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21 November 08:25 AM to 22 November 08:25 AM - Day 0 of 100 Days of Being Productive.

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Plan for One Month.

05 November 2024 14:58 to 05 December 14:58

List of Holidays - 07 and 15 November.

Working Days - 23.

Number of Non Working Days - 10.

Waise Work Life Balance Thik Hai. There Should Be Two Time-Tables. One for Holiday and One for Working Days. and ONe for Sundays.

Baki Copy Me Banaunga.

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25 August 2024 22:25 to 25 September 2024 22:25

Jab insan apka respect na kare tab apko self respect choose karna padta hai. Mai rani ko block kar rha hu.

Step 01: Block her from Insta, and never look Back. - Done.

Step 02: Block her from WhatSApp, and never look Back - Done.

Step 03: Block Her from Calls and never look Back - Done.

Step 04: Block Her from Facebook - Done.

Step 05: Block her in truecaller and never look back. - Done.

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Uske bare me socho mat.

Uske bare me bat mat karo.

Usse Baat Mat Karo.

Ek mah ke liye tay hai ye rule.

Fuck her she never respected you. Fuck That Ugly Bitch. I hope she dies. Kabhi respect nai ki mera.

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Mujhe Sach Me Rani Se Door Jana Hai. Bahut Ho Gaya Ab. Kal Se Mai Us Se Kabhi Baat Nahi Karunga. Is Jeevan Me. Sach Me. She Doesn't Deserve Me. Aur Mai Uske Bare Me Sochunga Bhi Nai.

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2024-07-16 08:43

I have tried living without Rani for 7 days and it worked.

So again this time I will not talk to her for 7 days. Forget that beautiful girl.

I won't disturb her.

so 2024-07-16 08:43 to 2024-07-23 08:43 - She does not exist.

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Day 01 of 100 Days of Ghosting Rani. Yes I can do it. It is so easy. It is like a piece of cake. I know I can do it. She always ignores me. Now it's my turn to ignore her.

2024-07-03 22:18 to 2024-07-03 22:18

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2024-03-11 07:36 AM - I have been thinking about Rani a lot. Why do I think about her so much. I have called her she didn't pick up my calls. I texted her she didn't replied. It's like she is breaking my self - respect. She doesn't value me. That's okay. But I still call and text her that's not okay. I have to move on. Then I will be happy, I feel sad when she doesn't give time to me.

So this is for one whole year that I am initiating no contact with her. She deserves it, I have four girls which I talk to - Rani, Pallavi, Neha and Chandu. I have stopped talking Pallavi - it was an easy one, I was not attached to her. But I'm emotionally attached to Rani. and she takes advantage of me.

Bhale hi mujhe kitna bhi adhoorapan mehsoos ho, par mai kabhi rani ke pas nai jaunga. wo mujhe deserve nai karti hai. Mai usse bahut door jaunga. Meri galti thi ki mai use bahut miss kar rha tha to WhatsApp kiya tha. Ab nai.

Wo marr gyi hai mere liye, kash mai kabhi use bachane ke liye nai jata. Agr agle bar dikhi to attack kar dunga use.

Hurt hota hai yar. Aur mai move on kar lunga. Kasam se ab se wo marr gyi mere liye. kabhi wo life me thi hi nai. She doesn't exist.

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10 March 2024 02.31 PM to 11 March 2024 02.31 PM - NoPhone.

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09.03.2024 to 09.03.2025

12 months.

18367 x 12 = 2,20,404

Invest in mutual funds as SIP.

Would become - 3,30,600.

So Invest it in Aditya Birla Sun Life PSU Equity Fund Direct Growth

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09.03.2024 to 09.03.2025 -

A year is divided into 12 parts which is called month.

09.03.2024 to 31.03.2024

This is a month

A month is divided into weeks.

01.03.2024 to 07.03.2024

08.03.2024 to 14.03.2024

So I'm on the second week of March.

So my goal is to forget her, so that she may think I have moved on.

Step 1. - Do not call or text her till 14.03.2024

Do not even think of her.

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“Make sure you don’t start seeing yourself through the eyes of those who don’t value you. Know your worth, even if they don’t.”

— Thema Davis

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is my safe space, Tumblr.

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Tumblr is sexy.

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Day 0 of 100 Days of Being Productive.

Day 0 of 100 Days of Being Productive is 22-07-2023 20:32 to 24:00.

So this Saturday (today) I only have 3.28 hrs left.

I have to manage hourly time table to schedule my time today.

20:33 to 21:00 - Dinner

21:00 to 24:00 - Sleep.

And then Day 1 of 100 Days of being productive arrives.

So here's the plan of tomorrow.

00:00 to 05:00 - Sleep.

05:00 to 06:00 - Brush, Toilet, Drink 2 Glass of Water, Exercise.

