly bulky and muscled physique. I have even done some research on Saku's tumblr to get to know details like preferred clothing and such, but didn't delve too deep, otherwise i would've spent 6 more hours in create-a-sim, oh hell no, I'm not doing that to save my own sanity.

however, for the sake of being able to save the sim and play with him, I had to use some creative liberties and give him a last name, since he doesn't have an official one as far as I know, so his full name in my universe is Kayson Albiar. [11/05/2025 edit] I have dove deeper into the q&a and repost tumblr of Saku's and noticed someone used his full name as Kayson Mayer in a fan post, assuming it's the canon lore surname, I shall accordingly change the last name. and the partner I gave him, my version of "Prefect", is named Theo Colbeck (british to keep it true to original lore, and of course I gave him a dude to make it hella gay, nobody is surprised). lowkey excited to actually show them off on second thought.

original character by ZSakuVA.

check out the roleplay playlist for Kayson "Trapped Crush".

P.S. — I highly recommend it, it's too fucking good y'all.

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UNTIL THE BITTER END

Jack + Sullivan

all that I want.

is to hear that one song.

when the noises are gone.

I'll be singing along.

teach me the sound that can take me away. play it again and again until I find rapture. until the bitter end. rapture. ever after. in the bitter end.

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he's your favorite irresistible baddest boy in town, and you know it, and he knows it.

Pack requirements: N/A World: Newcrest

Custom content used:

HAIRSTYLE / clumsyalien "Melvin hair"

FACIAL HAIR / VeigaSims "Facial hair style N232"

WATERLINE / pralinesims "Waterlily eyeliner N106"

NOSE RING / pralinesims "Strife septum ring S"

EARRINGS / pralinesims "Lacrimosa L"

NECKLACE / WistfulCastle "Necklace 4"

TOP / clumsyalien "Ashe jacket"

BOTTOMS / woosteru "Pocket cargos"

RINGS / pralinesims "Valor rings L"

SHOES / Jius "Waterproof boot 01 M"

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LOOKBOOK #001

Untouchable

Custom content used for this outfit:

NOSE RING / pralinesims "Strife septum ring S"

EARRINGS / pralinesims "Lacrimosa L"

NECKLACE / WistfulCastle "Necklace 4"

TOP / woosteru "Half-Sleeve top"

BOTTOMS / Darte77 "Strap pants 04"

GLOVES / WistfulCastle "Night City leather gloves"

RINGS / pralinesims "Valor rings L"

SHOES / Jius "Suede ankle boots 06 M"

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FINALE

There Will Always Be Time

Smirks appear on both of the guys' mouths as they walk off from the bench where they talked and kissed.

They both stare at each other, with nothing to hide, hand in hand, interlocked.

The sunset lit up their happy faces, as they continued to walk away.

No matter where they go, no matter where they are, whether Luke goes travelling in time, or Emit stays in the past— they always have time for each other, they have each other. Forever.

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PART X

When Time Stopped

Now both knowing what they want, both come closer, looking at each other's affectionate gazes. The boy from the past and the man from the future.

Luke looks back one more time, before Emit's face swiftly approaches in a moment.

Softly touching Luke's cheek, he pulls in closer, and did what felt was right for him.

Both lock lips as they go for their first kiss. It felt like time has frozen, yet both their hearts burn with deep desire for each other. This is how it's meant to be. Both of them needed someone who could understand them. They have finally found each other, and even bounds of time couldn't stop them.

The overwhelming feelings took over Emit, as he couldn't let go. Maybe this is also the kind of connection he was seeking his entire life, and he never knew.

And now, this memory will forever live on, when time stopped for both of them...

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PART IX

Words Mean Nothing

"Luke, I need you to know something else..."

As he took his hands, Emit tries to say what he wants, but to him it's incomprehensible to put the words out— he has never felt like this before.

When Luke heard Emit's first words, he starts to describe how he felt when he first met him.

