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Happy Friday, y’all! I’m off to the post office with your packages and I can’t wait for you to receive your goodies! Going into the weekend I wanted to share some of y’all’s Star Wars faves from this week! As always you can use code TUMBLR15 for 15% off most accessories! Shop is here.

more below the cut!

Can’t wait to see what y’all’s faves are next week! Shop is here. Love y’all!

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i don’t think i’m ever going to get over the way that booth looks at brennan in s6ep9 when she’s examining the chicken and how excited he was to have her show off her skills. and how careful brennan was getting the meal together and cleaning his cup and making the meal to honor hannah and making sure it was good for angela and her morning sickness.

and also because i will continue to push my hodgins and brennan best friends agenda, the way jack was looking at her in awe and amusement is so dear to me. that’s his best friend!! showing off her special interest!! the “here we go!” from him!! he’s seen it before!! he loves this trick!!

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Literally grumpy and grumpier in the morning

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they’re my big three ❤️

alt versions^

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idk blindfolds are sexy

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the clan of two 💫

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the hype is UP

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Manacled by @senlinyuwrites

Paper cranes, roses, dragon, red robes, gothic window. I got this idea in the afternoon, it’s now 5 am. 😵‍💫 I can’t see straight but I have no regrets!

I’m on a roll you guys! I unlocked this new art style last week and now I’m completely obsessed with it!!

Please, don’t use without permission.

& keep fanfiction free.

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Fanbinding for absolute beginners - PART 1

There's a fanfic you love so much you'd like to have a physical copy of it? But you don't know how to make it? You've come to the right place! I'm a teacher and I've done this with my pupils (11 year olds), so you can do it, too!

To preface this, obviously this is only one of many methods to bind a book, and it's not perfect, but it's easy enough for my pupils to do it, so I thought I'd share how I do it, to hopefully help people who want to bind fanfics but have never done it before! :) 

Here are some examples of what my books look like when done:  

 

Part 1: Preparations on the PC and printing  

 

To start off, a book is made up of several signatures, which is just a bunch of pages folded in the middle. I've found the best signatures for this method are made of four A4 (or letter format) sheets of paper, folded, so it makes 16 pages in total. But signatures of 5 or 6 sheets work well too!  

That means you need to prepare your pdf to have a page count that is dividable by 16 (4 sheet signatures), 20 (5 sheet signatures) or 24 (6 sheet signatures). I usually just add blank pages to the front and back of the book until I reach a usable page count. Also check that your chapters start at the page you want (odd pages are on the right, even ones are on the left).  

 

If that is done, you can get to printing. I print signature per signature, and use Adobe Acrobat for that. Apparently, the free trial version can do this too, so no need to pay for it if you don't have it!  

 

The fanfic I'm printing has 320 pages, so I'm gonna print 20 signature made of 4 sheets (16 pages). I write down which pages make the signature so I can them just type them in: 

Signature 1 consists of pages 1 - 16 

Signature 2: 17 - 32 

Signature 3: 33 - 48 

Signature 4: 49 - 64 

... 

Signature 20: 305 - 320  

 

Now, printing works like this: 

In Adobe Acrobat, open your pdf and click on print. In the printing options, you first chose the "Booklet" option and then type in the pages for the signature you want to print (e.g. 1-16). Hit print and you'll have your first signature, which you can then fold in the middle! Repeat this step for all the signatures until you've printed the whole book. Done!  

If you've got any questions or need clarification an anything, feel free to ask!

(This is just a screenshot from the web, so the numbers don't match, but my Adobe Acrobat is completely in German, so it would probably be even less helpful!)

 

About the paper: I use normal printing paper in a bit of a yellowish colour (looks better than the sharp white of normal paper). Printing paper has, however, the wrong paper grain, so if you have access to paper with grain in the other direction, take that instead! The results with printing paper are okayish, with maybe a few wrinkles, but nothing too bad (in my opinion, haha). 

The parts of this tutorial:

Part 1

Part 2

Part 3

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My Destiel Fic Recommendations

Canon:

The Most Important Thing by NorthernSparrow - S10. This is one of the coolest character studies of Cas I’ve ever read.

Hope and Clay by tabulaxrasa - S12. The monster’s speech to Dean is amazing ‘cuz it’s true

oh sooner or later it all comes down to faith by sobsicles - Post-canon. This is the fic that has made me feel the most right with the world since the finale.

Last Night on Earth by @the-communist-unicorn -S5. “There are two things I know for certain. One, Bert and Ernie are gay. Two, you are not gonna die a virgin.”