06:00 to 07:00 - Take Bath, Study Math.

07:00 to 08:00 - Study CSR. (07:45 to 08:00 - Phones)

08:00 to 09:00 - Breakfast, Study Math.

09:00 to 10:00 - Study Math

10:00 to 11:00 - Study Math (10:45 to 11:00 - Phone)

11:00 to 12:00 - Study Math

12:00 to 01:00 - Study Math

01:00 to 02:00 - Study Math (01:45 to 02:00 - Phone)

02:00 to 03:00 - Lunch, Study CSR

03:00 to 04:00 - Study Math

04:00 to 05:00 - Study Math (04:45 to 05:00 - Phone)

05:00 to 06:00 - Study Math

06:00 to 07:00 - Study math

07:00 to 08:00 - Study CSR (07:45 to 08:00 - Phone)

08:00 to 09:00 - Dinnner, Study Math. Sleep

09:00 to 24:00 Sleep

Phone Usage

07:45 to 08:00

10:45 to 11:00

01:45 to 02:00

04:45 to 05:00

07:45 to 08:00

total 1 hr 15 mins

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I first think of Rani, then Pallavi. Why the fuck?

“I have a million things to talk to you about. A million things we have to talk about. All I want in this world is you. I want to see you and talk. I want the two of us to begin everything from the beginning.”

— Haruki Murakami, Norwegian Wood

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I'm still feeling angry over my ex girlfriend Rani. I cannot forgive her.

I am here at park all alone, I think Rani and both Amit are having a party at Amit's home. I miss having friends. Jab se wo log meri life me aaye hai. Pahle sab kuch accha tha. Fir dheere dheere maine dost khone shuru kar diye.

Vaise mai bachpan se hi akela tha, aur abhi bhi akela hu. Mujhe akelapan hone ka dard hota hai. Bahut jyada. Sadness feeling aati hai.

Sabse jyada mujhe Rani ko khona hurt karta hai, ab wo help mangegi to mai Na hi bolunga aur jo mann me aaye bol dunga. Mujhe ghanta fark ni padta hai.

I wish wo next time kabhi mujhe help na mange. Mai uska chehra dekhna ya uski awaz sunna nai chahta.

Agr usko mujhse pyar tha hi nai to kyu mere sath timepass kar rhi thi. Itna jyada hurt hua. Fir bolti hai tumhari choice thi. Wo selfish madarchod. Mujhe dukh hai ki mai use chhorne gya tha uske college aaj. Mujhe seedhe seedhe mana kar dena tha. Us kutiya ko. Mujhe laga tiwari nai hai. Par tiwari to tha. Wo kaise rude banti hai to mai bhi to rude ban sakta hu

Mai use chahta tha, par wo tiwari ke sath galat baat.

Pta hai kitna bhi process karu is baat ko, is baat ka dard kabhi khatam ya kam nai hota.

Sirf shadi ke bad hi khatam hoga.

Aur upar se madarchod jhuth bhi bolti hai.

Pata nai kisse gand marwa rhi hogi abhi.

Teen saal me pta nai kya kya hoga yr. Mujhe jaldi paise jma kar ke jaldi shadi kar leni chahiye thi. 15000₹ ka RD pahle hi kara leni chahiye the. Koi financial saving ni rakhna galat bat hai.

Mere papa ke pas b koi saving nahi hai. Wo to hamesha laga me rahte hai.

Bye.

Aaj ke liye itna hi kafi hai.

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How it ended with a heartbreak.

It was beginning of March of 2020. I don’t remember the date, but I know I used to go to Library those days. I was studying books of B.Sc. I in library. I used to keep silent my phone. So my phone was silent that evening.

After a while, when I looked at my phone, I saw a missed call from the number +918889822023. I searched this number on truecaller. “Bata”, said the truecaller. I called back, a girl picked up my phone and said, “Pehchano Mujhe”. I couldn’t recognize her so I said, “I didn’t recongnize you.” She introduced her,, “Rani bol rhi hu. Mere liye ek copy le aana nai to meri teacher mujhe maar dalegi, Sakshi se apka number li hu.” I said “Okay.” I really didn’t want to bring her the copy. I was thinking that this was not added in my timetable or to-do list so I shouldn’t do this thing. Than I went to Sindhu Book Depot and bought copy for her.

She used to live in the first floor, just above my room. I knocked her room and she came out wearing really nice outfit and she tried to have a good talk with me. I didn’t talk her a lot, I took 50 Rs from her, while the copy costs 40Rs, I told her and then left.

Then after a while, she texted me, “Thank you.”

“All pleasure in mine,” replied I. Trying not to start a conversation with her.

She was asking for my name, “Raja” I said, because her name was Rani.

I was not interested in her that moment because her skin color was black.

We chatted a little and then slept.

Story of next day, I will write next day.

Thank you.