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Regardless of our age, it is okay to make mistakes because we are still learning and relearning about things.

The positives of ‘putting yourself out there’ are worth it. Having a great conversation with a stranger will be worth the awkwardness of starting that exact conversation. Joining a small community of people you will see regularly is worth having to get through a scary first day. Getting your dream job is worth the scariness of chasing it. Don’t pick and choose experiences based on the level of ease now, but choose them based on how you want to come out of them.

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Your daily dose of cat memes

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Your daily dose of cat memes

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Nobody will protect you from your suffering. You can’t cry it away or eat it away or starve it away or walk it away or punch it away or even therapy it away. It’s just there, and you have to survive it. You have to endure it. You have to live through it and love it and move on and be better for it and run as far as you can in the direction of your best and happiest dreams across the bridge that was built by your own desire to heal.

Cheryl Strayed   (via selksea)

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Yes, I’m confused.

I think I am in a period of my life where I’m lOsT. Frankly, I think my inner voice knows the way out- the way out is to just keep things simple, and take life a step at a time. 

I expect a lot of myself, especially in my job, and this has resulted in a lot of procrastination. If I were to simply get started, I would probably have done more than I am currently doing now. 

So my advice to myself is, take deep breaths, focus on the important first, the basics first. Be discerning and always remember to take care of your health, take care of your mental health. 

Always, always be gentle with yourself, cos life is hard enough. 

=) One step at a time. =) 

Deep breaths.

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There are no mistakes, only learning experiences.

Artist: Caitlin Keegan

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Spent? Or is it a matter of perspective

I feel very burnt out and I wonder if this is really what I want in life. But who am I to keep demanding things of life 

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I’m also so proud of myself for how I’ve handled some things. I’ve moved on quite gracefully (no more sudden calls or messages sent) and I AM SO PROUD OF THIS WOMAN THAT IS ME. HOW IS SHE SO MATURE NOW.

Haiz. ok i got a lot of work to do now. I also really HEN TAO YAN parents that nitpick a lot. Hello? Wait a few more minutes for your child at the gate cannot?  

Some things hat I’ll look forward to in march hols is my clay earring class (finally) and also USS with my friend, and also hanging out with my family. and oh, I’m also meeting a new friend and I am excited about that too!

Things are going okay. The world is a mess now and it just reminds me about how greed for money and power can be so toxic and cause so much chaos and destruction. To look inward for contentment and happiness cos most things external are crazy. In the end, all you’ll have at the end of your life is your conscience. 

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Change

It’s been a while since I’ve posted here. I feel like I’ve changed a lot in the past year, so much has changed too.

I’m teaching now and I am mostly happy about that, though I feel that I can be a lot more interested, dedicated and passionate in it. I do try my best , but I think the best can be better. And I will try to do better, one step at a time. I also feel like I suckkk at it, especially on days when I flare up unintentionally. My temper got so much worse since last year. I need to keep it in check.

But I think that I would no longer let my job, however interested I may be in it, to get in the way of my relationships. My time is limited, and I deserve to care for myself as well as others around me too. I need to find a balance, and I think that I have been intentionally cutting back on the time I spend on work, to spend more time with myself and others, and also to figure out who I am without ‘teaching’ as an identity. 

I now subscribe to the idea that it is very unhealthy to get too attached to anything, be it a person or a job or any particular thing. I learnt that the hard way, that I need to not be self-absorbed in my career, as it does affect other areas of my life too. And yes the world does not revolve around me. 

I feel calmer and happier than I have been in the previous months. 

I still feel afraid and lost and confused and OMG shit I’m gonna be 30 soon, but I think I’ll just go with the flow and do what I can, , all while being self-reliant.

Self-reliance is something I feel that I can be better at. To be more responsible for my actions cos I feel like I have always been a more careless and happy-go-lucky kinda person. 

I need to be more financially prepared and read up on investments too, the basic ones. 

Ok this post is so stressful it’s supposed to clear my mind but i guess I’m just sorting myself out.

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“I don’t even know who I am, so how can you possibly know?”

— p.s.w

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“You dance divinely.“

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Shall I have supper

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Friday shall be a carefree day

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Just feel low on motivation today. I feel that I can be more appreciative of how much I've wanted this before and also remind myself about how what I do today will affect the way I teach in future, which will take in turn have an impact on thr kids. And I wanna do my best for that. Jyjy!!!!!💓💓💓

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So articulate and well written!

Fernando Pessoa, A Little Larger Than the Entire Universe: Selected Poems

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