There Are Many Things by imogenbynight

Though The Course May Change by imogenbynight

The Tunnel of Love by xylodemon - I love a good case fic, and I think this balances the non-Destiel and the Destiel plots really well while feeling super in-character.

Rest in Pieces by xylodemon

Supply Run by TheTwistedWillow - I love jealous!Dean, plus this has my favorite Sam moment of any fic.

Dean (and Cas’) Top 13 Zepp Traxx by pantheon_of_discord

Saying Yes by LanaSerra - I love it when characters that didn’t get a chance to interact in canon are allowed to. This is John coming back and meeting Cas and the rest of Dean’s and Sam’s found family.

Zenith by anactoria

Every Story Has to Start Somewhere by tricia_16 - So in character! And I feel like it starts off where a lot of canon fics end, tracking Destiel from their first kiss as their relationship evolves.

The Twelve Days (Or Is It Years?) Of Christmas by MittenWraith - This is the story that finally got me to sign up for an AO3 account in the first place so that I could bookmark it. I definitely recommend reading around the holidays.

Personified UST by foxymoley, MalMuses - This is hilarious. My favorite part is Dean’s and Cas’s little square off where they try to get Destiel’s eyes to change color.

guard you in all your ways by dothraki_shieldmaiden

AUs:

We Are Not Poets by followyourenergy - This fic reminds me of warm chocolate chip cookies. It just makes me feel good from beginning to end. And I love Friends to Lovers.

Adventures in Love and Grieving by followyourenergy - I get very protective of Cas’s love of Dean, so I expected not to like this fic just because it involves Cas being married before and grieving their death in a way that doesn’t fit into my ideas of Cas. However, I ended up loving Destiel’s relationship in this and how they really could understand each other in a way no one else could. I especially loved that they both thought they were straight. I don’t think enough fics really deal with that mutual learning process.

The Way to a Man’s Heart is Through Chlamydia by violue - This made me laugh and feel ten different new shades of happy and I was so glad it had sequels.

The Complete Works of Emmanuel Allen by violue

Hue Burn by K_K_TiBal - I love stories with synesthetic Cas, and artist Dean was a new one for me but definitely worked here

Syncopation by K_K_TiBal - Two of my favorite tropes are Soulmate AUs and celebrity AUs and this one gives me both with really good pacing.

On Air by wincechesters - I love banter-y, domestic Destiel where literally everyone knows they should be together already except for the two of them.

The Bond-Breaker Murders by Desirae - It was interesting having an AU take on angel and human dynamics and I just love how strong Dean’s and Cas’s relationship is here and in the sequel.

America’s Next Top Chef by emwebb17 - This is genuinely hilarious and the best use of photos in fic ever.

The One: Supernatural Edition by motorbike_on_the_avenue - I feel like I love this more because it made me not mind a lot of things I thought I wouldn’t like. Dean and Cas don’t get a lot of direct interaction in this fic, and yet it does one of the best jobs I’ve seen in any AU of showing why they belong together.

Like Cats and Dogs by sweetdean - I liked the expansion of A/B/O dynamics in this and how sassy Cas was. Dean’s and Cas’s relationship seemed fought for and earned and lived in.

Mulder and Scully by teller_of_tales_and_hero_of_songs

Unwritten by PorcupineGirl

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Last words

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my great-grandfather had to leave italy in the 20′s because he hit a fascist with a tuba, so if you think I am going to take this sitting down you are going to have to catch these hands and also this tuba

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Are YOU gonna let THE GOVERNMENT tell YOU what YOUR GENDER is? That doesn't sound like Life Liberty and the Pursuit of Happiness to me! PROTECT your individual FREEDOMS and call your senator: we want the GOVERNMENT to stay OUT OF OUR PANTS! GENDER FREEDOM NOW!

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Plot lines the 9-1-1 never mentioned again that have potential:

Bobby’s special blood

Taylor Kelly’s s5 Xmas gift bracelet beacon thing

Ravi’s childhood cancer arc (Ravi Begins ep WHERE??)

Guy from the Academy that Chim convinced to be a dispatcher (fear of heights dude)

Buck’s lightning scars (the POTENTIAL)

Eddie’s (lesbian) hermanas

Hen shot as a teenager? Mentioned like once??

Lena Bosko

Taylor Kelly, Tommy Kinard & Lucy Donato helicopter Air Support team up? (The potential in that random helicopter chase in s8? Missed opportunity)

Other 118 a, b & c shift firefighters (office style ep from their pov of our 118 guys)

Mayravi potential

The invisible fire engine driver dude

So much lore has been dropped over the years yet never mentioned again

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okay i've been thinking more - and i wanna talk about Joe's mother wound in relation to his relationships throughout the season.

