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tonight i'm a rock n roll star 😎

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Choose designer lingerie, in the vain hope of kicking some life back into a dead relationship. Choose handbags, choose high-heeled shoes, cashmere and silk, to make yourself feel what passes for happy. Choose an iPhone made in China by a woman who jumped out of a window and stick it in the pocket of your jacket fresh from a South-Asian firetrap. Choose Facebook, Twitter, Snapchat, Instagram and a thousand others ways to spew your bile across people you've never met. Choose updating your profile, tell the world what you had for breakfast and hope that someone, somewhere cares. Choose looking up old flames, desperate to believe that you don't look as bad as they do. Choose live-blogging, from your first wank till your last breath; human interaction reduced to nothing more than data. Choose ten things you never knew about celebrities who've had surgery. Choose screaming about abortion, choose rape jokes, slut-shaming, revenge porn and an endless tide of depressing misogyny. Choose 9/11 never happened, and if it did, it was the Jews. Choose a zero-hour contract and a two hour journey to work, and choose the same for your kids, only worse, and maybe tell yourself that it's better that they never happened. And then sit back and smother the pain with an unknown dose of an unknown drug made in somebody's​ fucking kitchen. Choose unfulfilled promise and wishing you'd done it all differently. Choose never learning from your own mistakes. Choose watching history repeat itself. Choose the slow reconciliation towards what you can get, rather than what you always hoped for. Settle for less and keep a brave face on it. Choose disappointment and choose losing the ones you love then as they​ fall from view, a piece of you dies with them until you can see​ that one day in the future, piece by piece they will​ be all gone and there will be nothing left of you to call alive or dead. Choose your future, Veronica. Choose life

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just rewatched route 666 and GODDD you have no idea how bitter I am that they never brought Cassie back

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i hope kripke finds a way to make the spn reunion thing feel less forced than it already does

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wait...

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one of my sexual fantasies is to have someone notice my absence and wonder about me

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My brain works like this

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my top hobbies are shame and embarrassment but i also occasionally dabble in envy

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why does nobody ever talk about Amanda's and Tracey's posts

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Not now honey. I’m to busy thinking about this Jackles interview.

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rest in peace angel, michelle trachtenberg (1985-2025)

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MISHA JENSEN AND JARED ALL ON THE BOYS??? ARE WE FR????

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steps

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You took my sadness out of context, at the dream vegan cafe with a feminist queerbookstore

Me when I’m sitting in my dream vegan cafe with a feminist queer bookstore preparing a non binary hang out event

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If nothing else, as a historian every time I get scared at the state of the world I have to remind myself that "uninteresting times" is a myth.

The world has always been in the throes of chaos and violence and fear, just in different ways and to different degrees. The anxieties of the past are no less real than our own, and we can learn from them. Normality and peace are fleeting, but we can always strive to increase those moments. We have to keep hoping and working for a better future. It's all we have. We may not succeed, but if we don't try, what are we living for?

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do yall remember when people would send fake anon hates asks to themselves

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