The fabled time traveler, smitten by the affectionate words of someone who could've been just a stranger to him today, hears all the things he also wanted to hear from Luke, and finally realizes— it's more than normal to want something like this.

Emit keeps holding his hand, looks him in the eyes and thinks— some times words cannot describe the bond, the attraction, the love people feel, and it's okay if you cannot say it. Sometimes you just have to do it...

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PART VIII

Near Truth

Finally in the moment, Emit is brave enough to admit what he wants, what he needs. He then turns to Luke, guilty he's seeing his upset face. It was never meant to happen like this, he thinks.

Emit admits his fault in all of the mess he has caused for both of them, "I'm scared of losing you, dear," he told Luke.

"You were born in this time, you belong here, but I don't. I thought leaving you behind would be best, but I just created more problems for both of us. I should have at least spent more time with you, before making any hasty decisions. I should have thought about what you wanted. I was— am stupid. I'm so sorry."

Luke finally heard everything he had to and wanted to hear. This is all he wanted, needed.

However— one word that escaped Emit's mouth was caught in Luke's mind: "dear". And now he's fixated on only one thing, he only wants to know one thing... if he feels the same as he does?

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PART VII

One Last Time

Almost an entire day passed since Emit has left. The lingering feeling of pain stung like a wasp: unbearable hurt and heartbreak. He thought they had something, the connection was something else has never experienced in his life. Luke has been reminiscing about the previous day in the park, as he looks into the distance with deep sighs and sorrowful eyes, ready to weep. Yet, he doesn't want to cry, or more like he cannot, as he feels empty once more.

Soft sand steps are approaching closer and closer to Luke. Lost in his thoughts, he stares down, not realizing a familiar face he misses is standing next to him, until he sees the boots he remembered he gave to someone last night.

Just an apology wouldn't cover the amount of hurt Luke has experienced, and Emit knows that, as he sits down next to the guy he so quickly got enamored with.

Admitting he was afraid seems to have relieved Emit's hurt friend, but there is more both have to say and Luke realizes he has to do something. Even if this is the last time they might see each other.

Fortunately, having the entire day on his hands to think over his decisions, Emit is ready to face the truth.

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PART VI

Left Behind

Fear. They are both afraid. But frightened for different reasons.

Silently, Luke accepts defeat, even if he knows what's happening is wrong. Even if he knows the person before him is not acting like himself. Even if he knows he might have to let go of everything that could have been.

Even if he knows he loves him...

Both lock annoyed stares at each other one more time, before Emit steps down the porch stairs and leaves into the neighborhood, regret filling his mind. Can he let him go?

Even if he loves him too...?

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PART V

Ripping to Pieces

Rushing down the stairs, Luke realizes Emit's departure is imminent. He knew, yet he didn't knew why, and sook answers.

Plenty of thoughts fill his head: what about their friendship? Their close bond? Last night? Why?

Forcefully Emit pulls away from Luke, looking back with frustration, but not anger, certainly not. He could never be mad at someone who he has gotten so close with, yet he doesn't understand why it all happened, why did they talk for so long, why did they get so close— why did it have to be him? It didn't have to be, there were plenty of people coming up to him after the burning rumors about some blue haired man appeared.

Confusion. Anxiety. Fear. Sadness. These are the feelings written all over Luke's eyes, as he tries to understand the reason why Emit is leaving.

Emit firmly makes his stand, knowing he is making a mistake, but continues to explain his actions. He thinks he is above it all. He thinks he is better than a human... while he is one.

It's illogical. That's what he thought. But of course, some feelings and emotions cannot be explained with logic. It couldn't possibly be a mistake...

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PART IV

The Dreadful Sunrise

Emit's thought from last night linger: "did I make the right decision?" "What about his future?" Afraid of what he thinks he has to do, he finally realizes it's the next day, as the light from the Willow Creek sun rises and hits the window in the room he slept in.

Luke, seems to be at peace, reminiscing on the previous day, thinking about exciting tales he could finally be a part of.