It really seems like the root of his mother wound is her getting him hurt and then giving him up which yes - true, of course. BUT i actually think the source of his mother wound is less about not being taken care of and more about not being thanked. He doesn't fault his father for abusing him or them, he faults his mother for cheating - abandoning him to do so and thereby "earning" maltreatment (see: candace stone) she is also at fault for "letting" his father come back and for "letting" him hurt them. (See: mother's are supposed to PROTECT their children from men like him). But the root of the issue is that Joe k*lled his dad for her to protect her, and she gave him up, making her ungrateful for his sacrifice. Which as a child, makes sense, but fuels his self righteous hatred of women in adulthood. He's a "good guy" a "feminist" so feminist that he "respects women more than they respect themselves." Why aren't they grateful?

So while yeah the abandonment and abuse is prevalent that aspect of gratitude is what I think is most influential in his treatment of women - specifically, women - in the words of Penn Badgley he'll put anyone in the cage but he only puts women in the bedroom. Not to mention, the last words Joe remembers his father saying (that we see) is verbatim "why can't you just do right by me and love me like you're supposed to." Giving Joe a clear obstacle and also shaping his thinking in relationships. But he gets rid of the problem and loses everything.

Enter Mooney - he also does horrible things to Joe but he learns to respect Mooney for the ways he hurts him and reinforces the deranged idea that sometimes we do terrible things to people and for people because we love them. He's earned Mooney's love through abuse - therefore, he's grateful for the abuse (plus the whole misogynistic mess of men being allowed to hurt and women only being allowed to be hurt and then "protected"). Because Joe would "never hurt a woman" unless of course that woman "forces" him to kill to "protect her" and she condemns him.

First, we see Candace. Joe's first attempt at healing this wound. Who was a free-spirit, entirely enrapturing and ultimately, a little reckless with other people's feelings but damaged enough that Joe could "love" her back to health. But she cheats on him, and he immediately blames and kills the man. Candace was still a damsel to be saved until she said she didn't love him - she was ungrateful for his love (violence) so he killed her. Or tried anyway.

Then Beck, Beck was honestly likely the perfect ideal in his eyes for attempting to fill that hole within him. She wanted to be saved, she wanted to be swept away, and she wanted someone to just give her a break and love her and she was inclined to be a touch naive and self-degrading (her 'friends,' her dad, benji, joe). But she was still stark in her morals, intelligence and writing and when she found out what Joe did she reasonably freaked. So Joe corrected his initial mistake with Candace - don't resort to violence first, put her in the cage until she "see's sense" and is grateful. Which only falls apart when she says she could never love him AND highlights that her mistakes and his mistakes are in NO WAY EQUAL. It fractured all of his justifications.

Realistically, if Joe was going to have a happy ending it should've been with Love. If his wounds were truly about needing someone to see him - all of him - and not only stay but accept him she was the one to do that. But it fell apart, because Joe not only needs acceptance, gratitude and validation, he needs it from a damsel, someone he can put on a pedestal but hold below himself physically and intellectually. Love Quinn, was Joe's equal, she could accept him because she would also kill to protect. But when women commit acts of violence themselves, it takes away from his control and self-righteousness, you can't save someone who's capable of saving you - not in Joe's mind. Love not only loved him but would protect him and knew who he was before he had to reveal himself and once he saw the violence she was capable of he stopped loving her. He is only interested in women he views as "good" women he can corrupt (see: this is my fault, this is not you) but he couldn't corrupt Love, she already had that danger in her. So she could love that within him, but Joe couldn't return that love because she was no longer what he wanted. He needed to be loved by "good but flawed" people so he could feel justified, because if he's loved by someone who would never do what he does, but gets past the fact that he's capable of it that means he is "good but flawed."

Enter Marienne Bellamy (i know natalie is there too but she's the same, needs to be saved but his guilt for her death evaporated as soon as he found out she wasnt falling in love with him) she was very similar to Beck. Vulnerable enough to need saving - until she says she doesn't to which Joe does not react well to - until he "redeems" himself and "saves" her anyway. She was flawed enough for Joe to feel he needs to forgive her the way felt he needed to forgive every woman in his life for the life they lived before him. He viewed her as good, virtuous but with enough flaws for him to exploit. He chases her because she represents a new life, and abandons everything to choose it (including his SON). But she rejects him, she's ungrateful, so she goes in the cage. "I accept you so you owe it to me to accept me."

