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A small scene that's been haunting me

There are very few things Deadpool did that he would admit were bad ideas. His ideas were usually excellent and came with great pay off! Ok, that was a lie. There were a lot of things he's done that turned out to be horrible ideas. But those didn't matter at the moment. This one is at the forefront of his long list. This plan was a bad idea and he regrets it. Laying down and crawling, shuffling along with his sides barely having any purchase to move, almost stuck in a stupid air duct is not how Deadpool saw this plan going. When he decided to break into Stark Towers to 'test' Starks security measures, it was supposed to be fun! A fun thing to show that Deadpool still had it! It was supposed to go: ' The great Deadpool sneaks in. Maybe take some random tech thingy to play with to congratulate himself for a job well done and then send the tincan man an image of it later to rub it in his face. Then maybe get some random flavored ice-cream cream to celebrate!'

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Having two hundred and some change pounds of Canadian Beef wiggling like a worm through the ventilation shaft was nowhere stated along those lines. He could feel the shaft slowly starting to heat up from all the unexpected friction. Felt his suit already sticking to his scarred skin. The worst part was he didn't know where he was. He should've taken a left back at the last intersection but right just felt... well... right. And he was never one to deny his instincts nor wants so that was the path he ended up going.

Sadly, Deadpool did not study this area of the floor plan that well, so now here he was. A sad, red worm, trying to silently wiggle his way to somewhere that wasn't an air vent. Honestly, he should just be grateful that this thing wasn't collapsing with his weight. He'll praise metal man for that later. He kept on until he heard a soft-spoken sentence. "...Spiderman? What is your thoughts on Deadpool?"

The voice rang through the room softly, but it could have been a shout from where Wade was once he comprehended the question. Immediately stiffening, he instantly knew where he was. Right above the meeting room. Guess that answered that question. He didn't even need to go to the conveniently placed air grate ahead of him to see who asked that. He could place that Star spangled flag wearing man hunk from anywhere. Captain America was always one of his top crushes, definitely towards top 10. At least. He was. Until Spidey came along and stole spots 1-99. Silence rang out for a few moments, and that's when Wade decided he did, in fact, needed to see what was happening. Even slower than before, he wiggled his way forward. Peeking through the grate, Wade stopped all of his movement, trying not to even breathe as he took in the scene below him. All the avengers are in various places around a giant round table. The only missing is Thor. All heads are looking to the side, looking directly at Spidey. It looks like they either were about to start a meeting or just ended one. Deadpool can't help but feel some sort of emotion he can't place raise in his chest. Sure, he technically works more for S.H.E.I.L.D now because of all the missions they give him, but he's helped out the avengers several times now too. The voices whisper in his ears about how they will never like him. Will never see him as a viable part of their wonder team. He quickly stamps them and that feeling down before he tunes back in. Spiderman is off to the side, next to a table that has various bits and pieces laying on it, alongside blueprints and tools. In his hands is some circular piece of metal and the other holds a piece of paper. His body is facing the table, but his head is tilted. Wade knows that tilt. That's his 'I'm listening, but I can't be bothered to actually look/pay full attention to you right now' tilt

Spider hummed in acknowledgment before continuing, "What do you mean?" After all they've been through, those 4 words make wades stomach drop. Makes him want to shout so everyone will stop, and he won't ever find out Peters true feelings about him because sure, wade may know what Spiderman's name and what he looks like, but that doesn't mean he knows how spiderman actually feels about him (Even if Spidey tells him otherwise, he's just nice like that). And, sure, he and Peter were in a relationship, but that didn't mean Peter actually liked him enough to tell others that. The most likely explanation was simply he was bored and Deadpool was the closest person. Deadpool's fine with that! Really! Made his peace a long time ago. Peters a fine piece of meat compared to his ground beef self and he expected to be ditched at some point. No matter what that awful emotion in his chest says, or that feeling of his limbs going numb, or the sound of his heart breaking! He'll take what he can get for as long as he can get it because he always knew that Spiderman was bigger than lil ole Wade. No matter what Peter may say. Peter is Spiderman and Spiderman has a reputation to uphold. Him being seen with Deadpool already has done damage to his friendly persona. Of course, Peter would make the executive decision to denounce Deadpool in front of everyone. Clear his name to the big league. "What is Deadpool to you, Spiderman?" Captain tries again, his voice a little louder. Steadier. Like he expects a real answer right now. Wades ears strain and he can hear Spidey's mouth opening before he inevitably destroys what little self-worth wade had lef- "He's mine." What. What. Silence rang out in the room, but Wade wasn't focused on that. No, he was focused on how he could suddenly hear the blood in his ears, and his heart thumping so loudly he hoped it wouldn't explode. The worst of it was the hope that sang throughout his entire body