But once awake, he also remembers he is a person that doesn't like waking up early. Cranky is an understatement when it comes to how he feels in the morning. However, right now he feels like something is going on as clutter, crunching and boots can be heard from downstairs of his house.

Emit plunders through Luke's kitchen cupboards and the fridge, and remembered the timeless quick breakfast: milk with cereal. As he munches down on the bowl, he thinks about the doubts that have been troubling him in his sleep, as the doubts turn into regret.

Making his decision, he finishes his food, and tries to swiftly leave without a trace. Only then he realizes, he is making a mistake he cannot take back.

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PART III

The Night is Still Young (and So Are We)

Feeling so close to the strange man he heard about on the news, he finally asks him to pay a visit some time, as the sun is setting. He's anxious as he asks Emit, but doesn't show it, at least he thinks he isn't.

The suggestion piqued Emit's interest, as he thinks about when he wants to visit him. He thinks the time is now. He wants to see his place now. He wants to know even more about him now. He wants him.

Relieved with the response, Luke looks through the blue tints, as the gloved hands held his arms. The soft cold touch quickly turned warm, the stone grey eyes burning with feeling, he was overwhelmed with joy.

As night was slowly approaching, Luke cooks his guest a meal, considering impressing him with something grand, he decides on serving his favorite dish, albeit simple, but still delicious.

With the sun leaving and moon rising, the two enjoy a dinner together, enjoying more conversation and getting closer. Since it has gotten extremely late, both decided it was best for Emit to stay the night. Luke even suggested for him to try out his clothes, to which Emit agreed, trying to please his dear friend and feed his own curiosity.

The time traveler outfit was ditched for the meantime and both enthuse about Emit's new look, as he stays true to his love of his favorite color blue. The time still moves and the new day is approaching, Luke continues to be amazed by his new close friend, he can't get enough of the tales of adventure. But more than that, he can't get enough of the person before him. Yet he doesn't understand this feeling, not yet...

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PART II

Their Conversation

The boy and time traveler find a bench nearby and take a seat. Finally letting loose, Luke talks to Emit, still scared, he tells him about the family history he knows and about his own unfulfilling life.

How he got lost many times. How he feels lost and drifting. How he doesn't know what he wants from life. How he feels empty.

The story touched something in Emit, as he compassionately listened to his new friend. He enjoyed learning about the trends of the present time Luke lives in, about his family history and traditions— he enjoyed getting to know him.

As the day goes on, the conversation moves with time. Both share a couple stories, a few smiles and laughs. Emit even starts talking about his own family and new things yet to be invented.

Time moves, and so does their relationship. It hasn't been long, yet they feel so closely connected— developing the kind of understanding unlike a friend or partner. They know they don't need to speak to each other to understand what they are feeling and thinking about. It's become a bond of a lifetime... or beyond time.

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PART I

The Fated Meeting

It's been a few days since the rumors of the Time Traveler have surfaced, the information has spread like a wildfire on the internet. Luke has been searching for the mysterious man in blue. Tracking possible locations from blabbering strangers, he has finally found him, pondering at a park in his hometown of Willow Creek.

Two men from different time periods finally lock in gazes. The Time Traveler, intrigued by the curious boy, introduces himself as Emit Relevart, a resident of the city Oasis Landing from the distant future.

Normally opposed to forging relationships outside of his timeline, Emit decided to give something new a try— creating a new friend, from the past. He turns around to take a closer look at Luke, who seems to have finally come across the opportunity of his dreams. However, the excited boy has gotten less excited and more anxious once making contact with the famed man from the future, afraid of what he may think of him.

It's like the time has frozen, Luke looks down, as he is nervous to mouth a word. Feeling lost, like has his entire life, he stops reacting to everything and goes inside his inner world, demons silencing the angels in his head. Before darkness consumes his thoughts completely, Emit finally grabs his attention, as he suggests sitting down and venting, catching on the troubles of the stranger that's been waiting to meet him.

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