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LUCKY PROTOCOL INITIATED. part three.

( abuse tw. )

this protocol is automatically launched hours after agent clinton francis barton’s biometric bloodstream nanites alert nicholas fury’s private shield server of hawkeye’s death. a series of pre-recorded videos will now be sent to his loved ones, closest friends, and teammates.

VIDEO #003  — maria hill’s quinjet, en route from novi grad to new york. 

the video like second one, was recorded with the front camera of clint barton’s phone. there was a worried look on his face which he kept trying to veil with small smiles that only looked awkward.  ❝ as soon as i heard about the sentinels, i immediately asked hill to pick me up so i can rendezvous with the other avengers. this is really scary  --- but i’m coming out of retirement to help. i can’t turn my back on mutants. especially not wanda. and if this is my time, i hope i go out in a blaze of glory. ❞

clint looked to his side, as if to make sure someone wasn’t listening.  ❝ i owe my life to you and your brother, wanda. pietro saved my life and you taught me how to keep living. i have survived a lot of things in life  — a drunk father who beat me until i lost my hearing. foster homes. a carnival filled with thieves and i was one for a while, too, ❞ his voice dripped with morose but his smile remained lighthearted. he had been through so much and now, he could look back as someone who rose above what he went through.   ❝ you reminded me of myself, how survivors carry on no matter the loss and still try to do right to the world. you pulled me back from giving up after sokovia --- from looking at myself as just a guy with a bow whose skills didn’t matter, whose courage didn’t matter. although i couldn’t save your brother, you still looked at me like i was important to you. like i made a difference in your world. ❞ 

he cleared his throat, wiped his eyes from tears that threatened to fall as he tried to compose himself. ❝ you are light, wanda. although you feel like your powers are only meant to harm and destroy, you have never been but a giver of life. you’ve saved us again and again, i hope you know that. the world tries to punish you, contain you, when you have only been following your heart and what you feel was right. and still, you stand up. when you feel the world does not understand you, i hope you never feel alone. you embody all of us and when we feel lost, we just look at you and remember the best things about ourselves to guide us back to the right path. you are steve’s determination, you are sam’s empathy, you were natasha’s bravery, you are bucky’s loyalty, and sometimes you can be as unconventional as lang. and you are my hope.

i feel hopeful that the world will have you protect them. even when they cast you aside, even they try to shackle you, i know your heart will always rise above and help anyone in need. you’ve made mistakes, you are not perfect. and you will make mistakes again. but no matter what, i know you’ll never let yourself be used for evil ever again. when you feel lost, look to your family. steve. bucky. sam. they care for you more than you’ll ever know. you are an indispensable part of this family. you’ll never lose us, and i hope you keep me in your heart.  i love you. ❞

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LUCKY PROTOCOL INITIATED. part two.

this protocol is automatically launched hours after agent clinton francis barton’s biometric bloodstream nanites alert nicholas fury’s private shield server of hawkeye’s death. a series of pre-recorded videos will now be sent to his loved ones, closest friends, and teammates.

VIDEO #002  — novi grad, sokovia. clint barton’s apartment.

the video was entirely filmed with the front camera of clint barton’s phone, showing himself and and a sleeping lucky, the pizza dog beside him in his bed. the blond obviously just woke up by the looks of it.  ❝ uh, so i was interrupted the last time for good reasons --- but i’m back again, from the dead, ❞ clint’s words were entirely nonchalant, brain still scattered. he sat up and set his phone down on his bedside table, propped up so that he and lucky could be seen clearly. 

❝ now, everyone must be wondering  —  who’s going to take care of lucky now that clint is dead ?  ❞ clint shrugged his shoulders with an expression that made it seem like it was the most important thing in the world. and maybe, it was for him. clint ran his hand through lucky’s fur, silent as if he wanted whoever was watching to think. 

❝ kate. wanda. jae. they will have joint custody of this good boy, ❞ he smiled, not looking at the camera anymore and only focused on his best friend. some might see lucky as just some dog, but the two had clearly shared lots of history together  —  both tenderhearted, both with penchant for breaking bones to save people. lucky even lost an eye to fight off clint’s enemies once. 

❝ but. i’m sure katie will find a person to keep her company most of the time. she has eddie brock now  and wanda, i see you. the way you look at barnes. ha, reminds me of bobby and i back in SHIELD academy, ❞ clint mused out loud, a grin couldn’t help but part his lips. he was sure his girls would just be fine. 