Tony seemed to have rebooted the same time it took Deadpool to because he let out a confused cry of, "What!? Like own him!? Of all people? Deadpool!" Spidey finally put down both objects in his hand and slowly turning his body to face the others at the table. Wade could see him squaring his shoulders before opening his mouth again. "Yes and No. I don't own him in a sense of he's my property. But he does belong to me. He is mine just as I am his. If you're asking what Deadpool is to me. He's...he's everything. If you were to open me up, you would find his name written on my soul, like a brand. Same as him. And yes, Deadpool. We are together. He. Is. Mine" The last three words are said slowly, like Spiderman is challenging anyone to tell him different. No one does. Captain once again changes his tone back into something softer, Wade can barely hear it, "You love him."

It wasn't a question. "With every fiber of my being." Peter Nods while he says it. Like it's the easiest thing in the world. Without a shadow of a doubt, no hint of hesitance in his voice. Wade doesn't know if his heart can last with how fast it's beating up here. Doesn't know if he can handle how much devotion, belonging, and god damn love has suddenly filled his entire being. He might die of a heart attack and that would suck. Really badly. He needed to escape Wade finally pulled away from the grate and once again started his silent worm journey through the vents. For some reason, everything was hotter now than before and there seemed to be water in his mask. He needed out of the tower, and he needed it now Tears and Kevlar don't mix after all. --- Wades home, suit and mask off, sitting on the couch blankly staring at what ever was on the TV when he turned it on. Spiderman's declaration that morning still playing in his ears on repeat over and over again when the window opens. He can't decide between running away or jumping the arachnid who he knows just entered his apartment, so he decides to do neither. He sits and waits for his spider to find him. And isn't that a funny statement? His spider. For the first time, he fully believes that. Fully believes that Peter is his and his alone, that he's not going anywhere. It didn't take long. Peter stripped out of his suit completely and joined him on the couch in the time it took for him to make the decision to stay. Leaning over, Peter kissed the top of his forehead before dragging Wade down on the couch and positioning him. All Wade could do was blink down at his boyfriend, amused by the fact he now has been designated as a weighted blanket before setting down on top of Peter. Heart once again swelling looking down at him. Arms doming to wrap around each other, warmth shared, Silent 'I love you's' finally Wade gave the impression that Spidey wasn't going anywhere.

And if he pressed a small kiss over his boyfriend's chest, right above his heart, while whispering three small words in the silent room. that was Wades and his spiders business.

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"It's just a ship." To YOU it is. I've snorted this ship like cocaine and injected it into my veins like heroine. They have taken over by brain like a parasitic worm. They've latched onto my soul like how mold latches onto bread. I might not ship them in the future, but this ship has definitely influenced how I WILL ship in the future 💀

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"but they hate eachother" "this ship makes no sense" "that would never be canon" "they're only friends" "but one of them is already dating someone" "they'd be toxic together" don't caaaare I'm consuming media of them being insane about each other and falling in love in situations you couldn't fathom

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I’m so easily persuaded into a ship. All I need is one good piece of artwork and I’m like, yeah I see it. I approve.

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first sidlink drawing for the year of 2025 babyyy

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[yuki] - reposted w/ permission

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real

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Inosaku is holding me & my scenes hostage.

I have been trying to imagine a *different* sakura ship plot line, and I'll throw in an inosaku friend scene. The problem is the friend scene is too indepth. Like it's less 'Hey, we're really close' and more like, 'We have bore our souls to eachother and are willing to do anything for the other. They are damn near my other half and know everything about me. I will better them & they will always help me.'

And EVERY time I get done with their scene I go '?????? That's not just friend behavior.'

So im in this sick cycle of me then scrapping that idea out of this story and trying to think of a new scene for them only for it to end up giving the same feeling as the last one.

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SakuraWeek2024; Day 1: Inner Sakura

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Gaara: I don't need to go to bed. I'm not tired, I'll be fine.

Sakura: But, darling, I'll be so lonely without you. Come curl up in my arms so I can feel whole again.

Gaara: …Are you trying to seduce me into healthy sleeping patterns?

Sakura: Is it working?

