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every single mental health breakdown I've ever had has been the result of me suffering consequences for my actions.

And yet some people will still tell me that I'm a worthwhile person.

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This part of me is never, ever going to change, because I'm past the age where people can change. The only thing I can do is continue to mooch off of my family and get blocked and banned from places because of my own incessant need to be contrarian.

And no, therapy won't help, because I've tried that already. COVID ended up killing the last one I had, and it didn't really work anyway because I refuse to actually open up about my problems.

I think a part of the reason I act the way that I do, (aside from just being a general piece of shit, or course) is that the paranoid lizard part of my brain thinks that people will immediately realize that what ever I say comes from someone who is Not Worth Listening To.

so instead, what I do act like the stupidest mother fucker I can think of that supports the opposite of what I think. It's easy, because I'm a stupid mother fucker, and my stupid brain thinks it's effective because people will realize it's me but not realize that I'm lying.

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yeah, I really should just kill myself, shouldn't I?

Make the world a better place, you know?

I think a part of the reason I act the way that I do, (aside from just being a general piece of shit, or course) is that the paranoid lizard part of my brain thinks that people will immediately realize that what ever I say comes from someone who is Not Worth Listening To.

so instead, what I do act like the stupidest mother fucker I can think of that supports the opposite of what I think. It's easy, because I'm a stupid mother fucker, and my stupid brain thinks it's effective because people will realize it's me but not realize that I'm lying.

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Gen 6 was the first time they actually had to design a majority of shinies, to be fair.

That was the time they switched to models for the pokemon instead of sprites, so they couldn't have an algorithm design most of them.

video about the topic, if you're interested.

I feel like all the gen 6 shinies so far have been so vibrant, I love them! So many of them I hadn't seen before now!

I'm glad to be the one to help introduce them to you :D Gen 6 has a lot of really cool shiny choices for pokemon that are more overlooked, imo!

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by jonsun@C106日曜日南 r-01a@jonsunk

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I think a part of the reason I act the way that I do, (aside from just being a general piece of shit, or course) is that the paranoid lizard part of my brain thinks that people will immediately realize that what ever I say comes from someone who is Not Worth Listening To.

so instead, what I do act like the stupidest mother fucker I can think of that supports the opposite of what I think. It's easy, because I'm a stupid mother fucker, and my stupid brain thinks it's effective because people will realize it's me but not realize that I'm lying.

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btw if i see one post about anne frank’s sexuality from goyim this month i will start swinging

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you know what's really fun?

being in the middle of a lowgrade nervous breakdown. Especially when you have no actual responsibilities to be nervously breaking down about.

maybe this one will lead to me feeling bugs crawling under my skin again, who knows?

And more importantly, who fucking cares?

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i might be slowly starting to learn!

Instead of just saying some stupid bullshit, I instead said "The bad faith asshole part of me wants to say" before I said my stupid bullshit.

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the bad faith asshole part of me wants to say "Oh, so you want more people to suffer just so they learn that war is bad?".

Tired of all the uninvolved westerners making WW3 jokes

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I bring a "zionism is first and foremost a term and philosophy for jews that was co-opted by both sides of the political spectrum because they aren't allowed to say kike anymore" vibe to the function that frankly makes a lot of people uncomfortable

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"They'll [the evil evil baby-killing zios] will characterize me as a kapo if (((they))) find this post" so close to self-awareness yet so far

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oh my g-------d who cares

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Someone made a parody trailer for a fictional Papers Please USA edition, now with bonus"Israel is making you poor" conspiracies 🤩

Ahhhh. Anyways, to be extra clear, this isnt an actual game. just a parody. Classy as always🙃

Dear Imsad,

man I want to go back to when these “jokes” were part of obscure games sold on someone’s shady .net website for 14 dollars and 88 cents

to the shame pile with KZ manager and October 7th simulator you go

yours,

Cecil

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That's what the comic books and the cartoon show are for.

Men in Black is such a cool set up to have so few movies. I know you can't afford Will Smith and Tommy Lee Jones every time, but come on! How can it not be in a million crossovers. It should be the wolverine of movies. I need Daffy Duck and Bugs Bunny doing a movie.

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tech workers finally touching grass since cloudflare, aws, and google cloud are all down

Google services outage today, GL team

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The world maps from Yoshi’s Island, plus the connecting map introduced in Super Mario Advance 3.