Enter Kate - she deviates a little. And forgive me, I hate season four so I havent analyzed it as thoroughly but we see that he first see's her as someone who absolutely does not fit the mould, but he wants her anyway because half the fun for him is "winning them over." Then he finds out Kate has also done bad things, also killed, inadvertently but still. The inadvertently matters to Joe because he has a man to blame, the powerful man, corrupted the young girl, exploited her and made her do bad things. So he kills him and they live happily ever after because she accepts the only version of the truth he'll truly allow himself to believe. Plus, that is a good enough mirror for Joe to look into, "if she's good, then so am I." Her mistakes were also bad enough that Joe felt safe feeling like he was the only one who could "accept" that and so he'd always have something to weaponize. He needs to believe he is a victim and a tragic hero, he does bad things to protect people he loves and he is punished for it, and he needs his loved ones to believe that too. In season 5, Kate robs him of his power but remains virtuous enough in that she wants to be better but is a formidable enough opponent that he can't kill her. This is why he only really falls out of love with her when the tiktok is released and he's caught killing someone on camera, because now, Kate was condemning him but protecting him not for him but for her. He had to rely on her to get him out of this, before this, and before she said she despised that he wouldn't even try to control his murderous tendencies, he was still "trying" to love her. Because he loved the idea of a woman, the perfect mother to his son, not getting her hands dirty but being willing to turn to the man to "protect" the family. The big difference between Kate and Love is Kate didn't want to kill but Love was inclined to before Joe even got the chance. That line between "kill for me" and "i would absolutely kill for you" is very important in Joe's eyes.

Reagan, Peach, Maddie and Phoebe are interesting in showing women he wants to hurt (Reagan and Peach) and women he never wants to hurt but does not "fall in love with" (Maddie and Phoebe). Reagan is like Peach in that she is cruel, she is cunning, she is powerful and she is willing to hurt anybody to get her way and she does not show any softness for Joe to exploit. And in Joe's mind, that barely makes her a woman, instead, she's an opponent - which is probably part of why he doesn't even bother killing her himself in the end, because he did kill Peach but it was "self defence" she almost escaped him AND he almost got caught doing it, so why get his hands as dirty with Reagan? Whereas Maddie and Phoebe are virtuous and bubbly and feminine, but they don't have that edge all the other women have, they don't have that damage that Joe feels mirrors his own, so he doesn't see them as intelligent or depthful enough to fall in love with. This is also shown in who he's willing to let out of the cage versus who he isn't - Will, who was "logical" enough to "forgive" him for the cage, and Delilah, who really would've been killed immediately but she said she was willing to be bought (immoral in Joe's eyes) and she had Ellie making Joe more inclined to let her out.

Joe's profile for victims was very much a woman who was smart enough but still someone he held power over. With Love and Kate, he lost his power and so - fell out of love. Joe's relationship with all of those he views vulnerable in his life is interesting because while his initial intention is protection, love, whatever, even those he doesn't want to hurt, and doesn't hurt, he does ruin so much of their lives and calls it protection. Paco, Ellie, Maddie, Phoebe, Marienne, Juliet.

Enter Louise - she played every part perfectly because her and her friends figured out all of these things. And she so well fit the profile that she did start to believe his lies, until another woman got through to her. Joe trusted her so thoroughly that he offered her the illusion of control when he attacked her attacker, but he still got to scratch his itch when she let him out and he killed him anyway, under her nose. He says he wants acceptance, really he wants someone who can appreciate someone who will do anything for them ("what if it's enough for me that you want to") but never truly see it or fully accept it. And her ending, again, laid in her playing the game so well but also actively fighting against falling for his act internally, even in the finale "was this how good Beck felt before he killed her?" Joe finally thought he had someone who he could kill for, who could be his secondary character, who could let him "handle" things and be his pretty virtuous prop who forgives him each time she happens to catch him. She was book savvy, a writer, she needed to be saved, AND she was moral enough to need to be "persuaded" into an affair but she forgave and said thank you.

And his trust in thinking he finally had exactly what he craved, is why Louise won. Even the call to Henry, and his stupid "no one will love you like i do" were last ditch attempts. He fully believed he could still win her back, because she let him believe he had in the past successfully. But then, Louise says he's not the victim and brings up Beck and makes it seem like his words mean nothing and that he did nothing for Beck specifically. And he unravels.

The source of Joe's pattern is he wants to do these horrible things and be thanked by someone he see's as lesser because they're not "willing to get their hands dirty." When he doesn't get that, or when they show any kind of power over him - he kills them.

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Goodbye, YOU