❝ jae, you have bo. but i want you to be lucky’s primary caretaker anyway. maybe this is a punishment because you said you didn’t want to have a pet. now, could you deny a dead man’s wishes ? ❞ he chuckled.  ❝ i see myself in you a lot. you do a shit ton of dumb shit. you can be reckless with your emotion sometimes. but at the end of the day, you need as much support as anyone else. that’s what lucky has been for me. it might seem stupid for other people but  — when i can’t talk to anyone about what i feel, about all the guilt, the pain, maybe even the trivial things that no one will care about... i always have lucky to listen to me. he never judges. never makes it worse. only better. i mean, look at him, isn’t he precious ? ❞  clint pressed a kiss on lucky’s head and smiled.  ❝ when you can’t find strength anywhere else, when you feel the world is against you and you feel like you’re losing yourself ... just look at lucky and he’ll bring you back. he’ll give you strength. give you hope. let him be a hero for you as much as he has been for me. and maybe, you can think of me, too. you’re a whole ass idiot but i always believe in you. you are stronger than you think you are. you’ll figure it all out. ❞

clint finally looked back at the camera and gave a thumbs up. 

❝ i wubb you, jae. take care of lucky.  and take care of yourself. ❞

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LUCKY PROTOCOL INITIATED. part one. 

this protocol is automatically launched hours after agent clinton francis barton’s biometric bloodstream nanites alert nicholas fury’s private shield server of hawkeye’s death. a series of pre-recorded videos will now be sent to his loved ones, closest friends, and teammates. 

VIDEO #001  — novi grad, sokovia. maximoff - romanoff recreation center. 

clint sat in front of the camera, face painted with pictures of butterflies and glitter. behind him was a mess of face paint and children hand prints on the wall like a storm just went pass the room. ❝ hey guys, it’s clint. welcome to mukbang, today we’re... — ❞ his face beamed with excitement but the video suddenly cut from that moment and obviously spliced with the next part. although his face was now washed and the room slightly tidier, his vigor still remained. voices of kids playing could be heard from outside or the next room, and clint looked at peace.  

❝ if you are watching this, it means i’m dead. but please know that i have lived a good life. this is a message for all the next generation of avengers, the sword and shield of our tomorrow. you’re all young and truth be told, most of you can still use a little more discipline and dedication. but i can feel it, y’know ? if i leave this world, at least i know it’ll be in safe hands. don’t be afraid to make mistakes, don’t be afraid to question authority and explain your standpoint if you think you are right, and don’t be ashamed if you ever have to preposition and reevaluate what you fight for.  

scout  — you are no stranger to mistakes. you are stubborn and yet, you can also be impressionable. but do not ever think you are the sum of your worst mistakes, because the rights you do are the ones which will always make a difference. you are driven by your heart, right or wrong, you do what you think is the best for the people around you. for god’s sake, find some balance sometimes ? ❞ clint laughed in feigned frustration.   ❝ i trust that you will. i know that you will. you will be a great avenger. maybe, better than this carnie ever was.  ❞

the sound of a door opening was heard, someone unseen suddenly entered the room and he quickly brought his attention to them. ❝ clint, what are you doing ? ❞ asked the voice of a woman. 

❝ oh - i’m filming a --- you know, a mukbang. except i forgot all the food. is it time for family game night already ?  ❞ 

❝ you’re an idiot. come on. ❞

❝ yeah, yeah. just a few more minutes, i promise. ❞  

the door closed and clint looked back at the camera with that good ol’ goofy smile.  

 ❝ next is ... the one and only hawkeye. katie, katie, katie, where do i even begin ?  your fierce determination. a bravery that knows no bounds. and although you can be so obstinate sometimes, you are always compelled to help people no matter how dire the situation. you are the best archer in this world and emperor domitian can suck it.  you’re my protege, you’re my partner, and you’re worthy to continue my legacy. the future is brighter because i know you’ll be in it. but if the hawkeye name thing doesn’t stick and you want to call yourself some other cool name, i don’t blame you. it’s kind of corny. but i hope that no matter what you do in the future, you keep me with you. i love you, katie girl. ❞

the door opened once again, someone wearing a red jacket at the corner ... just standing and waiting there as clint raised his arms in surrender.  ❝ i’m coming... i’m coming...  let’s kick barnes’ ass in uno. ❞ he smiled wholeheartedly. 

video end. 

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“He’s being an exaggerated version of himself, because that way he won’t be considered much of a threat.” - Maria Hill on Clint Barton to Jessica Drew (Secret Avengers).

Appreciate Clint Barton because he’s more than just the guy with a bow, no matter the universe.

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Hawkeye #19 - “The Stuff What Don’t Get Spoke” (2014)

written by Matt Fraction art by David Aja & Matt Hollingsworth

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Clint and Lucky parallel Hawkeye 001 

“Got yourself pretty banged up there…”

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Hawkeye (2012) #1

Okay, I admit it, I should have read this years ago.

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Clint Barton in Hawkeye #13

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three months. but it felt more than that. 