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Some words to use when writing things:

winking

clenching

pulsing

fluttering

contracting

twitching

sucking

quivering

pulsating

throbbing

beating

thumping

thudding

pounding

humming

palpitate

vibrate

grinding

crushing

hammering

lashing

knocking

driving

thrusting

pushing

force

injecting

filling

dilate

stretching

lingering

expanding

bouncing

reaming

elongate

enlarge

unfolding

yielding

sternly

firmly

tightly 

harshly

thoroughly

consistently

precision

accuracy

carefully

demanding

strictly

restriction

meticulously

scrupulously

rigorously

rim

edge

lip

circle

band

encircling

enclosing

surrounding

piercing

curl

lock

twist

coil

spiral

whorl

dip

wet

soak

madly

wildly

noisily

rowdily

rambunctiously

decadent

degenerate

immoral

indulgent

accept

take

invite

nook

indentation

niche

depression

indent

depress

delay

tossing

writhing

flailing

squirming

rolling

wriggling

wiggling

thrashing

struggling

grappling

striving

straining

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Words to replace said, except this actually helps

I got pretty fed up with looking for words to replace said because they weren’t sorted in a way I could easily use/find them for the right time. So I did some myself.

IN RESPONSE TO Acknowledged Answered Protested

INPUT/JOIN CONVERSATION/ASK Added Implored Inquired Insisted Proposed Queried Questioned Recommended Testified

GUILTY/RELUCTANCE/SORRY Admitted Apologized Conceded Confessed Professed

FOR SOMEONE ELSE Advised Criticized Suggested

JUST CHECKING Affirmed Agreed Alleged Confirmed

LOUD Announced Chanted Crowed

LEWD/CUTE/SECRET SPY FEEL Appealed Disclosed Moaned

ANGRY FUCK OFF MATE WANNA FIGHT Argued Barked Challenged Cursed Fumed Growled Hissed Roared Swore

SMARTASS Articulated Asserted Assured Avowed Claimed Commanded Cross-examined Demanded Digressed Directed Foretold Instructed Interrupted Predicted Proclaimed Quoted Theorized

ASSHOLE Bellowed Boasted Bragged

NERVOUS TRAINWRECK Babbled Bawled Mumbled Sputtered Stammered Stuttered

SUAVE MOTHERFUCKER Bargained Divulged Disclosed Exhorted

FIRST OFF Began

LASTLY Concluded Concurred

WEAK PUSY Begged Blurted Complained Cried Faltered Fretted

HAPPY/LOL Cajoled Exclaimed Gushed Jested Joked Laughed

WEIRDLY HAPPY/EXCITED Extolled Jabbered Raved

BRUH, CHILL Cautioned Warned

ACTUALLY, YOU’RE WRONG Chided Contended Corrected Countered Debated Elaborated Objected Ranted Retorted

CHILL SAVAGE Commented Continued Observed Surmised

LISTEN BUDDY Enunciated Explained Elaborated Hinted Implied Lectured Reiterated Recited Reminded Stressed

BRUH I NEED U AND U NEED ME Confided Offered Urged

FINE Consented Decided

TOO EMO FULL OF EMOTIONS Croaked Lamented Pledged Sobbed Sympathized Wailed Whimpered

JUST SAYING Declared Decreed Mentioned Noted Pointed out Postulated Speculated Stated Told Vouched

WASN’T ME Denied Lied

EVIL SMARTASS Dictated Equivocated Ordered Reprimanded Threatened

BORED Droned Sighed

SHHHH IT’S QUIET TIME Echoed Mumbled Murmured Muttered Uttered Whispered

DRAMA QUEEN Exaggerated Panted Pleaded Prayed Preached

OH SHIT Gasped Marveled Screamed Screeched Shouted Shrieked Yelped Yelled

ANNOYED Grumbled Grunted Jeered Quipped Scolded Snapped Snarled Sneered

ANNOYING Nagged

I DON’T REALLY CARE BUT WHATEVER Guessed Ventured

I’M DRUNK OR JUST BEING WEIRDLY EXPRESSIVE FOR A POINT/SARCASM Hooted Howled Yowled

I WONDER Pondered Voiced Wondered

OH, YEAH, WHOOPS Recalled Recited Remembered

SURPRISE BITCH Revealed

IT SEEMS FAKE BUT OKAY/HA ACTUALLY FUNNY BUT I DON’T WANT TO LAUGH OUT LOUD Scoffed Snickered Snorted

BITCHY Tattled Taunted Teased