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Pierre-Yves TREMOIS Minotaur, 1952.

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Been a rly productive day I cleaned the whole entire house (besides the bathrooms, which I did a week ago and are still looking okay), drank an entire glass of water before noon, and I am on track to have taken my meds every day for the past week in a row

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Working outside today in 110F zero humidity weather....

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New American Gothic, Gabe Nava

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I've seen what happens when people Get Worse. I've orbited a lot of people who Got Worse (especially online). If you listen to people who Got Worse it's all the same: they don't have consistent, meaningful social support, they've been hurt too many times and they can't open up out of fear that the next betrayal is going to drive the knife right through the artery, they end up spending too much time alone and develop secret languages, meanings, thought cycles completely inscrutable to anyone who has never had to rely on such rituals to survive, they get caught in a cycle of reopening and licking their wounds because the progression of time is so unrewarding and stagnant that the past is basically always the present, and the present is already the future, they become mean, they become strange.

some people might offer to help them but it's rare they ever know where to start, let alone exhibit compassion without grimace. admittedly, even for genuinely compassionate people, it isn't the easiest thing. if the person is someone who is stuck in their ways or doesn't know you, they don't really have a reason to be receptive to your help. "why should I waste my time on someone who is just going to become another memory of heartache? someone who will carelessly hurt and abandon me?" and such. an earnest attempt to help can feel like an attempted assault to them. at the same time, the meaningful interpersonal relationships that these people need will not survive if built on pity or fleeting self-gratifying feelings of "building" someone into your idea of a desirable person.

I don't know where I was going with this, but I always found it hard not to see myself as only a few degrees removed from these people. one or two safety nets separated from being completely trapped. unable to feel safe in not just the world but also my own body. a cosmological dead end. I stay away from habitually engaging in the obvious things can that make trying to change when you're at this point difficult (alcohol, drugs, etc), but if temperance is how you maintain stability in the face of rock bottom, you're basically already there, right? you're there and your body just hasn't caught up. maybe I'm just being dramatic because it's late. hows everypony finding the new deltarune chapters.

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I get how the whole "listening to music as a dick-measuring contest for who can listen to the most obscure band" thing can get grating sometimes but I don't think people realize just how vital that phenomenon is for new up and coming bands to get a foot in the door. it's understandable to be annoyed by hipsterism but unless you want all music to be industry plants and former child stars you're just going to have to accept it as part of the social ecosystem.

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They should invent a caffeine that doesn't completely dehydrate you instantly

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her name is Luna!

(SHE/HER) 🐆🏳️‍⚧️🌙

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> friend voices concern for my longterm health using Isd

> do a bunch of research, turns out "permafry*" and brain holes and killing braincells are all myths

> convey research to friend

> "but [another unresearched myth]!"

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Presto's head is all FINISHED!!!!! Im so happy with how she turned out, im so proud of all of the hard work I put into her.

I learned so many new things, and also had a great time brushing up on some old techniques from long ago...

Onto her paws, tail, and feet!

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crab makeup by pradaolic on IG

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girl who desperately craves something but is also deathly afraid of reaching for it: *hasnt responded to you in a week*

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Hiiiiii just a reminder that

Fat people are allowed to exist in public. Fat people are allowed to go to pools and ride bikes and go on hikes. Fat people are allowed to go to the gym. Fat people are allowed to go to restaurants and museums and zoos. Fat people are allowed to wear whatever they want and eat whatever they want.

And if you have people in your life who believe otherwise, who try to make people feel shamed or unwelcome for the perceived crime of being fat in public, then shut that shit down.

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hornworm taur 💚

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Welp new plan for the rest of the day instead of the shit I wanted to do: have a crisis

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Namio Harukawa