( abuse, torture, injuries tw ) 

CLINT BARTON, no matter what adversaries he faced, always opted to do the right thing. he had been in the raft before, he had experienced the torture and isolation before. it was INHUMANE. it was SADISTIC. and despite how bruce banner now existed in his hulked out form, nearly invulnerable — he was still HUMAN. and no man deserved to be thunderbolt ross’ captive play toy, not for one second. no one deserved to be dehumanized and be treated like a walking nuclear bomb. 

and clint barton would never turn his back on those who need him. 

but doing the right thing had never been foolproof. and even heroes could fail. they took the risk to save a friend and now, they were being punished for it. he didn’t regret the attempt, no,  that didn’t mean clint felt any less ... helpless. memories of his previous arrest  — their treatment of wanda mirrored their treatment of scout  — and clint couldn’t help but feel guilt that he let that happen. he wondered if their friends would come for them, weather all odds and free them. thunderbolt ross was a maligned man and hid behind the laws he had a hand on creating. their friends would be blind not to see that,  they would be fools if they let themselves be controlled by such man. they’ll come for us, he thought.  

they never did. but maybe, it was for the best. especially when they could just end up in cells, too. 

clint wished he could hear steve. bruce. scout. even the goddamn punisher. but every noise not from his own mind were obscured like an apartment neighbor’s television from three doors away. without his hearing aid,  he could only hear them clearly when they screamed on top of their lungs. when they were hurt. the days blurred together, no sunlight, and the only way to keep track of time was when he looked across his cell and theorized how long they had been there based on steve roger’s facial hair. 

the best days were when men came to wake him up whenever he’d pass out against his will. they’d tie him up. cover his face with cloth and pour water on his face. they’d take off his clothes, trace his scars with shallow cuts so they’d be healed for the next time. he was a punching bag. but at least, the pain kept him up at night. he didn’t want to sleep. 

he dreamed of his father --- a chair thrown in his direction, barry’s face bruised and swollen for trying to protect him, and he could hear their mother’s cry.  he dreamed of swordsman, abandoning him to die. he dreamed of pietro, bullet holes pierced the boy’s skin --- he was just a boy on the path to change after his childhood shaped him to seek revenge. he dreamed of grills, just a regular guy killed by mob bosses to harass him when he got in their way. he dreamed of lucky. wanda. sam. natasha. bobbi. coulson. fury.  kate. 

he’d scream and cry in his sleep, but no one could wake him up. no one by his side to wake him up. no sounds to shake him back to wakefulness.                                                                                                            

three months. but it felt worse than that. 

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“You gotta make your own stuff work out.”

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clint and lucky napping in hawkeye #17

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CLINTON FRANCIS BARTON. AKA HAWKEYE ( not HAWKGUY , definitely not IRON FIST )

BACKSTORY

( canon divergent / a mix of matt fraction’s hawkeye comics + mcu )

abuse and injury tw.

CHILDHOOD.

            CLINTON FRANCIS BARTON , born to harold and edith barton, was raised in waverly, iowa. along with his older brother, barney, the two boys worked in their father’s butcher’s shop. however, harold was an abusive man who often drink more than he could take and beat his young boys whenever he felt like it. one particularly violent case left clint partially deaf at six years old when harold slammed him against the refrigerator. barney taught clint to fight, to improve his aim with his slingshot, and the two created their own codes through signs. clint also learned sign language and lip reading to further understand those around him, mostly relying on the latter as he wanted to hide his disability when he was a child. but most importantly, the two boys vowed to each other that they would outlast their father. 

and they did. howard’s alcoholism took his own life in a car accident, but the boys also lost their mother. orphaned, clint and barney were sent to numerous foster homes, but they were really never home. the two boy ran away and encountered a traveling circus who took them in as roustabouts.  two of the circus performers, swordsman and trickshot took a liking to clint and barney, treated them like sons and trained the boys in skills that could be useful in their future as members of the circus.  

swordsman trained clint in art of throwing knives and the two grew close, although they discovered that his true talents was with the bow and arrow while also being trained by trick shot. clint was happy in the circus, until he discovered that his mentor, swordsman, had been stealing money from the circus. compelled to do the right thing, clint wanted to turn in his mentor to authorities. but before he could, he was severely beaten by his mentor, a man he saw as a father figure, and left him for dead until he was discovered by trick shot and barney. swordsman’s betrayal and escape created tensions within the circus, deteriorating his relationship with both trick shot and his own brother. it didn’t take long until barney had enough of the circus and left, enlisting in the army.

 abandoned by his brother, clint focused on his archery training and later on, became the carnival attraction known as HAWKEYE, the name a tribute to his native iowa. 

