Then interesting part about having a parent that hardly has conversations with you is that you remember everything they say because it feels like some sort of milestone event.
I think it must be frustrating to people that I hardly get embarrassed; particularly not embarrassed in vanity. I'm pretty in touch with the reality and how I look so I'm just... yeah I'm ugly or yeah I'm cute. You can't hold old embarrassing pictures of me over my head because i love and accept the person who was ugly and had no sense of style just as much as I love and accept the person looking back at him.
I woke up in the middle of the night to hear two soft spoken voices engaged in a rather serious conversation about something I couldn’t understand over ambient background music. I climbed out of bed and found my mother’s bedroom wide open across the hall, only to find her propped up in her king size bed, eating leftover bistig, and watching anime. She kept herself propped up with a pile of pillows with mismatched plaid pillowcases, clad in some underwear and that hideous pale yellow fleece robe she used to wear religiously. Her naturally wave hair was a mess, but that’s to be expected at 3AM I suppose. I sat up next to her on her bed, her eyes fixated on the small television screen in the corner.
“I like this kind of shows,” she muffled with a mouth full of bistig and rice.
I sat up and watched the show with her and fell asleep. It has been months since I had seen my mom, even though I saw her every day. I was always scared she would leave and never come back, either physically or mentally or both. Be that as it may, it was the greatest feeling to have her back, even at 3AM on a school night.
I later found out the show was .hack//sign. To this day, the .hack francise remains to be my favorite anime/manga series. The voices that I heard were that of Princess Tsubaru and Tsukasa, over what was probably Yuki Kajiura’s “Fake Wings.” It’s a haunting song, but it’ll always bring back hope.
[Dear, my love
sweet morning light
wait for me, you’ve gone much farther
too far]