SHIELD

HAWKEYE, “the world’s greatest marksman” as the carnival’s patrons would call him caught the attention of SHIELD.  nick fury personally asked clint to join SHIELD, to help save the world from threats with his incredible marksmanship. but there was one condition that he asked from fury, a simple enough task for a man with such power: to help him find his brother. 

fury immediately tracked down barney, who was a fbi at the time. the two brothers began to reconcile and stitched up old wounds so they could move forward. before climbing up the ranks in SHIELD, clint worked under the supervision of phil coulson and melinda may, and was often paired up with bobbi morse. the two dated on and off, before they eloped on a whim --- which didn’t particularly end well. their marriage lasted only a couple of years but two remained amicable and there for each other. 

when clint rose as a level seven agent, clint was tasked to assassinate a global security threat known as the black widow. fighting off the KGB all across europe, he was able to finally track down the mysterious assassin. but unable to pull the trigger to kill someone who clint saw good in during his espionage and reconnaissance, he made a different call. he knew natalia was capable of good, if only someone would give her the chance. clint barton asked her to join SHIELD under his supervision, and natalia became natasha. the supervision quickly became a partnership and with every mission, their friendship developed. 

with a near perfect success rate in his missions, clint asked fury of another favor. barney wanted to start a family and retire but clint feared that his status as high-level shield operative and barney’s own work in the fbi would endanger barney’s life. with fury’s help, barney was given a farm off-the-grid, his information erased from SHIELD and other records that would link him to clint, so he could live peacefully with his girlfriend, laura and start their family. clint would often visit barney and laura, sometimes with natasha --- one of the few people he trusted enough to tell about his family. 

MCU-CANON CHANGES 

AVENGERS 

no serious change.  

DURING WINTER SOLDIER 

recuperating after the battle of new york, clint decided to stay in new york than go to washington d.c. like steve and natasha. ( also i just need to make up some reason why clint wasn’t involved there despite being a higher-level shield agent than both natasha and steve. ) 

during this time, clint met kate bishop who he began to train to take up the hawkeye mantle whenever he’d decide to retire. 

clint forced the boss of a russian mafia to let him an apartment building to prevent his neighbors from being evicted when their rent was tripled. clint got in an argument with the “tracksuit draculas” and lucky who was the mafia’s dog at the time decided to protect clint when the criminals began to attack him. in the fight, lucky was hit by a car and clint rushed him to the hospital. lucky survived but lost an eye, and clint decided to be his new owner. 

while in new york, clint and kate began to aid against crime in clint’s neighborhood, getting in the way of various mob bosses’ plans. the tracksuit draculas also wanted the apartment building back from clint. the mob bosses hired a mercenary named kazimierz kazimierczak to kill clint. kazi killed grills, one of clint’s friends and neighbor, and in their fight, kazi the clown stabbed clint’s ears with his own arrows, worsening clint’s hearing loss. 

however, clint and kate were able to stop kazi and the mob bosses in the end before clint had to leave to aid the other avengers in taking down hydra bases. clint left lucky with kate during this time. 

AGE OF ULTRON

the farm was barney's and laura was barney’s wife. 

barney’s baby would still be named nathaniel pietro, a tribute to his brother’s best friend and someone who saved clint’s life. wanda would also be introduced to the barton family.

CIVIL WAR

clint didn’t retire. probably just took a much needed indefinite leave so he could spend time with his brother and the new baby.  clint was obviously against the accords and just ignored thunderbolt ross’ calls, thinking that none of the avengers would sign it anyway nor would they tell the government the farm’s location. but when steve asked his help which meant things were turning into shit, he was very quick to act to save wanda from the house arrest in the compound and picked up scott lang along the way.  

FINGER FINGER SNAP SNAP KISS KISS

during the snap, clint lost his brother and barney’s entire family.

 it sent clint in really deep depression where he just refused to communicate. he took his hearing aids out and just stopped talking to people. the once loudmouth clint barton lost all his self-confidence and became a silent shell of the man he was.  i think only natasha could have gotten him out of this stage and brought him to the avengers compound.

A FEW HEADCANONS

takes out his hearing aids whenever tony starts talking about himself

he usually just wears pajamas, drinking coffee out of the pot, getting drunk on the couch, and not showering for let’s-not-guess-how-long. likes to sleep and sometimes only talks to natasha and his dog. really just wants to hide away and tune the world out … boi is rly going thru it.

but when he does feel energized, he probably spends most of it in children’s hospitals and taking care of kids because of how much he misses his nieces and nephews. 

when conflict arises, he still does his duties. he may be a human that would never scratch thanos in a team of supersoldiers, gods, and mutants but he still has the conviction, the sense of justice and right and wrong, that makes him worth of being an avenger. plus, its hard not to do the right thing when you’re around captain america. clint barton is really just this guy that no matter how shitty his life is, how much of a hot mess he is, he will always help people no matter what whenever they need him.